haven been blogging for a few days.. Wow!! there're a lot of tings happening last weekend.. 1. My mummy brought me a Cross necklace which costs 400 dollars plus plus... The most surprising thing is not abt the cost but is abt my mummy's mentality. She's willing to buy a cross necklace for me?? She's a taoist and she rejected me when i jus told her i wld like a cross necklace cos the previous one is too rusty. Within a few months, she changed her mindset and brought me one. I was informed when i get back fro grp 2 usher outing. Oh ya!!! My "team" won the overall champion for games. Initially, my team is dispensed cos there're 3 ppl. Then we went to join jen's team. Though we r one of the last to start our 1st game station but we succeed.... hahah!! yea!! but i think a lot of ppl are scared abt my "auntie" character. i kip bargaining wif the uncles... ahhaha!! Oh no!! i spoil my image.... i doubt no one saw this side of me!!!3. on sat nite, gaius made an announcement. He's going to leave the team. He's going over to tEam 1B. i'm kinda sad abt this. He has been my mentor since i'm in jc2. But after being my team leader for 1 yr 6 mths, we r departed. Now, i'll be helping my team and handling his job.. Jus hope that i can do a great job as well... TOUCHING EVERYONE"S LIFE IS WAT I DESIRED!!!! CAN U GUYS HELP ME???? 4. reconcile wif my daddy... i dun even wan to bother abt my brother.. always the one spoiling the mood of everyone.. irritiating can??? Then my daddy mentioned that he's giving me a hundred dollars for me to spend.. praise God!! i can go out n enjoy myself le... hahaha!!!5. i received another tuition assignment. My ex-student told me he wan another chemistry tutor... Wow!! i can earn commission again... Praise god!!!

hv a small fight wif kor n daddy on tues nite.. i had not been talking to any of them till today... hai!!! is all abt driving... is my"dear" brother started all over again.. isn't he sick n tired of starting off a fight?? he's always the one causing the fight n quarrel til i'm tired... i said already; not becos of my daddy, i wun be learning driving. Y isn't daddy appre this?? instead he n my brother started pin-pointing at how "lan" i'm in driving. In the first place, is the uncle's pro- asking me to learn when i jus woke up; of course i'll feel restless. Then.... in the veri veri first place, i'm not interested in driving.. I'm forced to learn..... Dotz!!! hate this situation now...
today is rather a peaceful day. i din do much.. i jus watched my fav drama then wrote some encourgement "card" to my team mbrs... hahaha!!!!

Mon- Was slping on my comfortable bed but my mummy was so funny; she woke me up cos my brother left something at the Swedens yesterday. Hahaha!! but i was so tired that i went back to slp after talking to her. Afternoon- i had one tuition at home. Was a lttle frustrated wif my student. He got all qn wrong despite of hrs of explaining. It's jus measuration. Nothing really difficult wat!!! After tuition, i rushed out to meet jen ( my aiai) for dinner n to chill. We went far east and share 2 chicken sticks ( the onli difference is that mine has capsium) , shi ling's XXL crispy chicken. After all these, we went to mango lingo ; brought one mango smoothie and double scoops of ice- cream; begium chocolate and coffee. wow!! Nice!! love the dinner!! but it's so sinnful.. then, we went shop shop ard . As we are walking towards ngee ann city, we sat down at a small deserted, unnoticeable place and start singing song. I did record one. ( hopefully i can upload here ltr) We then went to spinelli. We brought 2 choco chips cookies. and i brought a lemon-mint tea.. despite of that lemon mint tea, my mouth still has capsium smell... hhahahaha!!! After we departed fro each other, sandy called n chatted wif me.. We chatted till i reached home.. hahaha!! Thanx sandy or i wil feel scared going home that late.
Tues- at ard 1030, the driving instructor called n told me i had lesson at 1130. Wat!! so urgent!!! i hat it!! always called me so suddenly. caught me unprepared. i din bath, jus eat nmy breeakfast, change my clothes and went to learn. Wat a bad day!! i did stepped on brake, in the end, he kip insisting i din. Then kip scolding. So frustrated. He kip saying i dun hv energy. Of course la!!! u caught me unprepared !! i'm already pissed off... Then throughout the whole driving lesson, he kip making a lot of noise.. Noise pollution!! This is my first tinme getting horned by other that often.. SHUT UP UNCLE!!!! Another thing- driving ard a bend, max is 3rd gear. Then in the end, he asked me to change to 4th gear during the bend. NOnsence!!! i think he muz hv failed his theory... Wateva!!!!

