A day has passed....

Wow!! Today is a fruitful day!!!
i did quite a lot of assignment in sch today!!!
haha!!!
but some are yet to be completed.
Things to be completed today: AS assignment, CT essay planning and IS 101 prestation slides
Wow!!!!
tat much.. but shld be able to complete it...
yea!!! go ting!!!

Got back my grade for AW essay..
be4 i handed in, i felt so afraid cos i dun noe if i go out of pt..
but pRaise the Lord!!!
i got B+ which is among the top in my class n the wjole level...
i heard the mnost is A-...
haha!! yea!!
nv noe i can write!!!
the nxt one!! i muz do it well and end the whole course well....
yea!!!

Went out for lunch with a new gang...
new gand consists of my usual gang (except yun yun), wei jing, eileen, "sunshine", david and joseph...
though me, fide and gek teng are always tigether, i nv noe they r christians..
throughout the lunch, we r talking abt HIM, sharing wif each other our encounter with HIM..
we r so engrossed that"sunshine" who is sitting veri close to us feel inferior..
Sorry!!! we r too engrossed le!!!
Haha!!!" sunshine"

bb..
off to study le..

stil reading the articles!!!
consulation is less than 24 hrs..
can de!!! haha!!!
my last AW class..

Jus receive my time table for nxt term...
Wow!!! full 5.0 mod.. this term i onli hv 4.5 mod but...........
Oh man!!!! but i'm pretty happy with my time tale..
i hv 3 days week onli..
My thurs and fri are off!!!
Off?? serious??? or hv to come back to study or proj meeting??
time management!!!!! plus, next yr, hui erl told us that we hv to help out in juring church till march.. Sat is svc duty or suppt duty in expo, sun is helping out in jurong west svc...
Wow!!! this sounds challenging and exciting...
btw, i'm no longer going back to Jw....
despite that, i'm stil able to experience ythe anointing of god in JW.... Yea!!!
how i wish the whole 7 days in a week, i can be in church!!!!
i dun mind listening to sermins 24-7.. i dun mind dwelling in HIS presence 24-7...
BUT.......
It's impossible...
I'm oso calld to impact the marketplace and reach out to souls....

Oh yea!!! i got back my CT assignment grades...
my grp score the top in class..
we dun expect that cos the votes from the audience is more B than A..
Praise the Lord!!!
haha!!!

Hppy wenting rushing her assignment!!!
Indeed a challenging and esciting life!!!!!!

*Sunshine*
* A life filled with sunshine*
* Darkness comes wif emotion and bad attitudes*

Ai yo!!! din really do much work today!!
kip slping!! think i'm too tired le ba!!!!
but ...... tml hv to hand in my AW mindmap to prof!! the articles are all so long; 24 pages leh!!!!
oh man!!! shld start reading my second article le ba...
hv to work harder tonit ba....
slpless again!!!!

found this song le....
my fav song!!!


DEEPER IN LOVE
Don Moen

There is a longing
Only You can fill
A raging tempest
Only You can still

My soul is thirsty, Lord
To know You as I've known
Drink from the river
That flows before Your throne

Chorus:
Take me deeper
Deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love you more and more
How I longed to be
Deeper in love

Sunrise to sunset
I will seek your face
Drawn by the Spirit
To the promise of Your grace

My heart has found in You
The hope that will abide
Here in Your presence
Forever satisfied

* Jesus u r my super hero, u'r my star, my best frenz *
* onli god can be my motivator in life *
* onli jesus can be my motivator in life *

Dear Lord,
help me to always have a positive attitde,
to study to the best of my abilities,
and always remember that your grace is sufficient to meet every challenge i may face.

Yea!!! annother thing to share!!!
Enoch may be going SOT nxt yr too..
Go leh!!!
Let's go n study HIS WORDS together
Yea!!! to my best buddy!!! or rather u r forced to... haha!!!

haha!! i'm blogging while doing BGS proj!!!
slack??? slacker??? haha!!!
blog for a short one la...
i'm afraid i'll forget ma!!! haha!!!

was chionging IP2 these few days till morning.. have been slping for 3 to 4 hrs per day.. oh man!! it's rather tiring... but i submitted it!!!!

while i was submitting, i was talking to yi han...
i told him wat i've been facing thses few weeks...
seriously, i'm disheartened by wat a special someone sae n do to me...
i almost make a wrong decision but tx god i din.....

here are some of the key pts he sae:

#1 Submit to ur leader
- submission is when u disagree with wat the someone; nit wat u agree with that someone. God has put leaders in our life for a purpose. Even if the leader is led in the wrong direction, jus submit. Our leaders' words are like god's words.

