~ A Star- Thrower ~

2009-06-21T19:17:00.001-07:00

Hi!! I finally updated my blog!! haha!

2008-09-15T19:34:00.000-07:00

Hey hey!! It has been a while be4 i begin to blog today!!!

First thing is mention is that................. I'm finally a Bible School Graduate....
Really wan to thanx God for His Amazing Grace and Unfailing Love throughout the whole of SOT.
Sometimes, when things seem impossible, He will make things happen for me. Once i cried out to Him, He will be there to intercede for me. Yea!! God is good all the time, all the time God is good!!! SOT had indeed blessed me a lot; it really tells me that my journey with Him had just started with the skills i had equipped. There is so much things I haven done for His kingdom, for His glory. So yea!!! On the ball.....

Second, I'm struggling with SE IA.... Oh no!! But thanx God for frenz!!! Tx for being there to help me!!! Love ya!! =)

Third thing to mention is I'm on my way to promotion. But i really need to watch all my behavior and actions. Next time, i will be handling 40 plus people and no longer just 12 ushers under my care. How can I gain their respect if I'm not zai and din watch the way i carry myself.. Yep yep!! o my way to the change.. =)

My third point is veri similar to wat Pastor Kong mentioned to all the leaders yesterday. He sae that as leaders, we muz watch the way we behave, the way we dress up and be more creative. We muz live Jesus out in our life but not onli living the scriptures out- be more holistic. We must oso say we muz make an effort to do it and not everything go by faith. Indeed, the one hour video had indeed blessed me a lot. Yep yep!! Recently, i'm reachingout to an unbeliever in sch; she's rather potential. Yes!!! Let's me use my God- given creativity to reach out!! I paryed that Revival will begin to break off in City Harvest Church!!! in E376!!

Wenting

2008-06-24T09:24:00.001-07:00

Haha!! I finally update my blog!!!!

Here is the lyrics of the song I like!!!

A Servant Heart (僕人的心)

我永遠不會忘記
Wo yong yuan bu hui wang ji

主你那豐富恩典
Zhu ni na feng fu en dian

如今我在天父懷中
Ru jing wo zai tian fu huai zhong

因為你舍下自己
Yin wei ni she xia zi ji

你不看我的過去
Ni bu kan wo de guo qu

只是完全接納我
Zhi shi wan quan jie na wo

主你的愛何等偉大
Zhu ni de ai he deng wei da

我的心完全融化
Wo de xin wan yuan rong hua

我親愛救主
Wo qing ai jiu zhu

我心何等感謝
Wo xin he deng gan xia

你單單在意
Ni dan dan zai yi

我這愛你的心
Wo zhe ai ni de xin

我原一生
Wo yuan yi sheng

追求跟隨我主
Zhui qiu geng sui wo zhu

謙卑為你服事這世界
Qian bei wei ni fu shi zhe shi jie

我親愛救主
Wo qing ai jiu zhu

我要一生敬拜
Wo yao yi sheng jing bai

在我生命中
Zai wo sheng ming zhong

你是唯一的愛
Ni shi wei yi de ai

毫無保留
Hao wu bao liu

我願獻上雖有
Wo yuan xian shang suo you

何等渴慕能為你而活 He deng ke mu neng wei ni er huo

耶穌我主
ye su wo zhu

I think the Chinese version made a larger impact!!! Yep yep!! Take a look!!!

These days are extremely tough to me!!! I hardly find any free time for myself to relax..
Every day, every hour study, study, study or work work work!!
Kinda tired!!!
God!!!
Refresh me ya???
I need ur strength as my strength is too limited..

Moreover, something happened that really distract me!!
The frenz ard me?
yes yes!!!
But shall not mention names!!!
But seriously, i think it's the devil that gives me such thoughts...
As long as i know I'm living in submitting to God can le!!!!
Out of all that had happened, I long to know God's character more and more!!!
He had only revealed to me some of them..
But it's not enuf...
I want more!!!!!

* True friends are there when you are uo and down!!! They will encourage when you are down. They will encourage you when you did something wrong! They wun despise and leave you when you did something wrong or unpleasing to them! A true friend will always try his ir her very best to help you to change with a better one!! Are you one of them???

"Clinging on your cross, I follow you!!!"

2008-05-28T06:16:00.000-07:00

MISSION TRIP PART 1

I'm back!!!!

I'm back from a wonderful place called Kedah, SP!!!!! Was so happy with that place that i dun feel like coming back!!! Haha!!! Jus kidding jus kidding! If i dun come back, how abt my studies? my ushers? my cgm? my family? and my future husband? Haha!!!

I really wan to thx Pst Daniel and the co- staff over there like my xiao di, Zi hao and Shaun, the one and onli faithful driver, Joseph, my entertainer, Wei Xiong, Sze Fen Jie and etc ..... Thanx for the food and accommodation and of course, ur accompany!!! My nite is nv fun without u guys!! the games will nt made perfect without ur help. the fun and laughter we have will nv be there without u guys!!!

I rmb the first nite when i go and check out the place. I saw Pst Daniel.. Oh man!! the 23 year old pastor is walking towards me!!! oh no!!! he's so gd looking can??? haha!!!! was captured by his appearance. But actually, i think i shld be the glory in him ba... yea!!! Then, Joseph went ard to help us find some logis stuff. haha!! so funny. i almost went inside his room!!! wah!!! but can c is quite messy...

after tat, we went back to our bungalow hse top settle some other stuff while some went back to church to settle some admin stuff. was discussing till we start playing and watching video on our church's praise and worship!! Wow!! these ppl in Kedah really love our church and Pastor Kong... After a few hrs, everyone went to bed while i was talking to Zi hao and playing the guitar at the same time. He was sharing with me how hard they really work the impossible; how to co[pe with the exam stress and the design of the church mini emerge flyer and do up some preparation. Oh man!!! i salute them can??? i can really sense the excitement in them, the passion they have in them for the church,as well as, following the vision of their pastor! On that ver nite, i heard that there will be 300 over ppl for their mini emerge. Wow!!! in the first place, we were told that ther is onli abt 200. But God is good!!! He's able to work miracles for GMC.. I also heard that one church member brings 4 to 5 frenz.. Wow!!! i was there thinking if one CHC mbr brings 4 to 5 frenz, then our church will hit 120,000 in attendance.. Wow!! massive revival leh!!! they really spur me up!!! and then God remind me a verse; is something abt the fig tree with no fruit. A tree with fruit will be casted away. oh man!!! me???? cast me??? oh no!!!!

besides that, was inspired by the leaders or co staff in GMC. Like Joseph and shaun, they are really a living testimony. They were once gangster; someone who smoke, involve in drug.... but now, shuan is a CGL with lots of mindy ideas while Joseph is one of the right hand man for Pst Daniel.. So proud of them....

Oh ya!!! i receive a revelation fro Shaun as well. He told me at a critical period of time, he was asking himself "What's he seeking for in life?" He really spur me to think more. But just the surface understanding but go in depth... But i'm still thinking la... hah!!!!!

PART 2..... to be continued tml!!!! BB

2008-05-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hey hey....

A lot of things to blog but.............. have some more impt things to blog abt...

1. mY result

I got back all my result le... Wow!! A shock of my life!!!! i din do veri well... But nvm!!! God's promise nv fail to come true in my life... Shall carry on living with his promises. =) mnow

2. my Days

I'm in bible sch now!!! each and every day is a great encounter with God. I really learnt a lot of things. Currently, i stil finding the pic so that i can express more on my blog. (U guys wait huh!!!)

3. my Ministry

I'm in a great ministry now!!! Usher ministry which really mould my character.

4. my Relationship

I'm having healthy relationship with my members, team and family. As in BGR, i din really care... but sometimes, i'm worried when i see female leaders in my ministry unattached... but believe that a great one is looking out for me!! Haha!!

2008-05-07T23:37:00.000-07:00

Finally, Our Name is Out!!!!

We are the Twelve!!!!!

Indescribable friendship!!!!

2008-04-27T05:58:00.000-07:00

It has been abt a month be4 i start blogging again.. Joyce, Tx for reminding..

Project after project, Exams after exams.. Oh man!!! I simply dislike such lifestyle... Life seemed so hectic that I simply tired, burnt out. Each and every day, i really struggle to kip the oil inside me burning.. Even if it's near empty, I just continue to motivate myself.... Here I am now!! An Alive gal!!! Tx to Yihan, Daniel, Michelle and Charis... Tx for sharing with me what God asked you to share with me... I will do wat God had told you guys, i will try my best to be more discipline... Each and every day, i will receive a new revelation from God, a new vision that God had gave, a dream that onli God can help me to fulfill... Really tx a lot.. Tx for the time ; ur time to share with me what God had told u .... It's always so nice to be ard u guys.. Surely i said; Wenting will become a renewed one from Today onwards; no longer one who is always caught with pile and pile of work, struggled with time management but one who follow the will God had sent me!!! Heard fro Lau da, He jus so refreshed and recharged after every intercession with God...

I oso wan to tx Joyce.... Gal huh!! Tx for always being there to encourage when i'm really facing challenges and struggles... Tx a lot.. And tx for all ur time with me; out in the wee hrs studying at Mac is the most memorable scene i will rmb... Yea!!! But gal, do voice out if u cant take it ya?? I really dun wan you to tire urself out. Dun be like me; i almost fall into the devil's trap of spending more time doing the things in the natural realm than spending or dwelling or even soaking in The presence of God.. Jia you gal!!!

Bb.... Go off to read my bible le!!! Will update asap

2008-03-31T09:45:00.000-07:00

It had been a long while......... i blog...........

Life is so hectic. I can hardly find time to rest these few weeks since Easter begins.. Can you imagine i have nt been watching a complete set of drama though i attend 5 out of 6 svc in Expo. Ha!! cos the first 2, i was doing external traffic then went back logis to study.. haaha!! the rest of the three is really busy til i din get a chance to watch... Was doing Charlie 2 on sat Easter svc; i can sae that the chief usher and my leaders above me really have faith in me!! Though i'm new in holding walkie set, they jus put me at Charlie; overseeing the whole of centre portion. But..... instead of helping Charlie 1; Melvin, we screwed up the svc duty tgt. haha!! nothing to be proud of... but on sun.. i'm glad that my prayers are met.was holding a walkie set again but doing Alpha 1; the overseer of the whole Alpha... but i'm with my mei; Cindy Moy.... zero lop holes again and i manage to make quite a lot of congregation to smile back at me; talking to me... haha!!! yea!! gd job ting!!! but think i stil have a lot to improve on; esp multi- tasking. u hv tips???

back to sch work.. i feel like appealing to other faculties ...i can no longer tolerate the life in IS.. it's really tiring.. slp like 3 hrs everyday... dun like this life... though putting so much effort, i stil cant score.. or worse stil, fail my paper.. my first time failing paper in uni... hate it!!! y???

After much weeping in a gsr, jus felt god telling me this verse; John 16:33 : These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Haiz... No matter how hard we are in, we shld always give glory to HIM. God, Tx a lot.. Tx for this verse taht strengthen me, build the passion in me again!! I love u Lord!

=)

2008-03-15T11:56:00.000-07:00

Hey, i'm back again...

" You are deserving of all the praises LORD
And I'm yearning to be in Your presence once more
Deep inside my heart is burning
I want to give u more
Cos You are the ONLI one I adore"

Coming into ur presence once again!!! Yesterday, i'm really convicted by Pastor Tan during the PM. Pastor shared with us how he worship God; having encounter with Him. During his break time, he will skip his meals just to be in HIS presence; praying at a corner in his school during his JC time and reading the bible, Every nite, after his parents slpt, he went down to the playground and pray!! To me, it's really a WOW!! a 17 yr old boy can be so on fire for HIM; to have an encounter with HIM!!! Then, bro's story came to my mind... Bro too.. Really a Wow to me!! his mother is veri against him going to church.. She wants him to stay at home and study. But Bro always make it a pt to run to church on Sunday morning(during hollywood times) then hv to rush back home imme after svc.. He lived in Kallang but cos of his family financal backgroung tat time, he run back home be4 his mother came back fro market... Ya.. A wow rite!!!

At times, i will jus feel so tired and unconsciously fell aslepp when i'm having my quiet time.. Then hv to make special arrangement for the next day so that i can "pay back" the time.. But the actions of Bro and Pst Tan really shot me down. As i was kneeling down and worship HIM yesterday, i jus felt veri guilty and God told me this "ting, wat is the top priority in ur life? Me and ur sch work?" I told God "You!" Then he asked me " Y do u always put ur quiet time just be4 u go to bed! Y not the first thing to wake up or come back fro sch?" Ya, Sorry God!!!

Today, Pst Phil preaches a word of season for our whole church; to have the strong anointing that takes the society by storm, to overcome the difficulties victoriously" I rmb Pst sae soemthing like" God is our supplier! He supply everything. Everything on Earth belongs to HIM. If we dun give God our tithe, Satan will get it away from us" Suddenly, a revelation came.. "
I think nt just tat, God is telling me Time is provided by HIM too... If we dun give God our time (as in sit down and worship; hv an encounter with him), Satan will get the time away from us and starts manipulating it negatively. ..

AIM: Put praying a top priority in My Life; to pray at the moment i go home!!!

Btw, i had a gd svc duty today!!! No loop holes and no incident reports.. Wow!! i really tinks that i really improve a lot fro the last duty.. Tx god for that!! Was fasting and praying for this svc duty.. God really ans all my prayers.. Yea!!!! Oso wan to tx Cindy... She makes me feel veri secure.. Noe she's nt feeling well but really make it a pt to suppt me... Tx gal... Really appreciated you a lot. Hopefully, when i do any key position, i can work with u again.. Yea!! and oso my USHERS; Jessica, Mei Jing, Jonathan, Jeremy Shing, Michael, Bevan, Rena, Aunty Nancy. U guys did a great job. Good job guys.. Continue to Jia you!!

After svc, as i was packing my stuff and preparing to go for my Counter duty, i suddenly saw a lot of security and ang moh. Wow!! y so many?? then i looked up and i saw someone who look like Pst Phil. I was there talking veri loudly to my frenz; Is it Pst Phil??" When i was asking whether i saw the wrong person, Pst Phil smiled while looking at the floor. Haha!! The joke of the day!! So happy.. Who can be that close to Pst Phil unless u r the stage usher, security or any other pst? a distance of less than 1 metre from Pst leh!! hah!! veri proud and happy! He looked very very young; rather different from looking at him on teh LCD screen.. JJus different. He seemed to carry the anointing of God! So string so powerful!!

I saw BB today!!! haha!! so excited over him and his smile... My mentor and my SU-SU!!! knew him fro pur zone camp.. He's under my care tat time.. Haha!!! so weird!! he nv fail to make me laugh and smile.. I rmb him telling me "ur calling shld nt be controlled by anyone; is u urself... I noe u r stressed over CG nad Usher.. which to choose? if u really feel like going to usher ministry, jus go ahead... Cos no one noe where is ur calling since is betw u and God!! Dun stress ok??"
Haha!!! Til now, i kip mediating on his word! Stil rmb the word he share with us in the zone camps... How i wish he can be Younger!!! though he's nt exceptionally gd looking and smart and what i really desired from my other half, i think i wil prefer someone like Him. Someone wil bring me closer to God, someone who will make me smile and laugh. Someone really cares for me!! Status?? No longer matters! (Lorraine will be shocked abt this!! Haha!! ) haha!!!

Saw Ben song and Ernest today too... They sae they wil help me with my presentation.. yea!!!
Btw,Ben, Gd job done.. I heard the zone concert is gd... Though i'm nt there, but jus wan to sae Xin Ku le...

Jus tink ppl fro my zone is jus wonderful!!! =)

2008-03-09T07:45:00.000-07:00

I realized i had nt been blogging for weeks again.

Haha!!!

Guess i'm too overwhelmed by my project and exam... Another mid term to go on this coming fri !!! Do pray for me ya??? After that, i will hv my second lab test. Oh man!!! Tat one really need prayer!!! I need God to perform a miracle for me!! I really dun wan to fail but go betta than my fist lab... yep yep!!!! AFter taht,i will have my DM lab 2, as well as, all my presentation for Biz comm, OOAD (explaining codes!!!), LTB...

Something to r3joice:

1. I bought an iPod classic
2. I bought a new phone, Sony Ercisson K800i
3. I bought a new coast for presentation
4. I bought a lot of new clothes
5. I'm going to SOT
6. I'm in 80 sharing session grp where i really learn a lot about leadership
7. I finished my LTB CSP
8. I passed all my IS mid term
9. I scored well for my Statistics
10. I'm loved by my frenz , Cgm and family
11. Really enjoy myself with Han Loon, Jun hong and Kevin( the over- night chionging is worth while)

u must be thinking y i'm so blessed!! Tx god for that; tx god for such a wonderful parents. Though i'm nt born in a well- to be family, my parents nv fail to get wat eva thing i desired for... Noe y i'm so rebellious le... haha!!!

Here is some things i learnt during the sessionw ith 80:

1. Level 1: Position leader; people follow because they HAVE to. Thus, one's influence will nt extend beyond lines of authority

2. Level 2: Relational, Permission leader; people follow because they want to

3. Level 3: Production leader; people follow because of what u hv done

4. Level 4: Personnel Development, Reproduction leader; people follow because of what you've done for them

5. Level 5: Person hood, Respectable leader; people follow because of who u r and what u represent.

which level r u in??? think abt it ba...

Blog again!!!

2008-02-26T08:07:00.000-08:00

Hey hey.. I'm back!!!

I din disappear; jus too occupied with projects and some church events. Yea!!!

projects after projects!! Sort of tired with all these.. First, DM, LTB, Comm101 then OOAD..

Among all these projects, i really reaLLY REALLY dislike OOAD. It really take up most of my time and it's kinda difficult to do!! CODING???? ai yo!! hate it!! still in the process of becoming a java PRO!! haha...

During these period of time, tx god for his strength and grace that brings me thru... Even if i slp 3 hrs every day, i stil have the enegy to last all the way.. Frenz ard me are like" u ok?? u sounf tired!" Ya!! i am!! indeed very very tired.. Really hope for a break from proj and mid term exams; Statistics( which nid a lot of practise) and LTB (which requires much reading; haven start yet)

btw, today, went to XING HUA pri sch top execute my LTB proj.. kids are cute but sometimes, annoying.. haha!! There is a little boy that brighten my day!! feel like pinching his cheek; they are so rosy.. haha!! hmmm.. another little gal oso brighten up my day; "teacher teacher, you are pretty! y huh??" (haha!! think she's trapped in her world; confirm din watch miss pagent! haha) then the rest of the students are like "I wan to be in the same team as this sexy pretty teacher!" haha!! Sexy?? y huh?? i stil dun noe y i'm sexy!! haha!! so nice meeting them but pls kids, do behave oh!!! Cya tml..

My LTB proj is 3/4 towards completion; hope it can complete soon!! i'm jus tired.. but will miss my "kids"!!!

OOAD??? stuck?? dun noe abt gantt chart!!! tink have to ask my grp mate le... oh man!! i nid help!! nid god to expand my brain capacity; give me revealtion wat to do, how to do!!!

tat's abt it!!

BB

2008-02-07T22:18:00.001-08:00

Hey all!!!!

Pardon me ya?? Was too busy with sch and church stuff... =)

Btw, happy CNY to all my frenz!!! May this special occasion be a blessing to u! May this time be the time where u wil draw closer to ur family members and friends!!! (Do count me in oh!!)