fri- terrible day!!! i went to the doc in the morning cos of my skin complexion. Then in the end, the doc told me a lot of scary stuff n asked me not to get pregnant for these 6 months cos of the medication. Hahah!! funny.. pregnant?? i can give u years la.. funny.. then told me abt anemia?? the disadvantages?? i noe it... She sounded as if everyone in spore has anemia. funny lady!!! This really spoil my day. initially when i told lorraine at the hawker abt wat the doc said , i'm stil alrite. But during cg meeting, i burst out into tears while thanking my mama for being beside me. Btw, thanx mama!!! i love u!! Sat- i shld be meeting jin han at 12 to supervise him. then in the end, i woke up at 10. Wow!! it's a bit bit late.. haha!! i'm late!!! 2 hrs wun get me to expo. by his grace, i manage to get there at ard 1215. Then i went ard to find jin han til 1230. Finally i found him!!! Forgetting the time, we r late for briefing. Then gaius told me i'm doing stage n serving pastor. i'm shocked!! oh no!!! i'm not mentally prepared!! but nvm!! i'll be alrite!! then, i was told by gaius that i'm too slow. Pastor derek even waved the offering envelope be4 i went up. Jeff told me that i'm quite lost when i was serving the musician. YEs!!! i'm!! but i wil bear in mind de.. Thanx... Sun- i woke up at 730 to attend svc... the hall is extremely cold.. i was shivering like crazy.. then kath asked m,e to eat sweets.. hahah!! no use leh!! then i kip grabbing her hands. i think yen hao saw n took out his jacket n lend me.. Thanx... then during end of worship, i sensed someone trying to grab my hands. the i opened my eyes n saw juliet. she's terying to give me warm. Aren't they cold?? Thanx juliet!! Hugs!! after svc, went to cel father's day. Be4 that, we went to chan brothers n booked our air tickets n hotels in hong kong. We then went Swedens for dinners. i think i ate the most- fries+ pasta+ banana boat ice- cream.. oh no!! dieting!!

Wow!! wat's a driving lesson!! The uncle huh!! veri funny lei.. kip talking to me , how can i concentrate driving?? Then in the end, i kip on stalling my engine.. Ai yo!!! But it;s fun.. i kip on laughing at the new learners in front of me!! Hahhaa!! Then uncle foo is like... dotz.. dun think u r tat gd.. Hahaha!!! when i look at them, it reminds me of my past driving lessons... My whole legs r trembling like crazy and always drive dangerously.Hahaha!!! Timid me!! But i really prefer to sit behind!! i wish my spouse can drive.. i simply hate driving. If not becos of convenience and the persuauion of daddy, i dun even wan to learn.... If i start something i wil do it to teh end.. Din worry!! Who wan me to drive u back home?? Pls book me in advance hahah!!!

eat, slp, eat, slp!! after emerge conference, i had been sick n fell into the demonic state of eating n slping. Oh no!! i think i'm getting fatter. Yesterday, i cant get into slp. then a duel song came to my mind; Xuan Zhe. This song reminds me of jonathan. This is the song he used to sing to me when we r together. This song brought me to the past i had wif him. There're a lot of first time with him like the first nite in east coast beach, the first kiss, the first proposal fro him.... i rmb the proposal dearly; the venue was at a void deck. He jus knelt down n asked if i wld like to marry him in 7 yrs time when we r both financially stable. Then i told him" dear if we break up nxt time, can u pls promise me that u wil patch back after a few weeks" Now, i realised i'm so naive. The first break-up is a few days. The second one is a few weeks. The third one is forever!! But i nv regret knowing jon. Is he brought me to City Harvest. Is he told me nv give up on this church. Is he plant "this seed" into a fruitful church where i'm in now. Is he who teach me how to love god n love my own life. Thanx!! All the best to u n tricia. I hope u wil come back to church one day with tricia. Let her be part of this big family n know abt god. This is jus a sudden thoughts... it wil get away soon..
i had been talking to my team mbrs these 2 days. Hope wat i sae they wil appreciate. Usher ministry is not jus a ministry. Is a step to draw near to God. I rmb recently when i'm sick, i asked god if it's ok that i dun go cos i'm sick. Then God told me the more i dun wan to go i more i shld go. Though ministry is tough n diff to cope, i love to serve. Always thru serving, i communicate wif God. He wil encourage me when i'm down. Thanx daddy god!!

