exam!!!!!!
I'm tired!!!!!
many many slpless nite!!! haiz!!!
seriously, i dun think i can do well for the papers..
rather demonlishing!
oh man!!!!

1 more paper to go!!!

i'm back!!!!

Expectations
todayi went for AS consultation with Lilin.. oh man!!! a lot of careless mistake or i can get full marks... haha!! kinda greedy rite?? but hor... i think it's rather simple so yep yep... haha!!! we told the prof that we r aiming for A for AS but he laughed and told me it's rather difficult leh!!! he continued to stress that we should nt stressed ourselves too much in AS; jus enjoy when understanding. yep yep.... though he laughed, he stil encourage us to strive for an A... i really wan an A for As since it's one of my best subj this term and i kinda like AS; like the concept behind it... haha!! crazy?? it's wat i really wan and like ya???

As for BGS, i'm kinda worrie cos there's alot of reading and qn to go thru.. till now, i'm onli 75% to completion.. going to chiong after i finish blogging.. yuppie!!! i aim an A- for BGS as a small voice in me kip prompting to me!!! like wat cheng jun sae during CG; if god reveal it to u, be bold n accept, share and pray it out. Dun be afraid as it comes fro the faithful god... yep yep.. agreed!!!! so to him, i praise.. to him, i believe!!! i love u, Lord!!! feel so secure with him.. feel the peace in me now...

As for IS200, i really wan to tx david, my "kor kor". He's so patient while teaching me today!! so many doubts on theterm, but he nv fail to ans everything... he told me that if i stil dun noe, i can call him or find him in sch so that he can continue to teach me!!! yep yep!! tx tx!!! As IS200 is rather theory based and abt memorizing work, i think i can score rather well ba!!! "ba"- sound so not confident and unconvincing!!! haha!!!

As for IS101, i complete all my debate, case facilitationa and two individual proj le.. complete the whole module... waiting for myprof to release the result to us... ai yo!!! kinda worried!! cos my debate and case facilitation get a B, individual proj get a A- , class participation- ??? but i really tok abt after the first release of CP, class attendance- confirmed all marks cos i'm so excited to c my cute prof!!!!

changes
kinda worried how can i call my new team nxt week???? having exam yet i hv to call each n every single one of them to chat with them; understand them... ai yo!!! like cg style rite?? haha!! cos i grab fro my cgl.. wateva methods she used in cg, i wil use it in usher ministry.. no matter, she sae i shld be in cg ministry instead!!! haven really pray abt my calling yet!!! wil do it soon!!! stop procastinating ya??? haha!!!

All the best to me!!!
Greater is he who is in me than he's in the world!!!

Mug mug and mug....

haiz... sad life; my life is all abt mugging and bks...
feel afraid when i c the 3 bks.... esp bgs...
haha cos............. it's the thickest...
As and IS200 text is rather thin but lor .. more difficult to understand..

went out to study with anthea today!!!!
like her company...
she jus sat there quietly while i'm thinking and studying hard!!!
but when i first stepped into coffee bean, i'm like......... wat!!! crowded with students studying...
gd place!!! this is where motivation comes fro...
Tx anthea!!!!
love u lotz!!! my little cutie!!! my little cgm!!!!

BB.. back to my Is200 text and AS...
Ltr stil hv BGS text..
slpless nite again!!!!

oOoooh mannnnnn!!!!
my end yr exam is coming!!!!! in ard onme week!!!
started mugging le la.....
haiiiiizzz!!! i wil do it well..
pst sae if i can see my results, i can hv it..
yep yep!!! i can see u my "A" so i can get it...

Changes
there are a lot of changes in life..
as the church is moving to a whole new level, changes are inevitable; changes in the ministry, cg and etc..
for me, i hate changes since young.. i hate separation too... i hate the feeling of loneliness and emptiness... BUT........... still... i muz be able to handle them...
This period of time is really challenging.. besides handling the stress of my exam, i stil need to handle my emotion.... like wat bro told me once; a church staff whom he noe id veri emotional bvut then she noe how to handle n control her emotion.. now, she's a successful woman...
stepping out of my comfort zone is a dff task for me.. but then..... i stil believe everything happen for a certain reason... during this period of time, if u think that i'm not doing well, pls encpurage me... is not abt appealing to pity; is really difficult but manageable...

Last duty and "supper"
yesterday was my last duty with all the peeps in grp 2. During the whole duty, i din think much; i jus focus on wateva thing i had to do... i dun wan to tear again!!! again.. i wil miss my team esp those leaving for JW; angelin, jeremy and li hui.. the rest too; cheryl, hui yi, davin, justin , my xiao han han (jin han), joo hie. think i mentioned everyone le ba... except the new usher; felicia.. din really talk to her be4.. so.. ya!!! i really app this team.. this team is wif me for ard 6 mths and it's my first team!!! miss u guys lotz.... i wan to tx my SL, hui erl.. though sometimes, i din do my duty well and jus expected, you stil give me opportunity and guide me along... u r my 2nd SL but feel like i had learned a lot of things fro u.. u r the one who nv give up on me!!! who give me chances to learn!! she is the one who kip promoting me!!!tx lao da!!! wil miss u lotz too.. and of course my supper gang; jen, bao, fen, jeff, matt, alex yiu, jeremy, joyce, su shan, jean, yong quan, alvin, wan yun, melvin, gaius, jia yi, wan xiyu, zhi xiu..... esp to my ai; tx for all these while.. tx for ur guidance and be my listening ear wheneva i'm down... nv fail to cheer me up when i'm down.. tx for this friendship... fro my helper to my frenz to my betta frenz and to my ai ai... and to bao... u tooo... tx for this frienship u hv built... i really app u guys a loot...
Shock
was at bro's make up cg jus now...
during his preaching, he suddenly mention abt my calling..
" like ting ting, god asked here to go to cg ministry n be a cgl but she jus choose to miss this opportunity and be a team ic in usher!!!"
oh man!!! that's shocked me!!!
huh!!! me??? CGL???? i nv tot of it..
tat make me rmb abt wat my frenz told me..
"u r stil in usher ministry?? i tot u r in cg ministry le"
huh????
"u hv the look la"
CGL stil hv look de huh???
oh man!!!
i shared wif my cgl, lorraine jus now..
she told me" i told u ur calling is in cg not usher le, but since u insist then go ahead lor!!!"
is my calling in cg?? no!! i prayed one yr ago, god reveal to me is usher ministry..
"u go n pray abt it ba!!!"
ya..
i shall go n pray abt it!!!
but then, i stil think taht my calling is usher ministry..
i really enjoy smiling and touching the heart of the congregation..
as for cg wise is abt touching the heart of my cgm...
is not wat i want!!!
shock!!!!