Was visting some relatives yesterday! it seems like this is the last yr i wil be seeing them ard... It's kinda sad n dis heartening.. First, my mum's aunt, aka my yi ma suffers fro liver cancer. Though it was at the last few stages, she's unaware abt her situation. Haiz!!! went to visit her yesterday; she's extremely skinny and she's so boney!!! Secind is my own grandma.. She can hardly move ard now and she's always feeling tired!!!

God!! I dun wan to accept all these!! my close ones esp my grandma, the one who brought me up, the one who loves me a lot!! I dun wan!!! but yet i cant control.. I really pray that god will help them to suffer the minimum and give me the opp to serve them more, spenf time with them more!!!

A bad experience during CNY!!!

And frenz!! Do pray for my mum too!! she's going for an operation this month!! though is a minor one, yet she nid protection.. my mummy is so vulnerable that i'm afraid she cant take the pain..And worse thig is i've to iron clothes, wash the family clothes and cook everyday for the family.. oh man!! i cant cook la... the food i cook is really cant make it!! help me!!! teach me some simple dishes ya??? haha!! or i hv no choice but to da bao for them everyday!!!

Devil seems to work ard my family, the ones i love most but u wun suvcceed for long.. i believe my prayer will cometrue and defeat u!!!

BB satan!!! Loser U!!!

Besides that, i'm treally suffereing in sch!!! java??? DM???

System.out.println("Wenting dun like Java and DM")

All coding makes me blur!!! Drawing entity is oso a suffer!!!

BB .. back to work le..

Cya!!! Going for holiday in 1n hr time.. BB frnz!!

2008-01-24T22:23:00.000-08:00

Hey Hey!!!

Wenting is feeling

1. nervous
2. Nervous
3. NERvous
4. NERVOus
5. NERVOUS

I'm feeling super super nervous now!!! My PP driving test is less than 24 hrs from now.. Kip dreaming abt that.... Oh man!!!

Wenting needs:

1. Faith and Confidence
2. FAITH and Confidence
3. FAITH AND Confidence
4. FAITH AND CONFIDENCE
5. FAITH AND CONFIDENCE!!!!!!!

Wenting needs God!!! Abba, grant me peace, faith and confidence that oi will pass tml PP and fro tml onwards, i can be a blessing to the ppl ard me; i can drive my mbrs home after CG esp the younger ones, i can drive my usher leaders and friends to church in case we r late for pre svc duty meeting..

God!!!!

2008-01-20T04:23:00.000-08:00

Hey!!!!

A lot of things happened over the past few days...

On fri, i'm shocked abt the proj and its dateline... Inside my heart, i was thinking " no leisure for the nxt few weeks!!!" oh man!! think nxt week wil be the most xiong week ba... havoing mny driving test on the sat so wil hv a lot of practise this coming week plus so many proj coming up!!! chiong huh!!!! focus focus!! maximise maximise!!! Was taking testimony on fri CG.. Oh man!!! this is my first time!! think i screwed it up!! kip stumbling and feeling a loss of words... Indeed, i'm rite. cos when lorraine evaluate me, she told me 8 big mistakes!!!! my biggest mistake: kip saeing okies, ya, then, hmmm....wil be betta nxt time..

sat went for Jen leow's matrimony despite of the heavy workload!! but i really enjoy myself ther.. this is my first time attending such grand matrimony.. Congra!!!

Here are some of the pic:

Me n jen dolling up:

At the matrimony:

On the bus back to expo:

At expo:

2008-01-16T09:14:00.000-08:00

" Father, hope and faith to be released in every leaders!"
- heard abt this fro one of the live song, Jesus at ur name we bow our knees.

I heard this is the word for every leader either in the marketplace, as well as, the church..
As the church is going to have our 4th svc at JW, things will start to change; devil will start entering thru any gates or doorway. This is the time where we muz be focused in our direction, encounter with god and nothing else... Jus feel that sometimes even if we lose heart in the things we are doing or lose heart when wat we desire has nt come true, but guys, knock and seek for it ya??? Esp the leaders, we cant fall!! if we fall, our sheep will fall as well.. How to build a string church if such things happen.. I heard of some leaders who fall when the church is growing; their stories are just horrifying.. = (

Weird!! jus hv the urge of blogging abt this!!!! =)

btw, recently, i'm getting busier.. Esp when all the proj starts to come in, all the quizzes start to bombard me, as well as, my time... Sometimes, i jus feel so sianz abt sch... Esp in the morning where i really feel tired and hungry!!! haha!!! But then, wat i jus sae; i need to motivate myself... =)

Got a new tuition job that i'm praying for all these while.. PTL!!! Finally, i got it!! i'll be earning 300 bucks per month... though it's quite something to me, i'll lose soem time for myself.. and it means i need to be more focused when i'm doing my stuff.. yep yep!!! =)

off to slp!! blog again then..

2008-01-14T08:40:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to Bao, Gaius and Charles!!!!

I wan to tx bao for always being there for me!! yep yep!!! the guidance n love i get fro u is undesirable.. Tx tx.. Tx for being such a gd sister to me.. Txtx.. Happy birthday!!!

I oso wan to tx Gaius; tx his guidance all these while... He;s the one who really use veri strict methid to train me up.. stil rmb u always get so angey with me that u dun wan to talk to me.. haha!! tat was the past.. but ur guidance will pull me thru the darkest pt in my ministry life.. txtx.. As promise, u will be my nxtsection leader, i'll be ur mtl(hey is main tem leader nt ministry team leader hor)

To charles.. Happy birthday.. Welcum to our big family; E376... Hope u hv a wonderful time fellowshipping with us.. i believe this 2008 will be a life changing yr for u... Go Charles...

Went for my first 2008 PM today!!! hmmm.. i think is gd; it's time to pary up our spirit man. i wun get any opp to pray fly off.. esp in this coming yr, i foresee a lot of changes in my life.. so it's gd to build myself strong in the LORD.. btw, it's my first time praying in front of "so many" ppl.... though is jus 10 or so, i considered it as big.. i dun even dare to pray in front of ppl except my CG n within my own usher grp( Rmb the first time i pray with the chief usher, Section leaders n the team leaders when i'm still a helper... so scary.. i kip feeling a loss for words..) yea!!!

Jus now as we r going for supper, yihan asked if i can lead prayer meeting for Uni Y.. I blooked at him with a face if shock... "U muz be joking!! haha! Cannot be la..." Self condemming again??? haha.. hopefully nt... I'll take up the challenge soon.. but nt now ya??? haha... i nid to pray more n be led by the spirit... yep yep..

=)

2008-01-12T08:44:00.000-08:00

Hey hey!!!

It have been a tough week for me!!! I can sae a lot of things happened this week which really disheartened me.. In term of attendance, i'm disappointed. In term of quality, i think there is more room to work at. In term of attitude, i think every of us needs to change and be more chrsit -like; i think over this week, my attitude really cant make it! I can see myself getting impatient. Ya? i think prob i needs to work on it on this 2008.

This is the first time i really cried out! It's really veri disheartening... but after crying, i felt refreshed and charged up to continue working on it. haha!!! I'm so sorry to the person who listen to me at that point of time. Sorry!! noe u r nt feeling well yet u stil listen to all the sobbing... and tx for that; really appreciate you as my senior and frenz!!! After that, i msged lorraine abt it. in less than 1 hr, she caled and talked to me. Instaed of consoling me, she blasted me again!! ha!! (actually, the way she discipled me is thru blasting la!!) She really talk sense (of course la!! she's my CGL leh!) and gif me several soln.. something i really rmbed "ting, this is reality; this is all abt ministry life" She aded telling me that i nid to have a breakthru in my team management; so wat of i handle ppl that help me and nvfail to obey and submit to me in the past. i shld expet this to happen everytime. I nid to break out fro my comfort zone and hv more capacity to handle such situation. She then sae that i nid to manage my own expectation. ya, true!!! i nid to change in this area; a mindset of a comfort zone...

The nxt day, i was talking to Yihan. Can see that he was burdened abt something that day but dun dare to ask him.. haha!! i oso dun noe y?? haha!! Nvm.. He sae the same thing; manage my own expectations. Regarding the weird weird guy in my team, i shld hv some wisdoma nd hand him over to a brither to handle.. he might be my sheep but i nis to have wisdom la.. He oso told me taht i think i shld share with u guys out there; Our life shld be built on prayer. Even our confidence level comes fro god. It is so natural that as u began to interact with god, u wil jus have the confidence that u wil do alrite. ya! Amen!!! Regarding promotion, it's oso built on prayer... One dun need to ask for it, grab opp to achieve it.. one jus nid to pray and have a strong relationship.. Automatically, it wil come to past.. rite Yihan?? rite guys out there... A revealation to me..

Rite now.. I feel more relaxed.. i dun need to care abt anything; jus my time with God. Cos i noe HE determine my life... so ya!!! here i come!!

=)

Realy wan to tx ppl in my life like my cgl, Lorraine; my sl, Jasmine; my fellow leaders, Wenlong, Cassandra and Cindy; my senior cum frenz; esp Yihan and Daniel; my cgm, esp anthea, jaslyn, ai zhen....

a great yr ahead!!

2008-01-07T07:18:00.001-08:00

Today is the first day of sch!!!!
Think is rather fun; dun noe why jus feel motivated to study!!!
Yea!!!! this term, i'll do fine!!! jia you ting!!!!

LTB - my first LTB lesson is fun; this shld all credit to my team mates, Prof and TA.. haha!!! i think i really do a lot of things that spoil my own image lor!!!!! haha!!! is veri natural la... dun noe y my team mates kip laughing... haha!!! btw, we hv come up with a plan for the CSP proj; we decide to work on the down- syndrome; making an impact in their lives... I was jus lokking thru the contacts i found and Karen "mummy" suggested.. Wow!! a lot to work on!!! txtxtx mummy!!! tx god i noe U, tx god who prompt me to call U!!! haha!!! txtx!!! (thibk she muz be feeling veri proud of herself now!!!jkjk!!! dun be angry ya???)

Stat B- my first Stat class is sort of boring.. haha!!! think i'm tired le ba!!! Oh ya.. tx to Yong quan!!!! tx huh!! wake me up and after that, i cant slp liao!!!! Tx yong quan!!!! haa!!! then hor.... i fell asleep in the middle of the lesson.. but for jus 10 min leh!! (haha!!! i think prof saw me slping!! oh man!!! sorry!!) then the worst thing is i had a quiz after the lesson... but then, i think is still ok!!! haha!!! hopefully, i can do well!!!!

Here are some of the photo updates:

2008-01-01T08:35:00.001-08:00

Here are some of the pic taken in the month of dec:

Breakaway camp!!!!

G2S1 Section outing!!!

CG count down party

2007-12-30T10:16:00.000-08:00

hey hey!!!

dun noe since where everyone starts calling me ting or ting ting... haha!!!
but i dun mind.. it sounds more "cosy"... haha!!!

Things that really upset me:

1. Wei cheng
U huh!!! wat happened to u, my dear boy??? Y like this??? Y things happen in such a way??
U really upset me a lot can??? But for now, things had already happened, wat can i do?Dun worry... I'll suppt u in wateva decision u hv made.. do kip me updated ya???

2. Dilemma
Was stuck in a dilemma... oh man!!! hate the feeling.. i trust all my frenz but then, once and again, i felt betrayed. It's kinda sad when u found out ur frenz are nt honest to u... esp u r my sheep...

Things that brightens my day:

1. Kelvin
He's once a problematic usher; ever since i took over this team, he always give me excuses that he dun wan to serve... I'm kinda upset and almost given up hope on him.. but tx god, i din.. i heard a voice prompting to me- asking me to follow up on him. At that pt of time, i was in a dilemma but then i stil obey his words.. Tx god.. now, he's back n actively serving.. I'm glad abt his change in attitude.. and was so glad that he told me that i'm the one whom help the change in him.. Kelvin.. no matter wat u hv done/ how much u miss out over thses few yrs, i think wat matter is ur attitude; the willingness to serve; the joy to serve.. Kip it up!! u can make a diff de..

2. Biondi
A helper whom i can trust in.. Go boy!!!
and tx a lot..

3. Yihan
A super understanding guy u shld noe.. he's also a wise guy to mix ard with..

2007-12-29T09:16:00.000-08:00

Yea!!! my 100th post...

A great msg to share with u!!!

I was really inspired by Pst Tan's preaching today... Pst praeched abt "Change; the necessary to change"

Something really hit me is when Pst mentioned that if we dun lead the change, we will be led by change which eventually leads us to somewhere undesirable.. Ya!! Amen to it!!! We r human; we are able to decide and change... Why shld we abuse such authority??? We shld make full use of the authority/ freedom God has granted us, ya???

Pst oso mentioned abt the 3Ds;' the 3 impt Ds.... Not Demanding, Not Dominating... But it's DECISION, DEDICATION and DISCIPLINE... ya.. when we make the decision, we shld be committed to it; to make it come to past.. With commitment and passion are not enuf, we shld be disciplined. Amen???

Did u fall under the following categories, R u:
1. Prideful
2. Fearful
3. Rebellious
4. Lazy
5. Ignorance

If yes, it's time for u to change ya??

The onli person who wun change is fools...
The onli person who cant change is dead man...

Btw, here is my 2008 new yr resolution:

1. Become a successful TL
2. Become a great help to my Section Leader and Cell Grp Leader
3. Able to raise up at least 3 helpers
4. Able to balance betw cg and usher ministry
5. Able to stay committed in the things i'm working on currently; CG, Usher team G1S1B, Studies and Uni- Y
6.Go gym every fri with my dance mates; Cai yun
7. Able to achieve a GPA of at least 3.4
8. Ableto influence the frenz ard me; bringing them to join me in a joyful place; wld like to share the great msg , the great love with the frenz ard me...

Changes to make in order to make resolution come to past:
1. Build a relational team
2. Be alert and attentive to their needs; communicate more with them so that our freq will be almost the same
3. Prioritizing well
4. Learn multi -tasking or allocate time betta
5. Be passionate in winnung souls; voice down to paying attention to the word..
6. New strategies to study; go home to study

Ya... C everything voice down to DECISION, DEDICATION AND DISCIPLINE

2007-12-28T08:16:00.001-08:00

A reflection of 2007:

Time flies.... It's coming to an end of 2007.. 2008 is just str ahead!!! This yr has been a fruitful yr for me; a lot of things happen; either pleasant or unpleasant...

Let share abt some gd things:

I think i'm one of the fastest- growing leader in the ministry, as well as, the church ba.. Rmb after i get into the ministry for half a yr, i was asked by gaius( my ex- TL) if i wan to be his helper.. At that time, i'm shocked.. half a ur onli leh!!! i din reply him; i jus told him i wil pray abt it... after another half a yr, i was asked by gaius again.. This time round, i sae "yes". The journey begins fro then.. after another half a yr helping out in the ministry, i was appointed to take over the whole team... i was shocked cos i nv expect that to happen.. i was so comfortable on wateva i had then... okies!!! i jus accpeted wat was alreadi planned for me...now, i'm abt 2.5 yrs in the ministry and i;m proud to sae that i'm still doing well and strong.. Yea!!!

I always like to go after the dreams and visions of my leaders; be it in CG, ministry and church. Currently, though i'm nt helping out much in the cg, i jus feel that i can flow with my leader. Sometimes, i noe wat's in her mind... To follow my leaders is always my desire. in the yr 2007, i did it!!!

I'm in SMU now!!!! Though i'm in IS now, it jus make 100% sense to me that y i'm in IS instead of Social Science, Econ, Acct and BIZ!!! Rmb there is a nite where god's presence is so strong in my room.. HE told me abt his paln for me!! seriously, i sort of dun believe it... But then, currently, things are doing according to his plan... wow!!!! Isn't this somethinmg to tx god for???? YES!!!!!

Though being a marketplace leader and ministry leader is tough, i noe everything is underr his plan.. so i'm nt afraid.. I'm looking forward to 2008; being a sucessful TL in the ministry who is abole to change the lives of my team mbrs, as well as, to be experienced in the technical skills. Moreover, i wld like to be a committed secretary and a gd helper to Yihan and Charlene, as well as, a gfd servant to the society/ community... In the coming yr, i wld like to continue shinning for Jesus in the area of my education.. His promise nv fail.. Yea!! i will hold on to wat he promised and continue to shine!!! ya!!! i'm always a bright litlle star shinning; giving light to the world, giving warm to the world... Amen!!!

* oh ya!!! to ans yihan's qn; why all the leaders seem so tired after christmas?

ting's pt of view: Cos we are really stretching ourselves to the max during this christmas. My brain cell seems to decrease significantly after 4 svc duty.. haha!!! and waking up early to report is veri tiring and tough ya.. But we r jus physically tired ; we r spiritually charged up. It is esp true when i'm communicating with HIM when i'm serving.. yep yep!!! Our physical strength will recover soon, ya???

* to correct myself: We hv hit 50k.. Yea!!! jus that i forgot to include other svcs like children, dialect, chinese svcs....

..

2007-12-27T08:28:00.000-08:00

it's getting late!!!!

But nevertheless, i stil wan to blog...

Christmas is finally over!!! Yeah!! slpless nite or nite with insuff rest is now over.. hate it when i doze off while waiting for the bus, on the bus.. so unglam can!!! (but lor.. i dun noe how i slp leh!!! but shld nt be tat glam!! haha)...

Brought frenz on sat, the first svc of Christmas... it's nt tat gd.. it started off bad; me n my frenz were driven to hall 7 when we reach at 430.. i noe it wil be overwhelming but it's tooo..... hmmm... my frenz were so pissed that they wan to go home.. sertiously, we cant feel the atmosphere in hall 7... kinda sad!! my onli svc that i can sit with my frenz.... i din even enjoy the drama as i'm constantly distracted by my frenz.. they r feeling so uncomfortable that their bodies kip moving abt... ai yo!!!! my onli time to watch the drama leh!! miss the drama la... but it's ok!!!

on the second day, i was doing alpha with Shirley and yonbg tian.. it's kinda messy.. no one wan to sit there moreover, a lot of them came late.. annoying can!!! imagine we hv to fill ppl in at the midst of drama. i think a lot of ppl get annoyed by me.. haha!! but no choice.. how can i ushger in the presence of god with loop holes here n there...

third day of svc duty is rather slack.. i was told that i was 80 (Alex choh) runner for svc 6 and 7 which are the last 2 svc of Christmas... then, i can start to plan wat to do for tat 2 svcs. but......me???? y me??? even esther's runner is a veri experienced TL but... me??? wow!! they hv faith in me!! =)last day leh!! confirm a lot of ppl would like to come to church on christmas day...but it jus happen so that i'm 80 runner...
i think is hui erl who constantly challenged me to step out; she always give me opp that the other leaders do nt have.. sometimes, i wil feel pressurized .. sometinmes, i wil feel honored... this constant "pushing" really help me to grow and learn.. and moreover, it constantly remind me that i shld step out; nt jus staying in my comfort zone... tx lau da!! tx for thius opp.. i think i had grabbed it well.. i hope that there r more opp to come!!! =)

on the day itself, i'm super nervous.. i din really slp the nite be4 as i'm still busy with the fig 80 wan and digesting fro others' more senior TLs on wat 80 usually ask.. in short, asking them for tips... haha... at the beginning, i felt do useless; wat eva 80 ask, i cant ans.. in the end, he din ask me but esther, 92. kinda of sad.. i'm his runner but yet i dun noe how to ans... oh man!! that bad enuf ya???? feel so useless at the pt of time... but i got used to it after sometime... running with 80 is always a gd experience.. running with him is nt stressful but meaningful/ fruitful... he wil teach me along the way; allow me to open my eyes n look at bigger pic... along the way, i oso did some work.. like wateva he said during the svc or the instruction he gave during the duty, i took it down... after everything, i sat down and ask him.. he's so patient that he ans all mny qn... in the meanwhile, he taught me others besides my qn...

things i learnt fro 80:
1. the reason why he fill main hall first, then overflowed room then tunnel.
a. of course fill main hall first.. that's obvious ya??
b. y overflowed room?? at the pt of time, the hall is jam packed. we can hardly allow ppl to go in or the situation will be worse.. and 80 is veri confident that the crowd wun ease for the nxt 10 min.. so he made a bold choice to usher ppl into the hall... y the crowd wun ease in the nxt 10 min? cos it is common to c that the heaviest crowd comes when it is 10 min be4 svc starts and 20 min after svc has started...y nt tunnel?? imagine u r the congregation, u r already channled to the tunnel but yet after a while, u c ppl started to go into the zone n settled down, how wil u feel?? this kind of things often happen cos ushers are human. we stil do make mistake ya??? n moreover, tunnel is usually used to fill late comers. but there's no formula for tat cos diff svc, diff chief usher runs differently..