Oh no!! i forgot to sae abt a bunch of frenz who came last nite to cele my birthday wif me... They really gave me a lot of suprises!! First, wan jun knocked my door alone. i tot the other will follow her but no one except her. Then, after 4 min or so, ying ying knocked my door. Hmmm.. so weird.. y they din come together. Then, the "bowl" is laughing so happily... i felt weird but i din really think that much. 3 min ltr, amy came knocking on my door, she came wif a present on her hands. Hmmm... weird!!! after 3 in, someone knocked at m,y door again. But i dun c anyone. When i'm abt to close the door, chin shyan jumped out and everone starts singing happy birthday song. Oh no!! suprised!! But i'm veri happy to c my buddies during my upper sec life. Thanx gals... i love u guys lotz... But i'm sorry.. i cant kip u guys acc cos i felt so weak. sorry gals... but i love ur presence... Lei bing birthday is coming.. i wil def make time for her birthday.. Cya!! the nxt time i wil be fine n can enegage actively wif u guys...

Wow!! 4 days of emerge conference is finally over!! But i missed it dearly though it's veri tiring. On the first day, i was being laid hands n prayed by Pastor Kong. Wow!! it's anointing!! i fell dwn like never be4. Though my shirt is being pulled to above my waist, i felt so weak that i dun even bother abt it. i wan to continue to be filled by god's presence but there's someone kicking me. Thanx to the person huh!! haha!! jus kidding. After that, i felt weak n guilty. When i was being payed for, i saw this word "persistence". To persist??? i think HE wan me to manifest on this word. Yes!! i will. Moreover, i saw Tank in our conference. His eye bag is heavier than mine. Oh no!! take care tank!! Fei er, vivi ( Liu Geng Hong's fiance) are there too... Wow!! Second day, i woke up super early at 530am to report for usher. i was doing the whole Charlie zone. Though it sounds challenging, i think i did a better job. But there're more things to improve. At the nit svc, we have darren n diya, the champions for Proj superstars. But i din get to see them on stage cos i'm outside doing busing. But their voices rox... No no!! Pastor kong rox more. Thru his msg, i realised i need to study well so that i can penetrate thru the marketplace and impact the lives of the society. Yea!!! sat is my 19th birthday!! i was Alex yu's runner. But i did 2 wrong things. i failed to recognise the no. of ppl n the no. of rows on the hall. Oh man!! i screwed it up... i cried like crazy that day. i was veri upset n guilty. Then the word "persistence" came tom my mind. Yes!! i wil def persist on no matter wat cos ultimately, i'm serving god. After svc, my cg cele my birthday wif me n my tears. They bought me a sea-shell necklace which i longed for . Thanx ppl. Then my usher frenz cele wif me. i tot they had forgotten but in the end, they din. They bought me a cake. My aiai gave me a necklace n a toy- rose. Thanx aiai!!! Sun- when i woke up, i found out that i was sick. I'm down wif sore throat n slight fever. But afte the memorable finale of the conference, i was ruinning high fever. Flu oso attack me, as well as cough. Hai....

oh ya!! i wan to sae sorry to a person who is wee qi. Sorry!! i dun mean to be so mean to u!! I'm jus.... i jus wan to be independent. i wan to get up on my own. Sorry!! if i hurt u!! i think u muz be angry wif my attitude!! Sorry!! Qi, i think of u again.. is like so coincidence u catch me when i fell in the power of God.. But i noe is impossible.. Go qi!! hope we can be frenz again..

today is my 19th birthday!! Wow!! is during emerge la!! tHe same day as Sun. Wat's a honour!! Go SUn, all the best for ur albums and the efforts in penetrating thru the maurketplace. Plus, yesterday, i've been laid hands on by pastor kong. I fell when his hands r laid on my head. I felt a sudden heat in my throat and weak momentarily. My heart starts aching when i got up. I realised i'm the future leaders in this church n this generation. I muz make a diff. How?? So far, i'm still praying n trying to flow wif the spirit. The first idea which came to my mind is pray longer each n every day no matter wat ( a breakthru in my prayer life). The first word is " persistence". Wow!! i'm stil manifesting on wat the spirit is speaking to me. God!! touch me more!! i need u!! i need to refresh each n every day; keep the fire burning inside me n nv die off!! Prais ethe Lord!!