SAT SVC DUTY
tml wil be the last svc duty with my entire team and section be4 some of them leave for JW svc.
oh man!! a lot of memories flow across my mind! though there are times where i'm veri frustrated over them but they are stil people whom i really care and love a lot.. all the best guys.. U may not be under me in the future but rmb it's not abt me who motivates u; is god ya???Btw, i'm doing stage tml!! oh man!!! STAGE!!! a spirit of fear!! hopefully, god wil work things out for me!!!

IS101
today is our last lesson. i miss my Prof jason!!!! be4 class starts, i'm so excited over him that i told him" prof, u r mine!!!" then, he replied" when? now? or ltr?" haha!! funny..
after lesson, i went to take a photot with him.. oh man!!! he put his hands over my shoulders... haha!!! i was being urged by my classmates to hug him.. but................ i din la.. so embarrassing!!!!

Project and exam
projects have jus ended.. now is exam period!!!!! trying my best!!!

God
have not been praying much this entirw week. always fall slp when studying.. oh man!!! shld be tired!!!! nvm.,.. it's a decision after all..

GOD KNOWS

When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts...God knows how hard you have tried.

When you have cried so long and your heart is in anguish...God has counted your tears.

If you feel that your life is on hold and time has passed you by...God is waiting for you.

When you are lonely and friends are too busy for a phone call...God is by your side.

When you think you've tried everything and don't know where to turn...God has the solution.

When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated...God has the answer.

If suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find traces of hope...God has whispered to you.

When things are going well and you have much to be thankful for...God has blessed you.

When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe...God has smiled upon you.

When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow...God has opened your eyes and called you by name.

Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are feeling...God knows.

blogging in the midst of my essay writing...
haha!!! slacker me!!!

Blessings
1. my IS200 proj is due soon but i'm stil veri lost but....... my prof has promised to help me.. i wan to thanx her that she always there for me, helping me, guiding me thru html n java... tx prof!!!

2. my daddy's business revive... yea!!! more allowance more allowance!!!! i wan more!!! i wan to change the dressinbg style!!!! haha!! tx god for that!! 2 weeks be4 BF, his business faces more problems; 2 companies terminate contract with him. i"m so afraid n cried oout to HIM for help.. wow!! after i pledged, the blessing begins to flow in.. wowo!!!

3. tx god for a grp of buddies; David, Doris, Joseph, Gek Theng, Fideliis, Joel and jia qing.
enjoy myself with their company... frenz taht share and work together.. yea!!!! btw, i'm rather unhappy witrh the "sunshine".. think he's weird!!!! sae things that always assume n hurts.. esp fri when david is helping me with my coding.. oh man!!!!

4. tx god for gd family relationship.. recently, i found myself laying in the bed of my parents veri frequently. squeezing in btw them n ask ummy to pat pat me be4 i slp.. haha!! a small kid!!! haha!! but i enjoy. obviously, no one will do this at this age but haha.. i enjoy it...

Challenges
1. Rather disappointing over sat communion duty. we r not informed abt the change in svc sequence; everyone is like huh!! wat!! communion now!!!! oh no!!! everyone jus chiong out... i'm serving stage yesterday.. i was so shocked that i trembled while passing pst derek the element. i din really help him to peel off his element.. oh man!!! 2 msiatkes!!! when i was collecting back the elemnt n small metal plate, it's no longer on the cupit.. so frightened!! but i act calm n walk to the side.. oh man!!! in the nd, we found out pst derek took down on his own..

2. exam is comng.. but there's stil so many proj n assignments!!! oh man!!!! no time to study for them.. no wonder yi han ask me to do constant revision; not wait till the last min!!!

3. Angelin is leaving soon.. with jeremy n li hui. haiz!! my main helper is leaving.. stressed up!!!! i'm stil planning things out....

Lorraine n daryl









Wen kai and Xiao Wei

Yoong tian n his gf

Kun and Mong!!!

The couples!!!

The touching proposal!!!






i think most of the gals there cried!!






including me!!! haha!











Proposal starts














Present flowers first










Present ring

Lorraine haven agree but daryl helped himself wif the ring. haha!!

lorraine... the moment when u duin sae anything, i'm really worried!!!

but tx god!!! u accept it!!

As i was in the cab with karen, she told me that the reason y u took so long to consider might be due to cg. You had jus settle down in this cg but now..... a long time commitment. Yoy may not be confident handling this new chapter of life with Cg.. but rest assure, every of us will try ourselves to do the best for one another.. dun worry!!!! You r once my helper, now my leader n always my leader!!! Go lorraine !!! we wil be more obedient n share the visons n dreams together with our leaders... enjoy!!! n happy birthday!!!