2. calmness.
During yesterday's svc, the main set holders are obviously screamning over the net... cos the situation is real messy.. but 80 is so calm.. he kip give instructions every 5 min and he kip asking the main set holders to calm down.."Guys, relax!!!" in his mind, he's really strateging the nxt move.. wow!!! he always look at onbe corner of the hall, occassionally he wil stand there and stare.. actually, he's trying to hv a feel abt the svc.. occassionally, he wil turn cos he jus hear the voice prompting him.. n almost 100%, is the holy spirit prompting him.. he really after svc,show me how to get commune with god in times of duty... i met up with him.. he told me taht he got used to run such svc so he noe how to control.. he kip telling them to relax cos the more anxious u r, the worse decsion one wil make.. ya, veri veri true... he oso told me how he mnormally predict the no coming for svc.. like the steps ppl take??? he mentioned that the faster ppl walk, the more ppl is predicted.. but y?? i stil dun understand.. i admit i wil get anxious when things got heated up.. i noe this is where i belong.. i noe why i'm in usher ministry n nbt other ministry le.. another pt of ref; god wan to use me; he wan to mould me in this area..

3. the laying of chairs
a. Open black cloth - tat's obvious
b. Lay the last row of Charlie followed by Bravo and Delta- Charlie is the top priority; last row is the most difficult to lay esp when the crowd is heavy. So to make things easier , lay the last roe of the terrences first
c. Lay the 9 chairs at the side of alpha and echo first - most difficult to fill ppl in
d. Lay causeway of Charlie, Bravo and Delta - diff to lay comparatively
e. Lay first row of Charlie, Bravo and Delta - fill back the seats that are previously removed
f. Lay CTE - it is where there's alittle flow of ppl
g. Lay last row of arena - wun create much distractions to the flow
h. Lay PIE of Charlie, Bravo and Delta - wun create much distractions to the flow
i. Lay 2 back rows in alpha and echo - last esort; worsew view as compare
j. Conference room - hall is unable to CONTAIN liao!!! haha

After the duty, 80 teaches me abt all these stuff.. he realy go in depth to explain to me why he choose this way.. everything he did really make sense.. (Of course la.... he's the Chief Usher la!!! ) besides sharing me abt the methods and ways, he oso pointed out the area i shld break thru; the area of confidence.. he mentione d that as a young leader, of u r nt confident, how can i expect my ushers to follow me my ushers? where can my ushers get a proper role model?? he pointed that wheneva i talked to him, i wilk think n hesitate.. ya.. tat's true!!! dun hv the confidence in myself taht i can make it.. Moreover, the conversation with him is a veri personal one. he told me abt his area of breakthru too; the area of trust. sonce the churcjh is operating in 2 areas, he wld hv to trust the laeders over there to do a gd job.. he's trying to break thru in this area... Go Brother Alex!!!!

After being 80's runner for twice, i discovered thatr running with him is nt as stressful.. instead of stressing me, he really spend time tecahing me... enjoy. there are stil more to go.. really hope to be his runner sometimes soon.. more to come!!!

2007-12-14T10:28:00.000-08:00

Hey hey!!!

too much things to blog but dun really hv time to sit down and start blogging..
there are so much things happening ard me recently...

Result
i got back all my results le... it's nt wat i really wan but i stil wan to tx god for his strength to hold on there!!! and i think there is always reason behind everything that has happened.. Anyway, i got an A-, 3 B, 1 B-. Well, i guess i wil hv to look for a different strategy to cope with my studies and my ministry and my CG. yep yep... there will be a soln soon.. Bye, Sem 1.. Looking forward to Sem 2, my SOT and my scholarship.. God's promises wil nv fail; He promised to make me one of the best students in SMU, he will def gif me the strength to do so.. Yep yep!!! wat i learnt from my best sister, Karen is "Walk with God and you will nv find urself lost in the crowd; in the darkness!!!" Amen to that!!!

Ministry
currently,i'm taking Team A and B as Cindy is nt ard in Singapore.. Seriously, it's nt easy to cope.. On Mon, i felt that pressure that i cried out... Though it's gd opportunity, i jus cant strtech myself to the max ba... Then when i'm praying, God suddenly reminded me that as i'm raising up in this minstry, i will def get alot of pressure.. i stl rmb he asked me whether i'm willing to walk this narrow, dark and tough path, i cried and tell god" Yes, i'll willing to." Now this tough path seems so near to me.. But god told me this is jus the beginning. Faint!!! where's my preservance???? at that moment, i really felt so lousy but ...... i'm still willing to take up this challenge...

Breakaway camp
I'm the team leader in the zone camp!! Y me??? so scary can!!! but then, i stil went up to take this challenge lorraine gave me... went to the meeting with all the zone leaders with pst Aries.. Wow!! this is the first time i'm so near to pst Aries, the anointed man of god!! The pst in CHC and the millionaire. Wow!!!

was touched by god when pst preach abt how we noe is the holy spirit's voice??
1. We shld always fall back t the pt of reference; to the word of God
*God will nv tell u that this gal or guy is designed for u. It 's creepy can?? haha!!!

Next, there is 4 stages of encountering with god:
a. Passion
*Passion is veri personal cos it's based on ur own decision.
b. Purpose
c. Prayer
*the length of our prayer, how long we raise our hands to worship and pray, loudness of our praise and worship
d. Leading to another encounter

Most of the time, we are so caught up with our own stuff and problem and often ask god to "save" us fro the situation first.... but............. WE SHLD NT LOOK AT OUR OWN PROBLEM BUT WE SHLD MEET THE NEED OF THE OTHERS FORST!!!!

will upload all the video and pic soon!!!

Friendship Vs Relationship

Friendship is more impt to me... Friends las a live time unlike relationship.. recently, i experience a lot of broken relationship; my brother and wei tian.. they are already planning to get married but..... accident do happen ya??? some of my friends tooo.. they are treating relationship like candle. so vulnerable.. wat i learnt fro pst kong is relationship is more like a commitment than feeling... if u think u cant commit, then dun get into one.. y dun u guys lean abt each other more be4 getting into one?? i learnt from my past experience. me n jon din really noe each other veri well. we r jus attracted to each other's appearance but nt heart.. both of us rushed into a relationship which is bt fruitful... rather sad abt that.. cos i really put all my heart in. Due to this lack of understanding, we broke up after 3 mths . Now, i'm renewed by God.. my heart is renewed!! every part of me is renewed!! i noe wat i need!! i noe god's timing and season!!! i noe wat god wan me to do now!!! so yuppie!!!

2007-11-26T21:41:00.000-08:00

exam!!!!!!
I'm tired!!!!!
many many slpless nite!!! haiz!!!
seriously, i dun think i can do well for the papers..
rather demonlishing!
oh man!!!!

1 more paper to go!!!

2007-11-23T09:30:00.001-08:00

i'm back!!!!

Expectations
todayi went for AS consultation with Lilin.. oh man!!! a lot of careless mistake or i can get full marks... haha!! kinda greedy rite?? but hor... i think it's rather simple so yep yep... haha!!! we told the prof that we r aiming for A for AS but he laughed and told me it's rather difficult leh!!! he continued to stress that we should nt stressed ourselves too much in AS; jus enjoy when understanding. yep yep.... though he laughed, he stil encourage us to strive for an A... i really wan an A for As since it's one of my best subj this term and i kinda like AS; like the concept behind it... haha!! crazy?? it's wat i really wan and like ya???

As for BGS, i'm kinda worrie cos there's alot of reading and qn to go thru.. till now, i'm onli 75% to completion.. going to chiong after i finish blogging.. yuppie!!! i aim an A- for BGS as a small voice in me kip prompting to me!!! like wat cheng jun sae during CG; if god reveal it to u, be bold n accept, share and pray it out. Dun be afraid as it comes fro the faithful god... yep yep.. agreed!!!! so to him, i praise.. to him, i believe!!! i love u, Lord!!! feel so secure with him.. feel the peace in me now...

As for IS200, i really wan to tx david, my "kor kor". He's so patient while teaching me today!! so many doubts on theterm, but he nv fail to ans everything... he told me that if i stil dun noe, i can call him or find him in sch so that he can continue to teach me!!! yep yep!! tx tx!!! As IS200 is rather theory based and abt memorizing work, i think i can score rather well ba!!! "ba"- sound so not confident and unconvincing!!! haha!!!

As for IS101, i complete all my debate, case facilitationa and two individual proj le.. complete the whole module... waiting for myprof to release the result to us... ai yo!!! kinda worried!! cos my debate and case facilitation get a B, individual proj get a A- , class participation- ??? but i really tok abt after the first release of CP, class attendance- confirmed all marks cos i'm so excited to c my cute prof!!!!

changes
kinda worried how can i call my new team nxt week???? having exam yet i hv to call each n every single one of them to chat with them; understand them... ai yo!!! like cg style rite?? haha!! cos i grab fro my cgl.. wateva methods she used in cg, i wil use it in usher ministry.. no matter, she sae i shld be in cg ministry instead!!! haven really pray abt my calling yet!!! wil do it soon!!! stop procastinating ya??? haha!!!

All the best to me!!!
Greater is he who is in me than he's in the world!!!

2007-11-20T07:53:00.001-08:00

Mug mug and mug....

haiz... sad life; my life is all abt mugging and bks...
feel afraid when i c the 3 bks.... esp bgs...
haha cos............. it's the thickest...
As and IS200 text is rather thin but lor .. more difficult to understand..

went out to study with anthea today!!!!
like her company...
she jus sat there quietly while i'm thinking and studying hard!!!
but when i first stepped into coffee bean, i'm like......... wat!!! crowded with students studying...
gd place!!! this is where motivation comes fro...
Tx anthea!!!!
love u lotz!!! my little cutie!!! my little cgm!!!!

BB.. back to my Is200 text and AS...
Ltr stil hv BGS text..
slpless nite again!!!!

2007-11-19T08:53:00.000-08:00

Imagine Me without U

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only love
I'll need
In my life
You're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me
When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day,
I'd be afraid
Without You there to see me through

Imagine me without YouLord,
You know it's just impossible
Because of You, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without You

When You caught me
I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard me calling
And You rush to set me free
When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You oh

I can't imagine me without You

2007-11-18T03:46:00.001-08:00

oOoooh mannnnnn!!!!
my end yr exam is coming!!!!! in ard onme week!!!
started mugging le la.....
haiiiiizzz!!! i wil do it well..
pst sae if i can see my results, i can hv it..
yep yep!!! i can see u my "A" so i can get it...

Changes
there are a lot of changes in life..
as the church is moving to a whole new level, changes are inevitable; changes in the ministry, cg and etc..
for me, i hate changes since young.. i hate separation too... i hate the feeling of loneliness and emptiness... BUT........... still... i muz be able to handle them...
This period of time is really challenging.. besides handling the stress of my exam, i stil need to handle my emotion.... like wat bro told me once; a church staff whom he noe id veri emotional bvut then she noe how to handle n control her emotion.. now, she's a successful woman...
stepping out of my comfort zone is a dff task for me.. but then..... i stil believe everything happen for a certain reason... during this period of time, if u think that i'm not doing well, pls encpurage me... is not abt appealing to pity; is really difficult but manageable...

Last duty and "supper"
yesterday was my last duty with all the peeps in grp 2. During the whole duty, i din think much; i jus focus on wateva thing i had to do... i dun wan to tear again!!! again.. i wil miss my team esp those leaving for JW; angelin, jeremy and li hui.. the rest too; cheryl, hui yi, davin, justin , my xiao han han (jin han), joo hie. think i mentioned everyone le ba... except the new usher; felicia.. din really talk to her be4.. so.. ya!!! i really app this team.. this team is wif me for ard 6 mths and it's my first team!!! miss u guys lotz.... i wan to tx my SL, hui erl.. though sometimes, i din do my duty well and jus expected, you stil give me opportunity and guide me along... u r my 2nd SL but feel like i had learned a lot of things fro u.. u r the one who nv give up on me!!! who give me chances to learn!! she is the one who kip promoting me!!!tx lao da!!! wil miss u lotz too.. and of course my supper gang; jen, bao, fen, jeff, matt, alex yiu, jeremy, joyce, su shan, jean, yong quan, alvin, wan yun, melvin, gaius, jia yi, wan xiyu, zhi xiu..... esp to my ai; tx for all these while.. tx for ur guidance and be my listening ear wheneva i'm down... nv fail to cheer me up when i'm down.. tx for this friendship... fro my helper to my frenz to my betta frenz and to my ai ai... and to bao... u tooo... tx for this frienship u hv built... i really app u guys a loot...
Shock
was at bro's make up cg jus now...
during his preaching, he suddenly mention abt my calling..
" like ting ting, god asked here to go to cg ministry n be a cgl but she jus choose to miss this opportunity and be a team ic in usher!!!"
oh man!!! that's shocked me!!!
huh!!! me??? CGL???? i nv tot of it..
tat make me rmb abt wat my frenz told me..
"u r stil in usher ministry?? i tot u r in cg ministry le"
huh????
"u hv the look la"
CGL stil hv look de huh???
oh man!!!
i shared wif my cgl, lorraine jus now..
she told me" i told u ur calling is in cg not usher le, but since u insist then go ahead lor!!!"
is my calling in cg?? no!! i prayed one yr ago, god reveal to me is usher ministry..
"u go n pray abt it ba!!!"
ya..
i shall go n pray abt it!!!
but then, i stil think taht my calling is usher ministry..
i really enjoy smiling and touching the heart of the congregation..
as for cg wise is abt touching the heart of my cgm...
is not wat i want!!!
shock!!!!

2007-11-16T07:32:00.000-08:00

SAT SVC DUTY
tml wil be the last svc duty with my entire team and section be4 some of them leave for JW svc.
oh man!! a lot of memories flow across my mind! though there are times where i'm veri frustrated over them but they are stil people whom i really care and love a lot.. all the best guys.. U may not be under me in the future but rmb it's not abt me who motivates u; is god ya???Btw, i'm doing stage tml!! oh man!!! STAGE!!! a spirit of fear!! hopefully, god wil work things out for me!!!

IS101
today is our last lesson. i miss my Prof jason!!!! be4 class starts, i'm so excited over him that i told him" prof, u r mine!!!" then, he replied" when? now? or ltr?" haha!! funny..
after lesson, i went to take a photot with him.. oh man!!! he put his hands over my shoulders... haha!!! i was being urged by my classmates to hug him.. but................ i din la.. so embarrassing!!!!

Project and exam
projects have jus ended.. now is exam period!!!!! trying my best!!!

God
have not been praying much this entirw week. always fall slp when studying.. oh man!!! shld be tired!!!! nvm.,.. it's a decision after all..

2007-11-13T09:08:00.001-08:00

GOD KNOWS

When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts...God knows how hard you have tried.

When you have cried so long and your heart is in anguish...God has counted your tears.

If you feel that your life is on hold and time has passed you by...God is waiting for you.

When you are lonely and friends are too busy for a phone call...God is by your side.

When you think you've tried everything and don't know where to turn...God has the solution.

When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated...God has the answer.

If suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find traces of hope...God has whispered to you.

When things are going well and you have much to be thankful for...God has blessed you.

When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe...God has smiled upon you.

When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow...God has opened your eyes and called you by name.

Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are feeling...God knows.

2007-11-11T04:15:00.000-08:00

blogging in the midst of my essay writing...
haha!!! slacker me!!!

Blessings
1. my IS200 proj is due soon but i'm stil veri lost but....... my prof has promised to help me.. i wan to thanx her that she always there for me, helping me, guiding me thru html n java... tx prof!!!

2. my daddy's business revive... yea!!! more allowance more allowance!!!! i wan more!!! i wan to change the dressinbg style!!!! haha!! tx god for that!! 2 weeks be4 BF, his business faces more problems; 2 companies terminate contract with him. i"m so afraid n cried oout to HIM for help.. wow!! after i pledged, the blessing begins to flow in.. wowo!!!

3. tx god for a grp of buddies; David, Doris, Joseph, Gek Theng, Fideliis, Joel and jia qing.
enjoy myself with their company... frenz taht share and work together.. yea!!!! btw, i'm rather unhappy witrh the "sunshine".. think he's weird!!!! sae things that always assume n hurts.. esp fri when david is helping me with my coding.. oh man!!!!

4. tx god for gd family relationship.. recently, i found myself laying in the bed of my parents veri frequently. squeezing in btw them n ask ummy to pat pat me be4 i slp.. haha!! a small kid!!! haha!! but i enjoy. obviously, no one will do this at this age but haha.. i enjoy it...

Challenges
1. Rather disappointing over sat communion duty. we r not informed abt the change in svc sequence; everyone is like huh!! wat!! communion now!!!! oh no!!! everyone jus chiong out... i'm serving stage yesterday.. i was so shocked that i trembled while passing pst derek the element. i din really help him to peel off his element.. oh man!!! 2 msiatkes!!! when i was collecting back the elemnt n small metal plate, it's no longer on the cupit.. so frightened!! but i act calm n walk to the side.. oh man!!! in the nd, we found out pst derek took down on his own..

2. exam is comng.. but there's stil so many proj n assignments!!! oh man!!!! no time to study for them.. no wonder yi han ask me to do constant revision; not wait till the last min!!!

3. Angelin is leaving soon.. with jeremy n li hui. haiz!! my main helper is leaving.. stressed up!!!! i'm stil planning things out....

2007-11-05T09:09:00.000-08:00

Lorraine n daryl

Wen kai and Xiao Wei

Yoong tian n his gf

Kun and Mong!!!

The couples!!!

2007-11-05T08:26:00.000-08:00

The touching proposal!!!

i think most of the gals there cried!!

including me!!! haha!

Proposal starts

Present flowers first

Present ring

Lorraine haven agree but daryl helped himself wif the ring. haha!!

lorraine... the moment when u duin sae anything, i'm really worried!!!

but tx god!!! u accept it!!

As i was in the cab with karen, she told me that the reason y u took so long to consider might be due to cg. You had jus settle down in this cg but now..... a long time commitment. Yoy may not be confident handling this new chapter of life with Cg.. but rest assure, every of us will try ourselves to do the best for one another.. dun worry!!!! You r once my helper, now my leader n always my leader!!! Go lorraine !!! we wil be more obedient n share the visons n dreams together with our leaders... enjoy!!! n happy birthday!!!

2007-10-31T07:36:00.000-07:00

A day has passed....

Wow!! Today is a fruitful day!!!
i did quite a lot of assignment in sch today!!!
haha!!!
but some are yet to be completed.
Things to be completed today: AS assignment, CT essay planning and IS 101 prestation slides
Wow!!!!
tat much.. but shld be able to complete it...
yea!!! go ting!!!

Got back my grade for AW essay..
be4 i handed in, i felt so afraid cos i dun noe if i go out of pt..
but pRaise the Lord!!!
i got B+ which is among the top in my class n the wjole level...
i heard the mnost is A-...
haha!! yea!!
nv noe i can write!!!
the nxt one!! i muz do it well and end the whole course well....
yea!!!

Went out for lunch with a new gang...
new gand consists of my usual gang (except yun yun), wei jing, eileen, "sunshine", david and joseph...
though me, fide and gek teng are always tigether, i nv noe they r christians..
throughout the lunch, we r talking abt HIM, sharing wif each other our encounter with HIM..
we r so engrossed that"sunshine" who is sitting veri close to us feel inferior..
Sorry!!! we r too engrossed le!!!
Haha!!!" sunshine"

bb..
off to study le..

2007-10-30T10:33:00.000-07:00

stil reading the articles!!!
consulation is less than 24 hrs..
can de!!! haha!!!
my last AW class..

Jus receive my time table for nxt term...
Wow!!! full 5.0 mod.. this term i onli hv 4.5 mod but...........
Oh man!!!! but i'm pretty happy with my time tale..
i hv 3 days week onli..
My thurs and fri are off!!!
Off?? serious??? or hv to come back to study or proj meeting??
time management!!!!! plus, next yr, hui erl told us that we hv to help out in juring church till march.. Sat is svc duty or suppt duty in expo, sun is helping out in jurong west svc...
Wow!!! this sounds challenging and exciting...
btw, i'm no longer going back to Jw....
despite that, i'm stil able to experience ythe anointing of god in JW.... Yea!!!
how i wish the whole 7 days in a week, i can be in church!!!!
i dun mind listening to sermins 24-7.. i dun mind dwelling in HIS presence 24-7...
BUT.......
It's impossible...
I'm oso calld to impact the marketplace and reach out to souls....

Oh yea!!! i got back my CT assignment grades...
my grp score the top in class..
we dun expect that cos the votes from the audience is more B than A..
Praise the Lord!!!
haha!!!

Hppy wenting rushing her assignment!!!
Indeed a challenging and esciting life!!!!!!

*Sunshine*
* A life filled with sunshine*
* Darkness comes wif emotion and bad attitudes*

2007-10-30T05:31:00.000-07:00

Ai yo!!! din really do much work today!!
kip slping!! think i'm too tired le ba!!!!
but ...... tml hv to hand in my AW mindmap to prof!! the articles are all so long; 24 pages leh!!!!
oh man!!! shld start reading my second article le ba...
hv to work harder tonit ba....
slpless again!!!!

found this song le....
my fav song!!!

DEEPER IN LOVE
Don Moen

There is a longing
Only You can fill
A raging tempest
Only You can still

My soul is thirsty, Lord
To know You as I've known
Drink from the river
That flows before Your throne

Chorus:
Take me deeper
Deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love you more and more
How I longed to be
Deeper in love

Sunrise to sunset
I will seek your face
Drawn by the Spirit
To the promise of Your grace

My heart has found in You
The hope that will abide
Here in Your presence
Forever satisfied

* Jesus u r my super hero, u'r my star, my best frenz *
* onli god can be my motivator in life *
* onli jesus can be my motivator in life *

Dear Lord,
help me to always have a positive attitde,
to study to the best of my abilities,
and always remember that your grace is sufficient to meet every challenge i may face.

Yea!!! annother thing to share!!!
Enoch may be going SOT nxt yr too..
Go leh!!!
Let's go n study HIS WORDS together
Yea!!! to my best buddy!!! or rather u r forced to... haha!!!

2007-10-29T06:15:00.000-07:00

haha!! i'm blogging while doing BGS proj!!!
slack??? slacker??? haha!!!
blog for a short one la...
i'm afraid i'll forget ma!!! haha!!!

was chionging IP2 these few days till morning.. have been slping for 3 to 4 hrs per day.. oh man!! it's rather tiring... but i submitted it!!!!

while i was submitting, i was talking to yi han...
i told him wat i've been facing thses few weeks...
seriously, i'm disheartened by wat a special someone sae n do to me...
i almost make a wrong decision but tx god i din.....

here are some of the key pts he sae:

#1 Submit to ur leader
- submission is when u disagree with wat the someone; nit wat u agree with that someone. God has put leaders in our life for a purpose. Even if the leader is led in the wrong direction, jus submit. Our leaders' words are like god's words.

#2 Right Relationship
One shld hv a strong relationship with god not ppl

#3 God's purpose
It is ok to hv something taken away fro u, God wan u to do something in other areas

Hmmmm.. yi han!!! anymore???

Jus rmb this song yeterday when i'm praying;

Take me deeper
deeper in love with U
Jesus hold me close in ur embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than i nv been be4
i jus wan to love u more and more
how i long to be deeper in love!!!!

The worship song that i sang a few yrs ago during cell grp!!
If u hv this song, can let me noe?? n send it to me!!!

2007-10-27T11:54:00.000-07:00

i'm so pissed off!!!!!
in the midst of chionging, i received a lot of harrassment from my sch mates!!!!
eeEeee!!!!
God blind their eyes ya???
Those guys muz be super desperate, i guess!!!
u guys betta stop here OR ????? ( i call the police)
haha!!!

went to church today!!!
it's not jus abt routine!!! is the passion that moves me on....
frenz in sch are like... Hmmm.. Is is so stressed le, u stil got time to go to church huh???
Al my non- believer freenz are like this......... always sae the same thing...
get used to it.
today, i was so distracted during worship.. my soul suddenly felt so tired; i was strugling thru that period of time.. i kip telling myself that i can pull thru, i can overcome the spirit of tiredness... at last, i succeed..tears began to flow down when pst kong began to speak to us.. He can sense that many if us there arefeeling tired physically, he then challenged us to build ourselves up... i suddenly sense that God is telling me that he has a purpose putting me in taht situation. He wan to mould me, he wan to refine me, he wan to use me in a mightly manner.... Wow!!! wat he mean??? how he wan to use me?? wat he means by mughtly manner???
Mediating on it!!!! i sense veri AS leh!!! haha!!! yep yep... i sort of like that module...

was so inspired to give n pray when pst king share abt the 12,000 seated stadium and pst cho's church( the largest church in Asia).. i'm so amazed that ppl ther really pray a lot regardless of wat.. even if it's raining, ppl there continue to pray, regardless of work, ppl there continues to pray... Wow!! feel so guilty.. they will pray everyday in church; a session in morning and another one at nite.. Wo!!!! make me guilty.. my prayer tme isn;t comparable to them... Praying is a sacrifice..Prayer brings abt creativity, ideas, power of the holy spirit and etc...... to find out more abt pst cho church... u may click on www.davidcho.com or www.fgtv.com

pst kong shared abt the dimension of our life... today, he emphaiszed in the 4th dimension which is the realm of Faith and Heart...

the 4 keys to build on the 4th dimension:
1. Thinking
Hv God' thoughts
Possibiity thinking

2. Believing
beelieving= making decision/ commitement
Faith n Fear cant co-exist
Matt 7:7

3.Dreaming/Visualizing
if we can c it, we can hv it

4. Speaking/ Confessing

2007-10-25T10:01:00.000-07:00

a revelation fro Yi han:

"But I realized that for me, I dunno about the rest, but when tests come, I tend to lock myself in this mental prison. That tells me. No you got a test, you aren't supposed to be doing anything else. You got a test. You got a test.So what! I'm going to do whatever I wanna do. Balanced with studying of course.Pardon my mention of studies so much. Ha. I really am trying to figure everything out. How to put God first. How to give all the worries, stress, frustration to God. It's one thing to say it, it's totally another to live it. What practical actions can I take to give everything to God."

(taken from his blog)

Ya!! i realised that i'm in the same situation as him!!!
i muz break out of my mental prison..

got back my IS 200 proj mgt proj..
hmmm.. i got an A...
wat's the big deal abt A????
will it please GOD???
God rather wan me to spend more time in his presence than leaning on my own strength..
like now, after leaning on my own strength for too long, i got tired.. veri veri tired abt a unfruitful life...
counting on HIm, spending MORE gtime in his presence and words....

this entire week is packed wif proj n proj meeting...
it's 1am le..
but i'm stil rushing my IS 101 proj..
was praying i n tongues while doing research...
WOW!! it works...
i'm almost done with the research...
doing some editing on my report then my part 1 is done..
haha!!! muz la..
or i'll suffer in the weekend...

received the reply fro MOM...
Tx god for tat..
i hv been waiting for weks be4 they reply..
esp when my presentation is this coming tues..
WOW!!!
always at the last min, GOD save me...
haha!! tx daddy!!!
wil do well ya???

BB....

2007-10-24T07:56:00.000-07:00

Haiz!!!
stil rushing IP2!!!!
my soul asked me to continue to chiong but....... i'm really tired...... (my flesh needs more rest)
left with the last part... oh man!!! 2.5 pages more!!!
can de.. can de!!!!

one by one.. the frenz ard me left me!!!
they are unable to take the stress, tst's y??? they choose to quit sch...
oh man!!! these are frenz who always suppt me, listen to my troubles, share my joy n woes with me!!
but................... Satan atacks their mind..
I realised that Satan is attacking me terribly..
In sch, frenz quit sch.. in personal life, ppl passed away...
i had heard abt more than 10 fro IS quitted sch...
recently, one by one ppl passed away
i hate to c ppl leave n separate from me!!!
Satan..... u dare.. u come closer to me!! i'm not afraid at all... come!!!
i will attcak U with the 'sword' and power of God..
Watch me!! Watch how U r defeated terribly...
hahaha!!!

2007-10-23T09:25:00.000-07:00

haiz..
felt so lousy now!!!
i cant believe that i miss out forecasting "sun prayer meeting"
y like this, ting???
am i too caught up with sch work????
i think shld be!!!
i will always be home after 11.30pm when all my family mbrs ahd fallen asleep...
bgs proj, Is101 proj and AS proj is really driving me mad!!!!!
i dun like this life!!! a life with no life in it!!!
i wan to serve more but my flesh is pulling me back!!!
God!!!! Save me!!! i dun wan such life... i wan to serve with a spirit of excellence...
something is really holding me back!!!!
Hmmmm.. wil think of something betta!! His anointing is able to lead me thru!!!
Satan!! u hv no way in my life!!! go away!!! i'm not afraid!!!
Fight ! Fight ! Fight!!!
BB!! go n pray le.. my emotion is really not doing well...

2007-10-22T02:43:00.000-07:00

blogging in sch!!!
oops!!! haha!! no la.. i felt relieved after finishing my IP2 part 1b.. Wow!!! finally!!! but i'm supposed to finish the 2.5 page of memo by now!!! haiz!!! a long way to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go go ting!!! i can do all things thru christ who strengthen me!!!! yep yep! jia you! Gambatte!!!

got my evaluation fro hui erl le...
hmmm.. it's rather ok la.. she saew i'm quite ok and not bad as compare but there're more room for improvement...
1. be4 svc (briefing)
-sequential
-not self-conscious ( kip saying 'ok!')
- 'C' but not 'I' enuf ( i need to be more I)
- fulfil 2 ways interaction (but shld do more talking but asking for response)
- shld share more on own experience and revelation
-not bad in sharing verse
2. be4 svc (zone)
- not 'C' enuf in checking the zone ( haiz!! think Yi han eil be sad when he read abt this.. haha!!)
- did not give acurate forecast on manpower
3. when door opens ( zone)
- not quick in responding thru net
- appear at the same location as andy (bravo 2)
- focus too much on my own zone; did not care abt my neighbouring zoen which is "dying"
- need to multi task more
-need to be more familiarize with the set
- need betta comm with bravo 2
-need to double check the loop holes after worship, announcement, welcuming

Objectives for next svc duty on set:
1. Grow responsibilities
2. More responsive to set
3. Look at a bigger picture
4. More "I"

Pst Tan 's msg: A star- thrower

I was inspired by pst tan to serve the society more despite of my sch work...
I was inspired when i saw wat Sun had done to the society. I an to be like her; the real woman of God who impact the life of others ( she's great at singing, a graet mother, a graet wife, a great volutary worker.... she's jus great at everything!!!!)
I wan to be a star thrower!!!
Even if it is jus me, i wld be able to contribute significantly to the society... iI believe that one individual can make a diff in the society...
I'm currently praying for my frenz's salvation..
Perhaps i shld start from small first... bringing ppl to Christ is oso a way of influencing the society...
Go ting!!!!!
off to study!!!
bb!! for those who are busy studying, gambatte ya????
We can be overcomer, finisher!! We are the head not the tail ya????

2007-10-21T04:37:00.000-07:00

wow!!! after uni starts, i found that i had not been blogging as much.... i wanted to but i'm always held up by something else...
currently, i'm experiencing a stressful period where all the proj and presentations are coming up..
in one week time, i'll hv to hand in my IS 101 individual proj, bgs major proposal and presentation, AS presenation, IS 101 case facilitation.. til now, i onli complete my Is101 case facilitation.. ai yo!!! i dun think something is wrong with my time management. is abt the sch's time managemt. u noe it is until yesterday morning then we are brief wat to do for IP2... mad sch!!!! then the senoior is like saeing this stressful situation wun change to a betta, it wil get worse eventually... this is wat all IS student face!
Dotz!!!! he's so arrogant!!! dun like him!! tot he's prof meh!!! so arrogant.. jason and desai are not to that extreme la... they r prof leh!! but they r not tat arrogant... tx god, he's not my TA.. or i wil scream and tear myself apart!!! hahaha... :)
was doing bravo 1 yesterday.. i dun noe that i was bravo 1 til melvin told me 24 hrs be4 my duty.. oh man!!! so scary!! he told me abt my duty scope. oh gosh!! felt like fainting.. i was suppose to give briefing be4 svc duty ( sharing of verse, telling them their work scope and praying as a whole), be the major one fighting the "battle" during svc.. oh man!! i made a lot of mistake.. 1. i'm slow at responding thru walkie set. 2. not alert and sharp enuf 3. unable to manange my ushers 4. unable to control the crowd 5. running abt in the terrence which i'm not suppose to cos praise is abt to end
after svc when i was talking to Bro Alex yiu, he's like "U!!!!!! u huh!! y like this????"
oh man!!! my heart breaks.... but god i really try my best!!! haiz!!!! was talking to him on the phone after my supper with my supper gang.. then he told me abt my mistake as listed.. he oso told me that i'm too reliant on my section leader. always depend on her to help me!!!! if not cos of hui erl and j=karen, i tink me n andy might hv die in the battle.. haiz!!!! he suggests a lot of soln for me too.. ya.. i learnt something... i shld dedicate jobs to my indivdual IC. 2. i shls be veri firm with the highway usher 3. i shld learn to multi task ... in the end, he gave me 6.5 or 7 out of ten for my comm operation "test".... hmmm.. ya.. i think this is wat i deserve ba. my first time in such a big zone. a pat on my shoulder.. haha!! now.. stil waiting for hui erl evaluation... hope it is alrite!!!

2007-10-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

1 2 3
3 most impt men in my life passed away!!!
first, is my grandpa ( my mummy's daddy) in 2002
second is my beloved beloved beloved beloved grandpa ( my daddy's daddy) in 2004
third is my grand-uncle ( my mummy's aunt husband)

since yping, i was brought up by my most beloved grandpa.. i stil rmb how he protect me when my mummy tried to whack me (perhaps, i'm too naughty le ba!!!) my beloved grandpa will always hugged me tightly, telling my mummy if u wan to whack her, whack me first!!! c how protective he is.. i really love him a lot.. his fav dish is duck's leg!! but it's oily , my dear ye ye!! i used to tell him that.. both of us are always aiming for the duck's leg!! haha!! always yeye surrender it to me!!! how sweet he is!! when i was in sec sch, i start to draw away from family n closer to my frenz.. from then on, i hardly visit him... i rmb after my prelims, he kip urging my daddy to bring me to him .. but i had already promised my frenz to go out n hv fun so i din go.. after a few days, i receive a call from my grandma telling me that my yeye was hospitalized.. he went into a state of unconsciousness.. i teared when i got to the hospital.. shld not believe that!! i cried out asking him to wake up but he couldn't. i saw that he was trying veri hard but he really cant. when i shouted his name, he teared!! yeye!! veri sorry... after 2 weeks, he passed away.. when i heard abt it, i fell down on the floor.. knocking my head on the floor.. i shld nt believe that!! my yeye!! u haven seen me !! y u left me like this!! plus the nxt day is my o level physics practical exam.... yeye yeyeye!!!! rest in peace!! i wun disappoint u!!! tx for all ur guidance all this while.. ting ting love u!! u always live in my heart!! tx for ur sacrfice!!! love u always...

i jus received the msg that my grand uncle passed away this afternoon!!! again, i shld nt believe that!! i was talking to him not long ago.. io noe he had cancer disease but i nv expected that!! oit is so soon!! i really cant take it.. i kip deceiving myself that he is stil alive but........... no ting.. he's died!! yes!! he is!!! he is no longer existing!!! he died when he was bathing!!! he died when he was naked! he died when he was kneeling down!!! this is so cruel!!!!!he n my grand aunt do not hv any children so since young when my mummy is busy, she will always ask my grand uncle and aunt to take care of me.. so a relationship is built up.. we nv fail to vist them every new yr and occasionally some time in the yr... my grand uncle used to dote me a lot.. he always bought "hacks" for me!! i nv wan to eat that again!! he reminds me of him!!! it's painful!!! maybe i stil need time.. going to his wake tml nite after meeting prof for bgs major proj and wed after the biz IT talk.. let me c him once again!! bb... my grand uncle... love u tooo!!!!

2007-10-12T10:42:00.000-07:00

My team!!!
these are the ppl whom i first start outwith... some growing stronger while some are not...
a burden in my heart for those who aren't... but i wil change souls!!!

Intro my potential helpers :

Intro my fav boy in my team:

Intro my miss smiley:

Intro my mr gentle and encouraging guy:

Intro mr late:

Intro my mr quiet guy:

Intro miss late( but she is out of the ministry):

My team!!! u guys are awesome.. really enjoy working with u guys this while..
u guys hv bring joy to me .. though there are times when u guys make me upset, i stil love u guys a lot... u guys r my first usher team... love u guys !!!!

However, good times are not meant to be long... haiz!!!!

there are something u guys need to take note..
1. Angelin: u r fine; u are capable of leading a team.... but u need to priortize things.. u need to handle within cg, ministry and sch... go gal!!

2. Justin: U r capable as well. but do brush up on ur communication skills. but jus communicate with jia rong, jin han.... our team does not consist them onli can???? do talk to the gals.. be more open up.... pls step out of ur normal state and step into the fundamental state...

3. Cheryl: U r the one whom i'm really proud of... looking back, u hvchanged a lot... haha!! gd leader breeds gd team mbrs.. hahaha!! (boosting abt myself)

4. Jeremy: Yoz.. mu junior!! u huh!! always MIA.. i noe u r in army so i din expect much fro u.. but can u dun disappoint me.. ur brain work fast and u r veri stready when ushering. u can lead the rest but.............. u need to commit to usher ministry more...

5. Jin han: xiao han!!! my fav guy.. the twelve years- old kid in my team... cutest guy!!! but u huh!! always play and fool ard.. dun can????? i noe u r onli twelve, but u need to do things at the rite time... ya??? u huh!!! dun always need ppl to prompt u! u need to take the initiative ya??

6. Hui yi: gal!! tx for ur suppt all these while... do put god first in everything u do.. u may face persecutuon but i believe our god is greater than these prob. HE can overcome it.. give all praises to him ya??? need anything, jus approach me..

7. Joo hie: tx dude!! always encourage me.. haha!! can be more open to me!! do share with me ur pro and burden.. i dun mind listening to u !!!

8. Davin: u huh!! always late.. boy.. u need to be more dscipline.. dun always MIA can?? u r in minstry and church for quite sometime so i expect a betta attitude fro u ya??? u need a lot of moulding..

9. Mellinda: miss late!! hope u r doing fine now!! u oso!! priortize ur things..

NO MATTER WHTA, I STILL LOVE U GUYS A LOT!!! ACTUALLY, THERE'S POSSIBLITY THAT I'M GOING FOR JW SVC... MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO LEAD U GUYS ON SINCE U GUYS WIL BE STAYING BACK... ALL THE BEST TO U GUYS!!! ( DUN BE TOO HAPPY; COS IT'S NOT CONFIRMED) I'VE BEEN CRYING OVER IT SINCE THE ANNOUNCEMENT TO NOW.. U GUYS HUH!!! A GREAT IMPACT LEH!!!

2007-10-11T04:45:00.001-07:00

Oh man!! Wenting is sick!!!!
My mummy jus brought me to the doctor!! ai yo!!!
my head is so heavy that i couldn't focus on my work!!
i aim to do several tasks but till now, i haven finish any... so upset wif myself...

Yesterday, my bs taecher (sis yi lun) challenges us to take more initiative in cg, enrol into SOT nxt yr to learn more abt god's word and pray for a word for this season. i had the word last note when i was praying yesterday nite; "what u reap will be what u sow" i start analyzing this and finally understand y god give me this...

1. if i sow effort and time in my cg and ministry, i wil reap discipline souls
2. if i sow effort and time in my studies, i wil reap good results
3. of i sow effort and time in reaching out to my frenz, i wil reap renewed souls
4. if i sow effort and time in my cgm, i will reap gd relationship with them
5. if i sow effort and time in my frenz, i will reap gd relationship
6. if i sow time in fellowhipping with my cgl and sl, i will reap knowledge and imparation

this concludes......... i wil spend more time n effort with U!!
haha!!

was having lunch with yi han n si jie in the afternoon after UNI- Y exco retret..
yi han shared with us several things abt himself.. something tat impact me a lot...
he said that studies is not everything in life.. he chose to complete his uni in 4.5 yrs cos he think there is better things to spend on in life..
ya!! tat's true!!
studies is not tat impt in life.. what if we get a high GPA by the time we graduate, it onli secure us with our first job.. a lot of things at work is abt learning on the spot; ther is a lot of nw things we hv to learn when we go out to work.. employers are looking for workers who can adapt and willing to learn..
ya.. tat's true!! tat's make me so guilty!!!

oh ya!!! yi han shared with the future exco of UNI -Y today...
he shared his vision he had for UNI-Y with us; to build strong relationship.. UNI Y is not an organisation tat serve community, we serve ppl too.. this includes all the mbrs in UNI-Y. he then suggested to give recognisation to the mbrs like OM,MM and EM. ( tat's wat our church is doing now!) he dun wan to leave any mbrs out in this organisation.. he wan them to give taht sense of belonging to UNI-Y. i totally agree.. if ppl dun feel recognise, they may leave and have a bad impressiuon of UNI-Y. he oso suggested to make T-shirts, name tag and etc...
i finally noe my job scope.. hmmmm.. i think there are a lot of things i need to learn fro my upper-study, alan. like contacting with the several ppl, YMCA,Doing attendance, creating a spreadsheet to kip track of the attendance and etc.... i wan to do it well.. cos i believe abt building life in ppl; serving god wholeheartedly and serving ppl fervently.. (usher ministry's vision) i think tat it is not enuf to serve actively in church and be so sluggish in the marketplace.. God see everything, ya?? to kick off, I'm meeting Alan this coming tues to ask him in details abt my work scope...
bb.. off to do my work!!! god! gif me ur strength..
"greater is HE who is me than HE is in the world"
" God is my strength!"

2007-10-09T09:34:00.000-07:00

Random pic over these few months!!
(usher)

(my team; onli a few of us)
(my aiai n me)
(my bao n me)(enoch,me and hubert)(me n bao tian)

(me n matthew; my supper buddy after svc duty)
(zhi hua, pei fen n me; btw, i'm once followed up by pei fen)

(Cell grp)

(cg without cgl; lorraine!! where r u??)

( mooncake out- reach)

(the gals)(the gals)

(the guys)(the sisters)(lorraine's SOT grad with us)

(my best buddies; zhen, ting and ting2. Where min n tiff)(my seniors)

( siblings? look alike?? a bit la...)(me n tian yi)(my ra ra senior) The end!! tat;s me!! after svc duty, after all the sweat!!

2007-10-08T23:51:00.000-07:00

have not been blogging for long... too busy?? too lazy?? or both??
yea!!! finally, it is my recess week!! i hv been waiting for this break ever since week 4. cos that is the week that i stay in sch till 1am to rush my assignments and proj.. that was the first time i went home tat late... so dark!! so scary can!!! I REALLY NEED REST, sch!!! but now, i'm stil rushing my assignments; AW- which muz be handed in by this comg fri (but it's holiday leh!!), AS individual proj- due next fri (but haven start doing yet! OOps!! doing tonite), AS grp proj- muz be done asap( as mentioned by my grp mates but we r almost done), BGS major proj- due in week 12, BGS assignment- due nxt week, IS200 report- due next fri (on IDA!!! oh man!!! but manageable!! haha!!), IS 101 Case facilitation report and powerpoint slides- due on week 11 ( 3 weeks from now) and soon all the end- yr exam is coming!!! haiz!!! busy again!! i feel liek going out with my aiai leh!! but our time cant coordinate... Mentioning abt my aiai, it was real funny on sat.. afte duty and training, the whole grp of us were sitting at foyer 3 deciding what to eat.. i saw wee qi ( cheryl's eye candy) and his gd frenz ( jacky?? i suppose). They were there; wee qi is slping wjile jacky is doing his stuff.. when i mentioned abt the nick"aiai", jacky look up and look at the direction i was pointing!! to his disappointment, my aiai is jennifer; a gal.. Haha!! i felt like laughing but.......... i din la.. a bad nighmare is more than enuf to scare me!!!! actually, till now, both of us have difficulty facing each other after that painful incident... but i had gotten over it and moving on happily in life.. as for him, i dun noe!! he stil avoid me!!! i dun noe wat's wrong with him?? i dun care!!! cos i'm not in this church and world to care abt how ppl think of me.. i'm more concerned how god regard me!! i wan to go to heaven hearing god telling me "ting ting!!! well done!! tx for ur obedience !!" then, i will run and hug god, my abba daddy!!! the one who strengthen me... i wil continue to pray for u boy; a more open heart and mind!!

was touched by yesterday msg shared by sharon during the prayer meeting.. she mentioned abt normal and fundamental state. the holy spirit then challenged me to step out of my comfort zone and be gridded by passion, purpose and direction.. yea!! i nneed direction and passion.... i hv new visions but i dun noe how to go abt doing it?? was fellowshipping wif a few of them after prayer meeting.. my seniors strongly encourages me to go to SOT nxt year!! ya!! i'm going.. fill ijn the particulars but stil waiting for my parentrs to sponsor me.. haha!! or i hv to pay on my own!! taxing leh!!! god melt their hearts, ya?? when i was on my way back with charis, she encourages me to take break and relax myself... ya!! lorraine, Hui erl and charis had mentioned this to me!! it's time to do soemthing... ask me out more often ya??

oh ya!! i bought a new canon camera on sunday!! i bought but my mum paid.. haha!! i oso bought a new newbie pencil case, a white pair of heels, a pair of newbie shorts, a army green jaket and skirt and a pair of jeans.. haha!! happyshopping on sun ~!! love shopping!! but i'm rushing assignments now le!!! bb! going to complete my AW essay le...

2007-09-30T11:35:00.000-07:00

i'm mugging now!!! my IS200 proj is due this fri and my AW draft is due this wed..

ai yo!! work? proj? they seem to evolve ard my sch life...

jus came back fro helpers and leaders outing... yea!! it was a success!!

and yea that it's finally over!! cos it's really tiring to cope wif SMU work, ministry stff and cg stuff.. but at last, i did pull thru.. tx god for his grace... god really strengthens me all this while.. for instance; i was like sliping 3 to 4 hrs a day.. but god stil give me the motivations to strive in the area of my studies..

back to the awesome outing!!! i think all the games and fellowship is really gd!! it seemed like everyone had enjoyed themselves a lot.. everyone is like laughing fro 6 to abt 10; except for the Praise and worship, Prayer meeting. oh ya!! we r being complained by the residents for making too much noise when we r praise and worship and praying.. oops!! i nv noe we r tat loud... at a pt of time when jeff asked us to pray for the leaders; Chie usher, Ass Chief usher and the Section leaders. My heart is like.... i teared when i was praying for them.. jus sensing that i shld bear the burden of my leaders too.. hmmm.. but how??? i think ther muz be a way ba... i haven found that way yet...

after dinner, we had "marketplace" game and silent opera. esp marketplace is fun.. i saw bao tian n roy hugging. Eitrher that they r like "strangling" each other.. haha!! that interesting... hui erl is there screaming too.. haha!! myu lau da veri cute leh.. be4 the game, she carry chairs and stand on them to shout.. haha!! my ai is oso veri funny.. she toook chairs n sit down gracefulkly while the others are like running like mad.. haha!! hubert is funny too.. he kip on distracting others in his funny ways... haha!! silent opera is funny too.. the leaders r like using diff methods to convey their msg.. pei fun let outa funny joke; for the game silent opera, we can use mouth to mouth. haha!! she din mean that!! haha!! the joke for that day!! after all games, the organising committee was forced to perform in front of the leaders n helpers.. oh man!! i hate tat can!! in the end, we sang we r family tat love love love .. the whole grp inside the room jus do together wif us... wow!! love tat scene..

at the end, we end the event by playing a game ( which i dun rmb the name)" but it goes like this "as we walk to the left as we walk to the right, as we walk....." oh man!! i was being pushed to the other side cos they wanted a gal to pair wif a guy... ai yo!! hahaha!! but after all, awesome event.. txx to my organising committee; event wun go that suceessful without u guys!! tx.. hope to work together again!!!

( the organising committee is forced to lie down)

( i look weird!! tx to sher; punch me! n to bao tian who poke my cheek)

2007-09-29T11:35:00.000-07:00

hey hey!!! it has been a tough week for me!! slp 3 to 4 hrs on average this entire week.. perhaps holidays is coming le ba, tat's y i'm so trapped with proj and assignments.... but perhaps, i can sae i din manage my time well ba.. tat's y i always alp tat little. due to that reason, i hv pimple (acne) outbreak.. ouch!! pain!! ugly !!! haiz... god!!! hwlp me!!! ever since i fiished my A level exam, i had pimple outbreak, i ask the doctor y like this..he told me is maturity.. haha!! Maturity?? weird!! i'm 19 le leh!! The!!! so weird.. forget it.. leave it alone ba... and pray for my face and complexion...
despite that, i was praised my my prof on fri on my assignment.. the assignment shld be graded 2.5 but he gave me 3 cos of my work and the no of correct qn. ( i suppose!). Onli my script, ther's a star besides the 3.. yea!! seriously, i'm not confident cos i really cant do at all.. but tx god for this.. despite of my tight schedule, i can stil excel in my work.. recently, i hv a new direction.. besides being someone influential in this world, god has challenged me to step up a step of faith to sacrfice for his kingdom; to do more things in his kingdom. Seriously, i was stunned.. oh man!! sacrfice??? sacrifice my studies?? god, u noe i wan to take double degree but..... "ting, stop questioning! jus do it!! jus be obedient to my word, ya??" i teared!! i felt a pain in my heart!! ya.. god!! i'm willing to follow u!! i believe that when i follow god and be obedient, i wil get hundred and thousands fold of blessings... ya!!!
my fav song:

Lord We need your grace and mercy
We need to pray like never before
We need the power of your holy spirit
To open heaven's door

Spirit touch your church
Stir the Hearts of Men
Revive us Lord
With your passion once again
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me
Let your rain fall upon me
Let your rain fall upon me

Lord we humbly come before you
We don't deserve of you what we ask
But we yearn to see your glory
Restore this dying land

Another fav song:

I long for you, O Lord
I long to noe you more
I long to have you heart
Placed in me everyday
I long for
I long for u , O lord

( I long for)
( I long for you)
( I long for )
(I long for you, O lord)

actually, at first, i dun like this song..
i think it's weird..
but i began to realise it is nice... hahaha!!!

bb.. going back to complete my AW and IS200..
catch u guys again..
and yea!!!
i wil be going for the helpers and leaders' outing ltr at 5!!!
it wil be successful.......... (cos we really put our efforts to plan this)

2007-09-28T09:16:00.001-07:00

The Student's Psalm

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not flunk.
He keepeth me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leadeth me besides the water cooler for a study break.
He restores my faith in my study guides.
He leads me to better study habits.
For my grades' sake

Yea, though I walk thru' the valley of borderline grades,
I will not have a nervous breakdown,
For Thou art with me;
My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.
Thou givest me the answers in moments of blankness;
Thou anointst my head with understanding,
My test paper runneth over with questions I recognize.
Surely passing grades and flying colors shall follow meAll the days of examinations;
And I shall not have to dwell in failure
Forever!

2007-09-26T09:54:00.000-07:00

An EXciting day!!
today is an exciting day for me!! though i hv insuff slp, i stil felt energetic.. haha!! my energy is always = to my randomness.. i think gek ting has a shock!! it may be the first time she saw the random side of me.. haha!! i was so random that i start talking to the article which i was reading. haha!! i oso dun noe why i behave in such a way.. hahah!! random ba!! i always did this wheneva i'm random or stressed up or maybe both ba!! haha!! so my frenz out there.. dun be afraid whne i start talking to the air one day!! haha! no la.. i'm communicating wif the holy spirit!! crapy me!!! start my randomness again!!
wed is a busy day.. sch is jus like a routine.. but an exciting one.. today i kearn abt the skills of case facilitating.. i finally realised that if i din prepare for case facilitations, i wun be able to respond.. wil read up for the next one.. wat is over cant be pulled back to now!!! yup yup... and today, i realised that there'r a lot of assignments this week. 2 assignments are due nxt week.. haiz!! i cant really study this weekend; sat is my sabbath day while sunday i hv my grp helpers n leaders outing.. oh man!! saying bat this outing, i'm veri stressed up too.. the expectations from myself n my leaders are far too high for me to handle.. plus the stress of work is terrible.. i jus prayed for an increase in capacity... my IS200 will be almost done by tml provided we r really focused.. i had done my part.. i almost finish the whole of qn 1.. noe left wif their editing and another qn.. can de!! i believed i can finish by this weekend.. can de!!! jia you ting!!
went dinner wif my lau da; hui erl (actually she's ,y section leader in usher la) haha!! we jus fellowship wif each other; noeing each other's life and sharing abt our tuition assignment. i was so angry that i cried during my tuition yesterday.. the student is too disobedient til i was devastated and broke down into tears.. he was like " sorry lor!!" oh man!! angry!!! nvm!!! wil be over soon!!! after his exam, i dun think i wan to continue.. i cant take such kiddy kid.. haiz!! no matter god din put me in children church. he has his reason behind it!!! after chatting wif hui erl, i found that both my SL and CGL were talking abt the same thing; they advised me to stay away from someone. they did not look down on that someone but they jus think is inappropriate. they believe that an eagle breeds an eagle. They did not wan me to disown tht relationship wif that someone; they jus wan me to open my eyes n choose my best frenz.. that someone wil be my close n gd frenz.. but not best.. ya!! i noe that too!! i noe wat i'm doing. dun worry.. i wil listen to ur advice...
i learn abt how to be led by the holy spirit.. yea man!! is gd..though my teacher changed but she made the lessons veri interesting.. be4 we go, all of us speak in tongues and pray.. the teacher ask us to pray for our neighbour too.. i pray for that gal besides me.. she cried as i was praying for her.. think the holy spirit is mooving in her.. after praying, she hugged me.. oh man!! this is the first time... wil hv a lot of time in the future..

2007-09-25T10:10:00.000-07:00

Ai ya!! forgot to blog this.. was hanging ard wif lorraine this afternoon.. after encouraging me, she began to tell me abt her burden for this cg..
first, i wan to welcum the 2 new mbrs who rededicate their life to GOD!!
but i'm given a task to talk to one of them whom i dun really hv a gd impression.. maybe she's tooo young, tat's y sometimes wat she sae i find it childish n jus shut my ears.. oh man!!! a difficult task.. she was driving lorraine crazy and constantly testing her patience... will i feel this way too?? haha!! but i wil try.. since i can change cheryl fro a rebellious n irregular usher to now a potential helper in usher.. i think i can do it.. i can do all things thru christ who strengthens me.. i'll hv energizer's attitude; nv say give up!!!
second, i was asked to go for cg earlier this week to help out in the worship!! haha!! it has been so long i have not help out to "lead" worship,.. okies.. i wil preserve my voice for fri cg prayer meeting... plus, lorraine wan every of us to pray out this week.. hmmmm.. shld nt be a pro ba.. since i always pray in fron of the usher leaders.. i still tumble but ... wil be alriite... as long as lorraine din kip nudging me to pray for the whole PM.. ( throat wil get dry ya?? then no voice for the nxt day)
haha!!
cya!!

2007-09-25T06:57:00.000-07:00

a teary day!!
in the morning, i hv argument wif my parents regarding money (allowance) issue. so frustrated ya i din ans much.. i jus walked out of the hse pretendng they r invisible.. oh man!! wat attitude m i giving them? when i was on my way to sch, my tears were abt to roll down but i tell myself "No! ting!! is ok!! everything wil be alrite! You wil be brave!!" but the moment i reach home, i look at amy and cried out.. i'm so upset abt it. during bgs class, prof mentions abt travelling to macau for case study.. i wan to go!!!! but how can i get the money,.. i dun wan to get fro them!! plus, i have to pay for my own SOT nxt yr.. the moment i think of it, i teared again.. daryl is like there provding me with tissues.. after class, i met my dearest doris; someone dearest and closest to me. we are like talking.. again.. i teared and cried out. oh man!! my third time,,, haiz.. upon knowing wat happened to me, lorraine( my cgl) came al the way down and lokk for me. she supposed to work at attributes today but she requested for a leave so that she can fellowship wif me.. oh man!! tx lorraine...she shared wif me a lot of things and her experiences.she told me this" ting, u can be a gd leader but u need to hv a breakthru in ur emotion". ya, i noe!! i'm trying too.. she then shared wif me wat pastor sae to her.. pastor noe she has emotion prob thus he consider alot be4 lorraine became a cgl.. he sae " even if u r the most imperfect person in this world, GOD wil stil use u!!" "God use silly, foolish ppl to challenge the wise".. when i heard of that, i teared again.. ya!! God!! y did u choose me?? Y did u promote me even if i'm so imperfect??" i wan to be perfect; one with character similar as jesus! but y is stan always so evil.. why is he always attcking me n ppl ard me!! haiz!! accept it ba..
overcoming satan is more impt...
i stil love my parents a lot.. i shall jus humble myself n they wil c the change in me!! a gd testimony!!!

2007-09-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

YEA!! finally done!! Oh man!! IP1 is tolerating can?? i spend like 2 weeks or so to do!! there's a lot of research and readings to do!! besides that, there're stil other proj n assignments like Alice programming, BGS minor n major proj, AS proj, my debate research n reports, joel's presentaion research n report, AW assignments (essays!! oh man!! like GP) .... i'm so tight down by all these asignments n proj.. at times, i wil feel tired!!! but i think it's jus abt my own mentality n attitude towards all these ba.. like wat jeff sae; if u r feeling frustrated that day, is ur decision to let go or dwell within it?? yea!! though he sae that a few months ago, i stil mediate on it and try to apply esp when i'm down n frustrated. and i was impacted by wat sis florence sae during briefing on sat. she sae taht everyone has a 24 hrs a day; it is ur choice to decide wat u r going to do with this 24 hrs. like ur frenz? go ard n play wif ur frenz? study? she personally dun think taking break is a wise decision unless one is really in a desperate state. yea!! i agree to wat she sae. if i use my weekdays wisely on my work, i dun tink i'm unable to cope with my sch work.. i brought me to think if i had been uysing my time wisely fro the starting of sch til now.. i admit sometimes, i din at all. i wil spend time hanging wif my fenz n chit chat. though i noe it wil be uneffective environment to study, i kip going there!! haiz!! unwise me!! this is wat i like abt hanging ard wif my leaders.. i always get impacted n learnt something fro them.. tx to my leaders. though i'm imperfect now, i wil strive to be betta in both sch n church!! seem shallow?? but it's really wat i desire.. perhaps a lot of ppl desire like me too!! ra!!
til now, i stil enjoy myself in sch. though it's tiring n stressful, i noe at least i learn something new.. sometimes my frenz wil ask me, ting, aren't u tired? y r u always so enthu de? hu motivates u?? i told them; God!! then every of them there went blank!! i wil continue telling them abt the process of learning. ha!!
blog again!!

2007-09-21T09:33:00.000-07:00

yea!! i upload some photos!! the one below is the debate team for that day!! yea!! we survive thru!!

here is me, zhen n ting!! my best buddies since sec sch!! 7 yrs of friendship!! wil be stronger!

My lunch today!! wif jia qing, joel n my dearest doris!! gal, love ya!!

my cg went there for outreach jus now!! the respond is gd!!
i was playing with this a moment ago!!i miss my childhood days!!
The gals!!
i love this most!!

yea!! i got back my As assignment!! i got my full mark again! i wan to tx god for this cos i'm not confident at all!! tx god!! another thing to tx god is i got back my overall IS 101 result! i got A grade so far!! more room for improvement.. yea man!! can de.. i had been slping 2 to 4 hrs every day this week.. wow!! tiring!! but i hardly slp in the class... wheneva i wan to slp, i wil pray in tongue in my heart or softly.. can de!! another is 101 proj due soon!! oh man!! rush n chiong like crzy!!
blog again ba!!

2007-09-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

Got it fro cyn; i found it veri meaningful.

When the daylight's gone and you're on your own

And you need a friend just to be aroundI will comfort you,

I will take your hand

And I'll pull you through, I will understand

And you know thatI'll be at your side, there's no need to worry

Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry

I'll be at your side

If you feel like you're alone, and you've nowhere to turn

I'll be at your sideIf life's standing still and your soul's confused

And you cannot find what road to choose

If you make mistakes (make mistakes)

You can't let me down (let me down)

I will still believe (still believe)I will turn around

And you know thatI'll be at your side, there's no need to worry

Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry

I'll be at your sideIf you feel like you're alone, and you've nowhere to turn

I'll be at your sideI'll be at your sideI'll be at your sideYou know that

I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry

Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry

I'll be at your side

If you feel like you're alone, you've got somewhere to go,

'Cos I'm right there

I'll be at your side,

I'll be right there for you(Together we'll survive) through the haste and hurry

I'll be at your side

If you feel like you're alone, you've got somewhere to go,

'Cos I'm at your sideI'll be right there for you

I'll be right there for you, yeahI'm right at your side

2007-09-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

Traumatize by datelines and mutli- assignments and projects..
ya u r rite yi han!! my enthusiasm is like no longer there!! i feel tired at times.. i feel like resting be4 i move on.. d.besides sch stress, i'm rather pressurized by the upcoming helpers n leaders outing.. it muz be organised wif a higher standard... but til now, the feedback i get fro the chief usher is not veri gd. He expects more fro me.. oh man!! i need wisdom.. sometimes, i really feel like crying out loud; releasing all my stress which is bottled up in me. but i'm the one who always control my tears..maybe it is really the challenging time for me ba.. is where i wil be transformed n grow up to a big gal'; someone who wun cry over small matters, cry over stress and etc.... but thru this period of time, i knew a few frenz.. they r always there for me.. like the ushers i have been working wif, they make me feel so loved. despite of my D, they really care n love me . i can feel the love from them.. tx guys!! another one is joel.. he's always helping me.. i dun noe if god has sent this bro- in- christ to help me. i suppose so.. tx dude!! u r my best proj mate n frenz!!
everything wil be alrite soon!! i will c the light directing me veri veri soon!!! i'll walk out of darkness soon!! god, i pray for ur anointing n wisdom.. i dun wan to be anyone else who miss u even if u r jus 0.0000000005m away fro them.. i wan to pull myself closer to u... let me work in ur power... ya??
Expecting something significant tml! i oso sun noe wat's tat?? this is wat GOD told me the other day!! tve or -ve??? dun noe..
off to finish my proj..
bb..

2007-09-16T06:13:00.000-07:00

SHOPPING!! I'M A SHOPOHOLIC!!!
yea man!! today i went out wif my best buddies to orchard to cele min's birthday!! it has been a long while be4 we meet up again!! ( except for ai zhen who is in my cell grp). We went to HK restaurant to eat be4 we start catching up wif each other's lives!! I realised that all of them hv a very lovely, sweet boyfrenz who love them a lot! GD!! muz love them jus as i do, ok?? ( as if their guys wil look at my blog? ha!) then they start questioning me; hey ting, where's urs?? "Huh!! why muz i hv one? what is the point of having one then break up due to some crazy reasons which wil make me upset! i wan to study!" Jie min interrupt " Gd! wenting shldn't get into one; relationship wil jus cause disruption to her studies. I think she shld study now!" This reminds me of my grandma; wheneva i go n visit her, she wil ask me the same qn; ting huh!! where is ur bf? are u attached a not? y no?? is time le leh!! haiz.. so sianx.. grandma always ask me the same qn.. then she wil start to compare me wif my cousins. haiz!! granny is not i dun wan, is dun hv la... i'm still not tat open to guys la.. i had learnt from my realtionship wif jon that a copule shld noe each other more be4 they get together. is not abt tolerance is abt acceptance, ya? like wat cyn sae; even if the guy u like do silly things u wil find it cute... her silly things include digging nose.. oh man!!
back to today hanging out wif my buddies!! after catching up, we went shopping.. i bought 2 tops which onli cost 20 bucks.. yea man!! it's so cheap cos zhen's frenz is working there!! love the 2 shirts.. they r jus normal shirts wif cool n meaningful paintings on... i hang out wif them til 5. after which i went home n study.. mugger!! ( like wat prof sae abt me!!)
actually, i felt stressed these days.. everyone wo saw me asked me a similar qn; y u look so tired? ya i'm.. was mulit-tasking these few days or rather this entire week...i'm currently rushing my assignments of course and planning an usher outing for my group.. the assignments are piling up!! the readings are piling up too!!!the planning is super rush now!! the outing is on the 30 sept but currently we r stil settling the caterer n the function room!! oh man!! i think i'm so D yesterday when i brief the ushers in the organising committee. i think they r quite afraid of me; when they din submit wat i wan them to submit on time, they wil msg me n acct to me.. is gd to be acountable but dun be afraid.. when it comes to serious stuff, of course i'll be serious. if otherwise, i wil be veri friendly de ya??

2007-09-14T09:32:00.000-07:00

10 random facts again!
1. why is there choco fondue only? wat's abt mango? wat's abt strawsberry?
2. why m i getting so little slp?
3. why m i always the victim for auntie-killers?
4. why i like pooh bear?
5. why i like mickey n minnie mouse?
6. i like shopping.
7. i'm considering enrolling in SOT nxt yr.
8. i'm D I C ( enoch sae is the natural qualities of a leader. he claim tat! haha)
9. i'm chionging like crazy everyday.
10. i love u guys out there!!

Yea man!! i had submitted my most 2 impt assignmnets this week; Alice and Acad writing essay.
haha!! yea man!! i jus prayed the prof can see the amt of effort i really put in and gif me a gd grade.. oh ya!! praise jesus and god for being so faithful to me always. i got back another assignment; i got full marks! yea! so suprising! i'm in uni le yet.. hahaha!! by his grace. i believe that that generous God wil bless me even more.. yea!! God u rox!! love ya?
was at cg meeting jus now. jus felt the LOrd telling me abt his presence and my willingness to open up to him. i was receiving his words when suddenly lorraine came to pray for me saeing the same thing. i teared a little!! telling HIM to forgive me and nv let me go! or rather i can sae is i wun let U go, my goD!! i really enjoy the whole cg meeting. it was great. i felt refreshed!! i wasn't tired at all despite of the few hrs of slp everyday! yea man!! god is my strength..
sometimes i was wondering... what if i din receive him into my heart? what if i was an unbeliever out there in the marketplace? i had already neing god that late.. how i wish i had known him from the start ; from the day i was born.
oh ya!! last thing to mention, i was freaked out by an auntie.. she's so funny!! went ard the bus scolding ppl. i think she's weird.. she pushed n hit those ppl who try to help me to a seat. For those ppl, she called them as pervents! there'r 2 china chinese on bus. i think they are afraid too.. so the moment they saw that auntie trying to stand betw them, they went to the seats in front and alight at the next stop.. that weird weird auntie was like u r afraid i'm a robber is it? wat u alight at gelyang? confirm u r a prostitute. oh man!! then she was standing close to me which is reflected from the window screen of the bus. oh man!! i was shivering.. at the moment she touched me wif her plastic bag, i scream ( as said by jas n jac). the onli thing i rmb is that i jump a little from my seats. oh man!! she was then talking to me abt her legs and kip criticising ppl of diff races, nationality. hai!! i wil pray for that lady..

2007-09-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

HATING LIFE!!

hate my life!!!
now is alraedy 12.51am!! yet i'm stil in sch rushing Alice assignment which is due ltr at 5...
oh man!!!
hate my life!
hate my life!
hate my life!
God!!! why IS?? why not biz? Econ? accountancy? social science? law?
why IS??
God sae: Dun doubt! this is jus the beginning of ur journey! u hv a long way to go! As promised, you wil be someone great in the marketplace!

2007-09-12T19:42:00.000-07:00

hey ppl!! there's an usher grp 2 helpers and leaders outing very soon!!
it wil be either oin the last sun of sept or the first sun of october..
where one u prefer or can make it?
Pls let me noe!
u can either tag me or msg me!

2007-09-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

The challenges! My random facts!

this challenges me!!
"how much time do you spend pursuing God's word?"
to those who is in debt, without job, in trouble or in tough times , their ans wil be the same--- little or none at all.
As Jesus' ministry began, He sae "Wisdom Himself"
Without wisdom, we cannot fulfill the will of God for our lives nor can we live above the circumstances of life. Why is wisdom impt? Wisdom is the ability to accurately apply God's word to every situation. Yea man!! the word of god can be applied to every situation. Onli those who seek his word wil experience the real true wisdom fro heaven. yea! yea!! hope this encourage u too!!
Like wat Bro told me, every person has a word at diff season. At this pt of time, wisdom is the word for me! i'm still trying to fig out how can i corporate this into my life besides seeking his word. Sometimes, i think my behaviour n actions aren't applying the wisdom from god! ai yo!! me huh!! but i wil try, ya??
btw, today i had my debate. oh man!! everything is cool n fine til the last part when every one start bombarding me wif qn. i expected it! cos i'm for the idea of the abolishment but it's worse n bad than i expected.. oh man!!! in the evening, prof sent me an email telling me i got 7.1.. oh man! i expected higher marks.. but... nvm.. at least i try my best.. lorraine had this common phrase" if u do ur best, god wil do the rest" ya!! i did my best.. i think i shall take it n move on!! haha!! at least i'm not tat sad after noeing that. haha!!
today, i met bao tian n yong quan at funan for lunch n discussion abt outing. oh man!! i'm so not C!! i'm not tat detailed can?? i had failed to recognise the limtations n constraints.. oh man!! i used to be so C but now... ai yo!! wat happened to wenting.. study til my brain-juice is all squeeze out.. haha!!
btw, i did the DISC test jus now..
i'm so D n I la.. My C decrease and my S remains the same; stil so low.. haha!!! ya.. i muz admit i'm not S at all.. on average, i'm D I C. ha!!
btw, i wan to mention abt my random tots! i felt so random recently..
1. y it's so hot? cos it din rain.
2. i wan to enjoy choco fodue wif bao, jen, ....
3. i wan ben n jerry's ice cream
4. and my fav mochi- lychee n peach pls.
5. i wan to shop for my heels ( not tat high) n clothes.. i wan that jacket fro Espirit
6. i wan to eat chicken wings
7. i wan to eat stingray
8. i hate stress but i love studying
9. i miss yangting, jie min n zhen.. miss hanging out wif them
10. i love my first love; my Abba God

2007-09-08T09:58:00.000-07:00

Gos sae: Focus ting!! Wisdom wil come upon u.. u wil be someone who excel in studies and someone wif gd time management. The onli condition is tat u muz be focus. U muz be focused in watevea planned for u now!!!!
Daniel sae: was praying for u and felt in my heart a word 4 u. Even as u go thru all hardships, noe tat the Lord ur God is wif u. This is a process to mould u into something greater dat u can nv imagine for god has a plan for u. He wil raise u up to be a standard of excellence for ppl ard u to c, to be salt n light 4 SMU.
yea man!! god pls me ur rhema!!! i need it!! i was facing a period of difficulties recently. My heart is always disobeying me! ( perhaps it rooted doen to my attitude and hw i c things again), there;re really lots of assignments n proj.. SMU is driving me crazy la... Seriouly i dun think SMU is a dumping ground!! students there can be identified by eye bag.. haha! they really work hard and study hard.. wlmost every nite when i stay in sch to study, there'll be a lot of stud studying wif me.. haha!! at least i'm not alone!!
GOD!!!!

2007-09-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

sick!! fever last nite! flu now! headache now!! oh man!!!
i'm a little sick now!!
a lot of assignment and proj to rush.. i tot smu is diff fro the other sch like ntu or nus..
indeed it's different. i found out that smu stud is more chiong than the students over there..
first wee, i had heard ppl camping in sch.. second week, a proj of mine has began to stay in sch n study till midnight.. third week?? it's my turn.. i stayed in sch till eleven plus and study.. oh man!! sometimes i really feel discouraged and sick over my life.. Aiming to be one of the top in sch indeed wan me to pay a price.. i wan to show my ushers tat indeed i'm a gd testimony in both marketplace n in church.. but sometimes, i felt so sick balancing them.. wat i learnt fro bs today is it's diff to fulfill god's will n purpose in our life if onli we use our own strength.. ALWAYS LEAN ON HIM FOR HELP!!! yea man!! this really impact my heart... Abba dady.. i wil work harder no matter wat.. be someone influential in the marketplace!
btw, my N80 is giving me trouble. i din drop it but it kip hanging and the button can hardly to be pressed.. but my daddy and mummy promise to buy a new phone for me.. haha!! give me wisdom to buy a betta function , beta appearance, betta???? i jus wan a betta phone!! haha!! yea!! a new phone coming in its way!!

2007-09-04T03:45:00.000-07:00

haha!!! i lost weight le!!! i dun even need to unbutton to take it out!! haha!! yea man!! 2 ++ weeks onli leh!! i think i wil reach my ideal weight of 45kg soon... yea yea!!! but my mama is like "u look so ugly now!!" same thing- she starts blaming church.. haiz!!! pls pray for me!!!
btw, i think i screwed up for my presentation today!! sob!! haiz.. dun noe wat happened to me!! my mind jus went blank.. i hv a new strategy; nxt presentation i wil either get notes or draw pic since i'm rather visual. hmmm.. though it was a sda thing that i screwed up my presentationn, i jus prayed that the other grp which present in the 2nd week din do well as well.. hahah!! evil me!!! i really wan to be a gd testimony in the marketplace. i wan to tell my mama n daddy that though i go church, i stil can manage my studies well.. if i score well, hopefully, they wil sponsor me for my SOT nxt yr.. yep yep!! i think i wil be going SOT nxt yr.. still praying abt it!!!
the infatuation is making me suffer now!!! still i'm suffering... the spirit in me is always against god!!! throw u out!!! throw u out!!!!!! throw u out!!!! u r so bad!!! y u make me suffer!!!! i hate u bad spirit!!!
*** gd result+ gd attitude+ gd testimony in church n mktplace+ gd cpmlexion+ gd realtionship wif u my god and my dearest family and frenz+ gd vision+ gd focus= my onli desire

2007-08-28T05:41:00.000-07:00

i got to admit tat special someone in my heart is an infatuation ba... i think he knew abt it.. cos the way he talked to me and he 's like avioding me leh!! dun noe!! i'm too sensitive??? perhaps!! i dun noe... i'm believing god to renew my mind and get him out fro my mind.. i dun wan any failure... forget it!!! he's so popular in sch till a lot of gals come to him n chat!!! i felt a little weird.. but i din even bother.. i jus continued to do my hw n revision.. haha!! the one n onli aim in this marketplace is to score well n carry the spirit of excellence wif me alwayz in sch; to be the salt n light n a gd testimony in this marketplace.. in church, i jus wan to serve god wholeheartedly.. let nothing distract me when i'm serving in usher ministry n cg ministry.. i wld like to commit more time in cg since Pastor A.R Bernard once sae cg is ur family, ministry is ur work... ya man!!! i agree.. so i'll be putting my heart more in cg n my cgm... love my cg lotz.... n my usher team mbrs n frenz lotz.. u!!!! u!!!! n U!!!!!! stop disturbing me fro doing something gd for god n in the kingdom of god!!!! ( u means devil/satan) haha!!!

2007-08-25T09:40:00.001-07:00

my special someone at heart??? oh man!! after a week in sch wif him, i understand him more.. like wat cyn told me all the bad habits of that special guy u wil like it... hmm.. i dun noe if i like it.. but i jus dun mind.. and find it cute.. haha!! puppy love??? shld be... but i noe that now is not the time.. i need to focus on my studies.. one can onli focus on one thing at a time.. yea man!!! something he jus get into my head esp when i'm resting. but to rest assure, when i'm in class, i think of nothing else except my studies. . haha!! tat's gd!!

today, i went church.. and i'm serving!!! i used to think that i cant cope betw usher n studies but it proves me wrong.. i no longer think so.. i really think is time management.. Today is my Sabbath day!! even God has a Sabbath day after creating the world.. i need a Sabbath day too!!! every sat is my Sabbath day!! i need to get enuf rest and then can chiong ma.. i'm doing Charlie today suppt Chen Huat in terrence.. it's rather tiring cos i've been doing everything on my own.. then Chen Huat told me he cant c me most of the time.. cos i'm always doing thinbgs on my own n not giving instruction to the ushers.. ya.. true!! i din!!! nowonder i found myself running up n down.. haha!!! gd exercise!!! after svc, i was supposed to arrange seats in echo where the sot students are taking photos. then i saw yi han.. is so coincidental!!! i was looking for lorraine.. but i saw yi han!!! haha!!

haha.. i think my eyes r real small!! muz be pose for veri long le... as compare to.......

my eyes r bigger rite??? haha!! but the pic is so blur!!!

took wif daniel too...

took wif tian yi yesterday during the cca day!!
the 3 helpful guys and someone whom i can talk to!!! my seniors in smu and my brothers in christ!!!

2007-08-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

hey hey.. i'm back!!!! veri long din blog le.. hahah!! ya!! a lot of sch assignments now!!! stressed!!!!!!!!!!!stressed!!!!!! i found myself handling a lot of things at one go!! like giving tuition, studying, doing projects and presentation, calling my beloved ( first n one ) usher team.... at first, i'm like oh no god!!! y like this??? y m i so busy; i dun really hv time for myself now as compare to nafter my A level exam. i need to do this thing at the same time need to complete this thing.. oh man!!! sometimes i felt super frustrated when my usher team ignores my msg or call.. i'll be like y cant u guys be more sensitive to me?? accountable to me? submissive?? but after yesterdat prayer meeting wif the smu- city harvester i realised i'm wrong. i shld think in this way. Wat i sow is wat i reap.. do i wan to reap such team mbrs ?? Absolutely no!!!! hmm... Prov 22:29- i shld excel in wateva i'm doing and stand be4 kings( influential ppl). Is tat attitude excelling in life??? yea man!!! i shld change.. i shld be less "D" n more " C" n "S".
shall end this blog here.. go n study le.. BB!!!

2007-08-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

hey hey!!! i'm back..
oh man!! i'm stil dwelling in my re-elw test!! God!! sorry!! i'm disobedient child of urs... u hv told me not to worry but i'm stil pondering whether i did hear the rite voice!!! sorry!!! think i'm listening to so many worship songs le ba... this feeling of mine kip surfacing in my mind... sorry abba!! i stil love u a lot... the one who nv gif up on me when the whole world turn heir their back at me!!! my dearest abbba!!! even my parents may forsake me but nv wil u do this to me!!! love u dearest abba daddy!!! nv wil i backslide fro ur presence, fro my church... i tx u for giving me such a great church.. i'll nv be ashamed of it!! instead, i wil tell n proclaim to the world i'm fro CITY HARVEST CHURCH.. like it a not, i'm foreva their mbrs.. the passion i hv in u n the church wil be like rain, oil n fire.. nv die off... if one day, the fire dies off, the rain dry up n oil is burnt out, i'll make the effort to start it all over again.. my dearest abba!!!
abba!!! i saw him again today!!! seriously i dun noe wat is love?? i wan real love???
a... wait wait.... i noe wat is real love.. is ur love for me!!! nv forsake me! love me even i lost the passion... allow me to stay in ur presence foreva.. allow urself to dwell in muy heart... is he the one?? or perhaps, he 's my mr ideal... how i hop he is placed there for my sake!! but........ i wil nv disobey u... when u sae no, i wil stop.. when u sae yes, i wil proceed on... i tx u for being there foreva for me... i nv feel so comfortable like today; writing a journal to u!!!

2007-08-13T07:00:00.000-07:00

jus got back fro FTB camp last sat...

oh man!! it's super tiring, can?? but overall, i love the activities.. i love my faci and my team..though we may hv a lot of troubles n differences in communication, we stil make it to the end... i love them loz.. indeed i hv a lot of gd experiences in the camp.. it was the first time i slpt on hard ground in a tent wif 3 other gals n a guy outside my tent.( think he can smell my smelly leg) haha!!! t was the first time i together wif my team plan n did a raft. It was the first time i carried such heavy stuff. It was the first time i plan n play a game. It was the first time i was involoved in a mini-club. It was the first time i was carried by boys ard.. Oh man!! they muz be tired. haha!! c'mon!! after all, i'm not tat short and not tat light.. haha!! maybe as compare, i'm light n short. hahaha!! oh no!! SMU gals r hot n tall... It was the first time i had such close contact wif guys.. It was the first time i was showering in less than 10 min n in a flooded shower cabinet. ahaha!!

We hv several games; ice-breaker, painting n designing our own flag, pitching tents, spider-web, measuring the tallest tower, blind-folding games, brick-carrying without our hands or feet touching the floor, pick the sticks games.... is challenging n fun!! hahah!! love ya!!

plus, i hv a super gd faci. he's veri caring.. love him!! he has a super super boy-boy look. BUt.............. he's a alcholic n frequent clubber.. but i wld like to tx him for his care n concern for me!!

oh ya... i failed my elw... sob!! i cried the whole day cos of anxiety n fear in me... oh man!! i muz pass this time rd in order to move on to my uni core.. oh man!!! god!!! help me!!

i went for the paper today... it's diff, veri veri diff... GOD!!!

then saw chi hao after my test. he was finding something but............. he cant find..

in the end, he sent me home..

wow!! i was sitting in his dad's merz.. enjoy the car.. but he drove super fast.. my life is at risk

2007-08-07T00:36:00.000-07:00

hey hey.. i'm back fro camp..
i'm tired after the camp!! super super tired!!!
the camp is rather fun on the second day but it was a little boring on the first day...
First day- we met at 730 at harbourfront mrt station. then we proceed as a team to Sentosa island.. after some briefing, we started the game. the game is passing banana wif body parts. Oh man!! this is the rfirst time i hv the closest contact wif a stranger ( moreover, all r guys). Oh man!!!hate it... my team lost it n hv to eat rotten banana!! haha!! luckily, i escaped! haha!! thanx guys!! In the afternoon, we hv mummy's dressing up game. My faci was the mummy.. OH man!! so disgusting... the dressing makes him looks veri veri terrible... Monster to me!! followed up nxt, we played water games... oh man!!! i'm like almost wet when we r playing water bombs.. but, i was to be make wet throughout by going into the sea n dipped myself wif dirty water... so disgusting... something bad is the guy whom i fell upon seeing him is assisting me.. oh man!! so ugly!!! i'm so ugly can!! no image le.. he was at the side : go gal!!! go up to the shore now!" oh man!!! crying!! nO image.. hahah!!! he was half naked!! so shy!! but he's rather fat!! hahaha!! teasing him!!! we then play amazing race fro sentosa to smu by running.. oh man!! super tiring... but it's rather fun n it realy squeeze my brain juice.. Throughout the game, i was pissed off wif a someone.. he's super super touchy n kip touching me!! hate this!!! i noe this wil happen but i tot wun be tat bad.. but...... be4 the camp, he was like asking me this n that till sometimes i got pissed offf.. oh pls, i'm not that kind of gal. i may look n act bimbo but i'm not at all... i'm not a loose gal!! look at urself in the mirror can??? look at ur appearance ! Look at ur inward nature!!! u r jus a monster n satan to me!! someone who sparked my anger!!! u r like ****. i mdun meant to sae all this.. but is u who makes me feel tat. i nv c such a terrible, ***** guy be4.. now ive experience... u r like a ****!!!! go away fro me!!! anothere thing he sae tat made me pissed off: Uni le la, y cant guys slp wif gals.. " hey come on!! it puts me to a danger when i'm slping wif guys like U!!!! ask me to slp wif stranger n he's a pervent!!Come on!!! nv wil i do it.... ther'sy i dun dare to slp the whole nite.. i kip waking up.. checking ard me!!!
second day- amazing race in sch, performances.. jus tat... nothing much to sae.. but every thing i go he wil be behind... oh man!!! monster!!! kip mentionong me to the other faci!! wat's tat!! boost?? show off? ya.. i noe i'm pretty ( hahaha!! jkjk) doesnt mean is for u to look at!!! angry!!!moreover, he did hug me be4 the performance. i;m the overall narrator who was leading the whole performance doesnt mean u muz hug me!! stupid!! so dirty!! the every moment the monster is looking at my shorts, i move backwards. then it was noticed by the guy who made me fall.. he seemed to find it weird but he was there looking at me puzzledly.. Come on! help me!!!
bad bad bad camp!!!!! bad experience!!!

2007-07-31T06:46:00.000-07:00

hey hey!!! i'm finally back...
had a difficult n tiring day in sch... everyday is quiz quiz n quiz... so scary!!! all the quiz is taken into consideration n wil affect my overall grade.. hmmm... hv a get an overall B in order to graduate from this eng course.. oh no!!! i'm now rather unstable!! a jus passed grade on the first day n a gd pass on the second day!!! hmmm.... i need to jia you le oh!!!
bb.. cya soon..
tag me leh!!!

2007-07-29T04:49:00.000-07:00

i'm refreshed today!!!
pastor mike is indeed a great deliverance pastor...
on the first nite, i din sense any anointing fro god. maybe i'm not open enuf.. today, it's diff...
i went out thrice to hv my demons delivered.. i feel super uneasy when pastor mike talked abt generation curses, sexual sins and fear. i went out.. though my reaction is not veri violent, i felt refreshed after that.. after tat, pastor derek went up n prayed for us.. oh man!! i fell down wif holy laughter n peace.. oh man!!! i was talking to god when i suddenly fell down... haha!! it has been so long i cant feel his presence wif me.. yea!! God loves ting ting... ting ting loves god too... yesterday nite, i met one of my seniors, tian yi.. he told me abt his plan on smu revival. he'
s planning to use uni-y as a ground to start smu revival.. yes!! this wil happen.. he then share wif me how he copes wif uni life n church stuff.. he told me this which i really felt guilty.. he said " if u prayed for a while like 5 min daily, how u expected god to help u. if u pray for an hr daily n sense his presence daily, def god wil make things happen for u." another senior who i saw today told me almost all the smu- city harrvesters r either church leaders or marketplace leaders yet they can excel in their studies. almost all of them hv 4.0 as their GPA and they r taking double degree.. wow!! i'll be one of tem.. For sure!!! No fear!! i'll continue to live in an anointing of god....

2007-07-26T03:20:00.000-07:00

hihi!! i'm back fro hk!! miss ya??
Hmmm. there're a lot of things to sae abt the trip.
When i first stepped into the airport of hk, i really doubted y they can be able to get " Top Ten Airport in the World". Cos there's no clear direction in the airport. We hv to take train fro one terminal to the other in order to check in. Oh man!! after all the necessary check, we wait for an hr be4 we set off to the hotel. Tx to the aent there who r responsible to bring us to the respective hotels. Then, we went shopping n shopping.. haha... love it!!! we went mong kok gthen shop at the street over there. i din go to argyle centre. oh man!! no time la... second day, we went for a half day hk tour. i admit the dian xin is super nice. i love the first dish, a little sweet n salty. then they took us to for a tour ard hk, showung us the diff significant place in hk. and the tour guide kip asking us to take photos. oh man!! shy!!! haha!! that guy is a cin man can?? he cheat hk $820 fro us by asking us to buy the photos. Con guy!!! the agent collected hk $170 fro each of us. though the dian xin is nice, the lunch is like wat!! all vegetables!! oh man!! they r earning a lot huh!!! wat a day.. then we depart fro them n went our own. we went to designers' clothes shop n shop again. this time ard i really buy a lot. is so nice but a little exp.. the price is like spore's cost.. not much diff. in the end, i spent everything by the 2nd day..
3rd day- we went disneyland. love mickey n minnie.. i waited for 1 hr to queue up n take photo nwif them.. i wan to take wif pooh bear.. but my camera was down for a few hrs cos my water bottle spilled. oh man!! i'm pissed off can? esp wif myself n my auntie. she kip nagging n rehearsing that my camera is down due to my carelessness. oh pls, who put the bottle in my bag ( maybe this is an excuse). dun she noe i'm upset over myself too? n my carelessness too? cannot stand it!!! then i walked off on my own. oi missed the parade. i teared!! my camera!! my carelessness! the constant nagging! poor mummy!! cos i cant throw temper n scold at the irritating auntie then i scold myummy lor. cos she oso nag at me a little. after hitting the camera at my pslm, i had bruise n i hit so hard that ther're spots of red. shld be blood vessels burst ba.. but praise the lord!! the camera recover after a while if hitting hahah!!! fun resumes again...
4th day- last day!!! din do much..
here am i!! i'm back!!
i w3anto praise my usher team- despite of my absent, u guys r stil veri discipline. u guys din cause any pro n troubles to gaius.. n cheryl turn up for door usher. i stil rmb in the past, she hates ushering.. now, she is even willing to do door ushering on sun.. tx gal!!

2007-07-19T01:36:00.000-07:00

hihi!!! this has become how i addressed at the beginning of my blog entry. haha!!! on wed, i went out wif bao tian; my chief usher, esther; my grp leader as well as my whole section ( but onli involves the leaders and helpers). Oh man!! i nfelt so small there. i dun really dare to talk. Then gaius veri funny leh.. ask y i had so little to talk during the fellowship? oh man!! i'm so pai seh... of course la... i veri sgy de wat!! haha!! plus, they r all working adults so they hv common topic. But lor... i'm blur !!! the dinner is supposed to start at 745. But i tot is 715. Then to avoid my impunctuality, i reached there at 630.. haha!! oh man!! i'm so bored.. But in the end, i saw XX XXX. haha!! my heart pounded veri fast... so coincidence!! i stil rmb his round round eyes, the way he looked at me... oh man!! faint! melted! hope to c u soon again be4 sch starts... prob can c u this sat!! haha!! desperate me!! no la... he's jus an ideal guy to all gals.. even yang lin is so excited.. hahaha!! aiai is like.. confirm taken de since he's so ideal.. haha!! oh man!!! going out wif chin shyan n wan jun ltr.. cya!! blog again..

2007-07-17T05:54:00.000-07:00

oh man!! i'm thinking abt rubbish again. So irritating!! Go away devil. U r haunting me wif that someone... oh man!!!
today i went back to sch.. Oh man!! it's a little boring. but i'm suprised i din fall aslp. instead, i'm rather energetic n active abt all the talk.. But after the talk, i finally recognised myself as SMU student and SMU citizen. and i'm convinced to join dance as my core cca and entrepreneurship society as the otherone. I'm joining HOPE WORLDWIDE and ROTARACT CLUB to fulfil 80 hrs of cip prog and help the other unfortunate ones. Oh man!! i'm in that sch.. yes!! i'm not dreaming... yes.. i'm SMU citizen..
oh ya.. i saw the president fro SISS.. oh man!! i saw him smoking.. but he dun look like one who smokes. This further explains dun judge a bk by its cover...
wil blog again...

2007-07-15T05:21:00.000-07:00

hey hey!! wenting is back !!!
On wed, i went out wif chin shyan to our sec sch then to parkway parade to window shop.. wow!! it has been so long we went out together le... miss it lotz... then, i rushed to my SMU_ City Harvest BBq at Bukit Timah.. Oh man!! i took the wrong direction. Instead of taking train to jurong east by east-west line. I transferred north-south line at city hall.. stupid rite? ya, indeed... hahaha!! in the end, i'm late for half an hour.. soory guys.. sorry for waiting. i felt a little weird cos i noe no one there. they r all my seniors.. onli 2 other freshmen.. but they can click well wif the senior unlike me... half of the time, i dun understand wat they r talking.. oops!! haha!! we went to upp bukit timah to bq.. i tot wil be at a park or something.. in the end, we went to a five storey hse.. oh man!!! super big n super nice la... oh man!!! i hv another another eye candy? little anthea n frenz out there!! dun mistaken... dun ask me if i hv someone i like.. NO NO NO!!! i dun have at all.. i wan to study!!! hahah!!! btw, i'm married to god... i'm attacted to GOD!! Oh ya... i finished my bs quiz today.. wat's a relief.. i aim for full mark but jus found out i hv one mistake le.. Oh man!!! Hmmm.. i shall work harder when ft 2 quiz comes!!! Cya.. Love ya, my frenz! my cg mbrs! my usher frenz....!!!

2007-07-10T04:09:00.000-07:00

hihi!!! hi to my frenz to my frenz who read my blog. hmmm.. i did nothing much this week... hahaha... hmmm.. oh ya.. on mon, my mummy went to sch together wif me to hand in the tuition grant form n the cheque of $375. then, we went to sign up for cip programnme. i chose Raotarct and Hope worldwide. Hmmm.. hopefully can fufill my 80 cip hrs. hmmm.. then i saw the guy who make me fell on fri.. so pai seh.. the guy is my senior leh!! is not i wan to fall.. dun noe why i fell upon seeing him. i think he's not bad looking. then suddenly he went n talked o me.. hahaha!! but i fell. haha.. pai seh... many shuai ge in my sch oh!!! envious?? jealous?? haha... nothing much to sae.. off i go n eat le.. bb..

2007-07-08T09:33:00.000-07:00

yoz toz... it seemed like a few days i din blog le.. Hmmm... i'm quite happi today. cos i finally get my commission for my tuition assignment. hahaha... second. i finally went out wif yang ting to catch a movie.. It was like time flying real fast when we get together. Btw, yang ting is my best best bestie... we went cineleisure first. Shockingly, i found that My desired movie; Nancy Drew wun be showing anymore. Sad leh!!! then, she suggested to watch transformers!!! Nice??? i dun really like action show leh!!! but i jus go ahead after "eating" so many punch fro the crazy gal... hahaha!! when we r queuing up, we saw someone special... we joke ard then departed. That special someone is alrite, he's pretty funny. But ...... dun mistaken. After that, yang ting and i went heeren and shop shop... Hmmmm.. nothing to shop leh!!! hahaha!!! then we kip taking photos in the toilets and spinelli where we had our chocolate drinks. We then rushed down to cine for Transformer. The show is pretty nice n exciting. But i dun really understand til yang ting explian to me.. Hmmm... plus i almost fell asleep in the middle part. perhaps i'm too tired le.- wake up at 7 to prepare for svc this morning. Then lat nite was settling n thinking abt some usher stuff.. i hv a lot of qn in my mind; i wld like to raise justin up but his results are falling terribly. Moreover, he's taking his o level this yr. i'm still thinking n praying abt it.. I really need someone cos i'll be away for certain weekdays n weekend. I really need someone to assisst me. i wan to build a family team where ppl care n lo9ve each other. i dun wan to be the onli one calling them n talk to them. i wan my team mbrs to try calling each other n show care... Hmmm... i payed n believed it wil def happened.. amen!!

2007-07-05T10:06:00.000-07:00

hahaha!! today finally i went out wif jen( aiai or shld i call mummy). My ai ai is so motherly that i hv lotz of nicknames for her. For instance; aiai, mummy, ah yi, ah ma..... hahaha!! si fun hanging out wif her.. We meet up to go chai chee CC to sing k but when i'm on my way to meet jen, i found out the ktv onli open at 2. Wa!!! disappointing la... Then, we went tampines trying to look for k box. But it had closed down a yr ago... Oh man!!! i dun noe ... Disappointed!!! but i dun care i wan to acc my aiai to sing k. we had lunch at tampines then we went back to bedok chai chee CC. Oh ya.... while having lunch, aiai told me abt a guy fro another ministry. He's so bad can?? sae til he's so "wei DA" Oh pls... stop this crap... Nonsene!! . ANGRY!!!!! U betta stay away fro my aiai... Finally, we got to sing... Hahaha!! so fun !! but now, my throat is hurting... hmmm... we then chiong down for chair arrangement at hall 8. Finally, we return to hall 8. I love that place. i preferred that as compare to hall 1 cos more accessible. Whenever i'm late for usher or fellowship, i can chiong down fro train... Plus, the bus stop is so far.. haha!! sae i'm lazy...

2007-07-02T07:01:00.000-07:00

nothing much happened!!! I'm jus frustrated wif myself n ppl ard me... Like yesterday, i'm super pissed off wif my brother. He kip influencing my parents in some ways. Like My blood test. He kip telling them that it's not wise for me to test my blood. Cos he's afraid that i'll get unaccepted by the sch. Dotz... oh pls.... i can kip the report rite?? is not necessary to tell SMU abt i'm under anemia rite?? anemia onli wat!!!! Plus the sch needs my blood type. Cant i test for it??? Dotz... Really pissed of....2. i asked my daddy to eat kimichi then he starts complaining that i'm causing my daddy to be heaty.. Dotz...3. in the first place, i hv a student package fro singtel allowing me to hv free campus call for 300 min, 500 more msg n 22 free mms. Then in the end, my brother told my mummy that it's unnecessary... BUT is it????when i get into uni, i hv to call my team mbrs wif nmy hp.. i need free campus call a lot.. then he................ Speechless!!!! Then today, i'm get upset wif my camp but my mummy stil shout at me telling me she dun hv time. Oh pls... is u promise to buy food for me.. MY PROBLEM????? then in the end, i cook instant noodles n eat... OH MAN!!! she jip arguing that i noe my blood type. If she as my mummy dun noe how wil i noe???? angry??? Then in the end, she felt so guilty that she bought durians fr me n asked ard for my medical report.. WAt a day!! but i'm alrite now....

2007-06-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

hahaha!! yea!! daddy was paid by the " army guys".. Hrer come my finacial blessings... Daddy gave me a hundred dollars.. It acct for my daily expenses.. But it's not really enuf!!! But i stil appreciate it a lot.. At least i can save up for my hk trup nxt month... I'm going to buy 31 tops and bottoms, 2 bags, 3 pairs of slippers, 1 pair of shoes ( most likely Nike), 3 high heels, 2 wallets, 3 boots ( one for Ai ai, 2 For myself) hahah!! plus all the gifts for my cgm and frenz... Will $700 dollars be enuf??? i doubted!!! So i've decided to save more for that trip..... Hope i can hv the cheapest n betta quality gds.... hahaha!! Sae that i'm cheap!!! Blah blah!!!Hahaha!!! Going foe medical checkup tml.. i kip dragging.. I shld be going out wif chin shyan, xiao wen, goldi and hui chun to play badminton today... But... i overslept and missed my medical appt.... Oops!! shall wake up early for it tml.... GO Ting!!! Sae i'm a pig.. Pls!!! And something to praise god, after i took over gaius, everyone seemed to co-operate wif me.. Like davin; he used to tell me his forecast on thurs.. But this week, he msg me n tell me on mon. And called me jus now to chit- chat wif me... WoW!!! he's experiencing gd reports this week oh!! His proj is doin fine.. And after attending bs on Ministry, he sounds more eager to serve god... He's willing to give up some time to serve god.. Go boy!! u can do it.. U can excel in all the areas.. Kip it up!!! Angelin??? Go gal!! U can do it... Dun be afraid when the papers are tough, rmb we serve an extraordinary god and so u wil make it.. So jia you!!! And kip me updated of my results ok???When u face difficulties, rmb god's always wif me. He may not come to rescue us immediately but acc to his timing, he'll come n bless us!! Though u hv told me u r struggling betw cg n ministry, i believe u can do it... I'm struggling too.. But i always believe that i can do it when i hamdle my own timing... Though it's tough, i believe as u serve n dwell in his presence, HE will lend u his hand.. Jin han?? Do rmb to study!!! ok?? Be a gd testimony.. I'll def help u bgut make sure u help urself... Hui yi??? Kip ur attitude up... i apprecaite u alot.. despite of the band practices, u nv fail to kip ur words... Jia you!!! Joo Hie n jia rong??? Though i noe u guys r busy. i prayed that u guys will overcome n cope in life... The rest??? i will continue in my next blog...

2007-06-25T12:03:00.000-07:00

haven been blogging for a few days.. Wow!! there're a lot of tings happening last weekend.. 1. My mummy brought me a Cross necklace which costs 400 dollars plus plus... The most surprising thing is not abt the cost but is abt my mummy's mentality. She's willing to buy a cross necklace for me?? She's a taoist and she rejected me when i jus told her i wld like a cross necklace cos the previous one is too rusty. Within a few months, she changed her mindset and brought me one. I was informed when i get back fro grp 2 usher outing. Oh ya!!! My "team" won the overall champion for games. Initially, my team is dispensed cos there're 3 ppl. Then we went to join jen's team. Though we r one of the last to start our 1st game station but we succeed.... hahah!! yea!! but i think a lot of ppl are scared abt my "auntie" character. i kip bargaining wif the uncles... ahhaha!! Oh no!! i spoil my image.... i doubt no one saw this side of me!!!3. on sat nite, gaius made an announcement. He's going to leave the team. He's going over to tEam 1B. i'm kinda sad abt this. He has been my mentor since i'm in jc2. But after being my team leader for 1 yr 6 mths, we r departed. Now, i'll be helping my team and handling his job.. Jus hope that i can do a great job as well... TOUCHING EVERYONE"S LIFE IS WAT I DESIRED!!!! CAN U GUYS HELP ME???? 4. reconcile wif my daddy... i dun even wan to bother abt my brother.. always the one spoiling the mood of everyone.. irritiating can??? Then my daddy mentioned that he's giving me a hundred dollars for me to spend.. praise God!! i can go out n enjoy myself le... hahaha!!!5. i received another tuition assignment. My ex-student told me he wan another chemistry tutor... Wow!! i can earn commission again... Praise god!!!

2007-06-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

hv a small fight wif kor n daddy on tues nite.. i had not been talking to any of them till today... hai!!! is all abt driving... is my"dear" brother started all over again.. isn't he sick n tired of starting off a fight?? he's always the one causing the fight n quarrel til i'm tired... i said already; not becos of my daddy, i wun be learning driving. Y isn't daddy appre this?? instead he n my brother started pin-pointing at how "lan" i'm in driving. In the first place, is the uncle's pro- asking me to learn when i jus woke up; of course i'll feel restless. Then.... in the veri veri first place, i'm not interested in driving.. I'm forced to learn..... Dotz!!! hate this situation now...
today is rather a peaceful day. i din do much.. i jus watched my fav drama then wrote some encourgement "card" to my team mbrs... hahaha!!!!

2007-06-19T04:07:00.000-07:00

Jen and me!! Idling at Orchard!!!

2007-06-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

Mon- Was slping on my comfortable bed but my mummy was so funny; she woke me up cos my brother left something at the Swedens yesterday. Hahaha!! but i was so tired that i went back to slp after talking to her. Afternoon- i had one tuition at home. Was a lttle frustrated wif my student. He got all qn wrong despite of hrs of explaining. It's jus measuration. Nothing really difficult wat!!! After tuition, i rushed out to meet jen ( my aiai) for dinner n to chill. We went far east and share 2 chicken sticks ( the onli difference is that mine has capsium) , shi ling's XXL crispy chicken. After all these, we went to mango lingo ; brought one mango smoothie and double scoops of ice- cream; begium chocolate and coffee. wow!! Nice!! love the dinner!! but it's so sinnful.. then, we went shop shop ard . As we are walking towards ngee ann city, we sat down at a small deserted, unnoticeable place and start singing song. I did record one. ( hopefully i can upload here ltr) We then went to spinelli. We brought 2 choco chips cookies. and i brought a lemon-mint tea.. despite of that lemon mint tea, my mouth still has capsium smell... hhahahaha!!! After we departed fro each other, sandy called n chatted wif me.. We chatted till i reached home.. hahaha!! Thanx sandy or i wil feel scared going home that late.
Tues- at ard 1030, the driving instructor called n told me i had lesson at 1130. Wat!! so urgent!!! i hat it!! always called me so suddenly. caught me unprepared. i din bath, jus eat nmy breeakfast, change my clothes and went to learn. Wat a bad day!! i did stepped on brake, in the end, he kip insisting i din. Then kip scolding. So frustrated. He kip saying i dun hv energy. Of course la!!! u caught me unprepared !! i'm already pissed off... Then throughout the whole driving lesson, he kip making a lot of noise.. Noise pollution!! This is my first tinme getting horned by other that often.. SHUT UP UNCLE!!!! Another thing- driving ard a bend, max is 3rd gear. Then in the end, he asked me to change to 4th gear during the bend. NOnsence!!! i think he muz hv failed his theory... Wateva!!!!

2007-06-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

fri- terrible day!!! i went to the doc in the morning cos of my skin complexion. Then in the end, the doc told me a lot of scary stuff n asked me not to get pregnant for these 6 months cos of the medication. Hahah!! funny.. pregnant?? i can give u years la.. funny.. then told me abt anemia?? the disadvantages?? i noe it... She sounded as if everyone in spore has anemia. funny lady!!! This really spoil my day. initially when i told lorraine at the hawker abt wat the doc said , i'm stil alrite. But during cg meeting, i burst out into tears while thanking my mama for being beside me. Btw, thanx mama!!! i love u!! Sat- i shld be meeting jin han at 12 to supervise him. then in the end, i woke up at 10. Wow!! it's a bit bit late.. haha!! i'm late!!! 2 hrs wun get me to expo. by his grace, i manage to get there at ard 1215. Then i went ard to find jin han til 1230. Finally i found him!!! Forgetting the time, we r late for briefing. Then gaius told me i'm doing stage n serving pastor. i'm shocked!! oh no!!! i'm not mentally prepared!! but nvm!! i'll be alrite!! then, i was told by gaius that i'm too slow. Pastor derek even waved the offering envelope be4 i went up. Jeff told me that i'm quite lost when i was serving the musician. YEs!!! i'm!! but i wil bear in mind de.. Thanx... Sun- i woke up at 730 to attend svc... the hall is extremely cold.. i was shivering like crazy.. then kath asked m,e to eat sweets.. hahah!! no use leh!! then i kip grabbing her hands. i think yen hao saw n took out his jacket n lend me.. Thanx... then during end of worship, i sensed someone trying to grab my hands. the i opened my eyes n saw juliet. she's terying to give me warm. Aren't they cold?? Thanx juliet!! Hugs!! after svc, went to cel father's day. Be4 that, we went to chan brothers n booked our air tickets n hotels in hong kong. We then went Swedens for dinners. i think i ate the most- fries+ pasta+ banana boat ice- cream.. oh no!! dieting!!

2007-06-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

Wow!! wat's a driving lesson!! The uncle huh!! veri funny lei.. kip talking to me , how can i concentrate driving?? Then in the end, i kip on stalling my engine.. Ai yo!!! But it;s fun.. i kip on laughing at the new learners in front of me!! Hahhaa!! Then uncle foo is like... dotz.. dun think u r tat gd.. Hahaha!!! when i look at them, it reminds me of my past driving lessons... My whole legs r trembling like crazy and always drive dangerously.Hahaha!!! Timid me!! But i really prefer to sit behind!! i wish my spouse can drive.. i simply hate driving. If not becos of convenience and the persuauion of daddy, i dun even wan to learn.... If i start something i wil do it to teh end.. Din worry!! Who wan me to drive u back home?? Pls book me in advance hahah!!!

2007-06-11T07:00:00.000-07:00

eat, slp, eat, slp!! after emerge conference, i had been sick n fell into the demonic state of eating n slping. Oh no!! i think i'm getting fatter. Yesterday, i cant get into slp. then a duel song came to my mind; Xuan Zhe. This song reminds me of jonathan. This is the song he used to sing to me when we r together. This song brought me to the past i had wif him. There're a lot of first time with him like the first nite in east coast beach, the first kiss, the first proposal fro him.... i rmb the proposal dearly; the venue was at a void deck. He jus knelt down n asked if i wld like to marry him in 7 yrs time when we r both financially stable. Then i told him" dear if we break up nxt time, can u pls promise me that u wil patch back after a few weeks" Now, i realised i'm so naive. The first break-up is a few days. The second one is a few weeks. The third one is forever!! But i nv regret knowing jon. Is he brought me to City Harvest. Is he told me nv give up on this church. Is he plant "this seed" into a fruitful church where i'm in now. Is he who teach me how to love god n love my own life. Thanx!! All the best to u n tricia. I hope u wil come back to church one day with tricia. Let her be part of this big family n know abt god. This is jus a sudden thoughts... it wil get away soon..
i had been talking to my team mbrs these 2 days. Hope wat i sae they wil appreciate. Usher ministry is not jus a ministry. Is a step to draw near to God. I rmb recently when i'm sick, i asked god if it's ok that i dun go cos i'm sick. Then God told me the more i dun wan to go i more i shld go. Though ministry is tough n diff to cope, i love to serve. Always thru serving, i communicate wif God. He wil encourage me when i'm down. Thanx daddy god!!

-- suprises!!---

2007-06-05T07:43:00.000-07:00

Oh no!! i forgot to sae abt a bunch of frenz who came last nite to cele my birthday wif me... They really gave me a lot of suprises!! First, wan jun knocked my door alone. i tot the other will follow her but no one except her. Then, after 4 min or so, ying ying knocked my door. Hmmm.. so weird.. y they din come together. Then, the "bowl" is laughing so happily... i felt weird but i din really think that much. 3 min ltr, amy came knocking on my door, she came wif a present on her hands. Hmmm... weird!!! after 3 in, someone knocked at m,y door again. But i dun c anyone. When i'm abt to close the door, chin shyan jumped out and everone starts singing happy birthday song. Oh no!! suprised!! But i'm veri happy to c my buddies during my upper sec life. Thanx gals... i love u guys lotz... But i'm sorry.. i cant kip u guys acc cos i felt so weak. sorry gals... but i love ur presence... Lei bing birthday is coming.. i wil def make time for her birthday.. Cya!! the nxt time i wil be fine n can enegage actively wif u guys...

- emerge conference 2007-

2007-06-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

Wow!! 4 days of emerge conference is finally over!! But i missed it dearly though it's veri tiring. On the first day, i was being laid hands n prayed by Pastor Kong. Wow!! it's anointing!! i fell dwn like never be4. Though my shirt is being pulled to above my waist, i felt so weak that i dun even bother abt it. i wan to continue to be filled by god's presence but there's someone kicking me. Thanx to the person huh!! haha!! jus kidding. After that, i felt weak n guilty. When i was being payed for, i saw this word "persistence". To persist??? i think HE wan me to manifest on this word. Yes!! i will. Moreover, i saw Tank in our conference. His eye bag is heavier than mine. Oh no!! take care tank!! Fei er, vivi ( Liu Geng Hong's fiance) are there too... Wow!! Second day, i woke up super early at 530am to report for usher. i was doing the whole Charlie zone. Though it sounds challenging, i think i did a better job. But there're more things to improve. At the nit svc, we have darren n diya, the champions for Proj superstars. But i din get to see them on stage cos i'm outside doing busing. But their voices rox... No no!! Pastor kong rox more. Thru his msg, i realised i need to study well so that i can penetrate thru the marketplace and impact the lives of the society. Yea!!! sat is my 19th birthday!! i was Alex yu's runner. But i did 2 wrong things. i failed to recognise the no. of ppl n the no. of rows on the hall. Oh man!! i screwed it up... i cried like crazy that day. i was veri upset n guilty. Then the word "persistence" came tom my mind. Yes!! i wil def persist on no matter wat cos ultimately, i'm serving god. After svc, my cg cele my birthday wif me n my tears. They bought me a sea-shell necklace which i longed for . Thanx ppl. Then my usher frenz cele wif me. i tot they had forgotten but in the end, they din. They bought me a cake. My aiai gave me a necklace n a toy- rose. Thanx aiai!!! Sun- when i woke up, i found out that i was sick. I'm down wif sore throat n slight fever. But afte the memorable finale of the conference, i was ruinning high fever. Flu oso attack me, as well as cough. Hai....

--- a letter to wee qi---

2007-06-01T10:18:00.000-07:00

oh ya!! i wan to sae sorry to a person who is wee qi. Sorry!! i dun mean to be so mean to u!! I'm jus.... i jus wan to be independent. i wan to get up on my own. Sorry!! if i hurt u!! i think u muz be angry wif my attitude!! Sorry!! Qi, i think of u again.. is like so coincidence u catch me when i fell in the power of God.. But i noe is impossible.. Go qi!! hope we can be frenz again..

happy!!

2007-06-01T09:59:00.001-07:00

today is my 19th birthday!! Wow!! is during emerge la!! tHe same day as Sun. Wat's a honour!! Go SUn, all the best for ur albums and the efforts in penetrating thru the maurketplace. Plus, yesterday, i've been laid hands on by pastor kong. I fell when his hands r laid on my head. I felt a sudden heat in my throat and weak momentarily. My heart starts aching when i got up. I realised i'm the future leaders in this church n this generation. I muz make a diff. How?? So far, i'm still praying n trying to flow wif the spirit. The first idea which came to my mind is pray longer each n every day no matter wat ( a breakthru in my prayer life). The first word is " persistence". Wow!! i'm stil manifesting on wat the spirit is speaking to me. God!! touch me more!! i need u!! i need to refresh each n every day; keep the fire burning inside me n nv die off!! Prais ethe Lord!!

2007-05-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

With Jen and Kat!!

Sun is BACK!!

2007-05-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

Sun is back!!

= )

2007-05-29T07:24:00.000-07:00

hahaha... i finally changed my blogskin. It took me like 2 hrs plus to complete. Oops!! too slow?? How to study Biz It in SMU?? haha!! Nvm.. i will def catch up wif the rest... Btw, i'm going to read up on some IT stuff when Emerge is Over. Today?? i think is quite a boring day for me. Wat i did was slp, watch tv and go online. But be4 i did all these, i went for my 4th driving lessons. Wow!! it's exciting can?? My instructor asked me to go up n down slope. I was so nervous that my engine kip on stalling. Oh no!! When i looked at my instructor's face, he was like ..... Oh no!! i dun mean to scare n disappoint him. But i cant help it!!! my whole leg was trembling "vigorously", my hands were super numb, my brain and ear were like frozen to death momentarily. Oops!! I almost cried when i was driving; think i'm too stressed up!! At abt 4 plus, the "air- con uncles" came to "rescue "my air-con. Now, i'm enjoying my air con. Hahaha!! Another thing to rejoice is my daddy is sponsoring half of my Hk trip. ( that was my birthday gift) Hmm.. haha!!! wat a blessed 19th birthday!!!

-- ting---

2007-05-28T09:02:00.000-07:00

yea!!

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2007-05-27T09:47:00.000-07:00

tired!!
These few days r so busy till i got tired... Mon- Driving lesson at 430pm then give tuition. Tues- Go n make my passport, unfortunately, there're too many ppl til i went bugis wif sandy. ( i lost my passport photo = ( ) Wed- Went to comfort driving to renew my acct then went to ICA building again to make my passport then went marina square wif zhen for a 1 hr plus plus hair cut then went back to bra besah to purchase a bk for my student then go bak to city hall to meet cell grp for fellowship. Thurs- Driving at 1200pm then went shopping wif mummy at bugis. Fri- went bugis wif jac ah yi. Sat- went to usher suppt then bs then svc then foodfair then joan's hse. Until 12am then i reached home. Sun- went cg at bro's hse then went for global day of prayer. Wow! super tired la.. 12 hrs of slp oso not enuf... So tired..But i think it's meaningful. Sometimes, i may think i'm not ready to accept a higher position in usher cos there're too amny thingd for me to learn. The standards are yet to be reached. Haiz.. i need some time.. i wld like to be more rational such that everything i wil noe how to handle . But..... maybe i'm a perfectionst, tat's y??? Nvm... i'm stil striving.. Like wat alvin told me ushering is not abt filling seats but to touch ppl's life so if i cant filled up every seats in my zone, i dun need to be that upset. But i wan the spirit of excellence.. yea!! striving!!!