#2 Right Relationship
One shld hv a strong relationship with god not ppl

#3 God's purpose
It is ok to hv something taken away fro u, God wan u to do something in other areas

Hmmmm.. yi han!!! anymore???

Jus rmb this song yeterday when i'm praying;

Take me deeper
deeper in love with U
Jesus hold me close in ur embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than i nv been be4
i jus wan to love u more and more
how i long to be deeper in love!!!!

The worship song that i sang a few yrs ago during cell grp!!
If u hv this song, can let me noe?? n send it to me!!!

i'm so pissed off!!!!!
in the midst of chionging, i received a lot of harrassment from my sch mates!!!!
eeEeee!!!!
God blind their eyes ya???
Those guys muz be super desperate, i guess!!!
u guys betta stop here OR ????? ( i call the police)
haha!!!

went to church today!!!
it's not jus abt routine!!! is the passion that moves me on....
frenz in sch are like... Hmmm.. Is is so stressed le, u stil got time to go to church huh???
Al my non- believer freenz are like this......... always sae the same thing...
get used to it.
today, i was so distracted during worship.. my soul suddenly felt so tired; i was strugling thru that period of time.. i kip telling myself that i can pull thru, i can overcome the spirit of tiredness... at last, i succeed..tears began to flow down when pst kong began to speak to us.. He can sense that many if us there arefeeling tired physically, he then challenged us to build ourselves up... i suddenly sense that God is telling me that he has a purpose putting me in taht situation. He wan to mould me, he wan to refine me, he wan to use me in a mightly manner.... Wow!!! wat he mean??? how he wan to use me?? wat he means by mughtly manner???
Mediating on it!!!! i sense veri AS leh!!! haha!!! yep yep... i sort of like that module...

was so inspired to give n pray when pst king share abt the 12,000 seated stadium and pst cho's church( the largest church in Asia).. i'm so amazed that ppl ther really pray a lot regardless of wat.. even if it's raining, ppl there continue to pray, regardless of work, ppl there continues to pray... Wow!! feel so guilty.. they will pray everyday in church; a session in morning and another one at nite.. Wo!!!! make me guilty.. my prayer tme isn;t comparable to them... Praying is a sacrifice..Prayer brings abt creativity, ideas, power of the holy spirit and etc...... to find out more abt pst cho church... u may click on www.davidcho.com or www.fgtv.com

pst kong shared abt the dimension of our life... today, he emphaiszed in the 4th dimension which is the realm of Faith and Heart...

the 4 keys to build on the 4th dimension:
1. Thinking
Hv God' thoughts
Possibiity thinking

2. Believing
beelieving= making decision/ commitement
Faith n Fear cant co-exist
Matt 7:7

3.Dreaming/Visualizing
if we can c it, we can hv it

4. Speaking/ Confessing

a revelation fro Yi han:

"But I realized that for me, I dunno about the rest, but when tests come, I tend to lock myself in this mental prison. That tells me. No you got a test, you aren't supposed to be doing anything else. You got a test. You got a test.So what! I'm going to do whatever I wanna do. Balanced with studying of course.Pardon my mention of studies so much. Ha. I really am trying to figure everything out. How to put God first. How to give all the worries, stress, frustration to God. It's one thing to say it, it's totally another to live it. What practical actions can I take to give everything to God."

(taken from his blog)

Ya!! i realised that i'm in the same situation as him!!!
i muz break out of my mental prison..

got back my IS 200 proj mgt proj..
hmmm.. i got an A...
wat's the big deal abt A????
will it please GOD???
God rather wan me to spend more time in his presence than leaning on my own strength..
like now, after leaning on my own strength for too long, i got tired.. veri veri tired abt a unfruitful life...
counting on HIm, spending MORE gtime in his presence and words....

this entire week is packed wif proj n proj meeting...
it's 1am le..
but i'm stil rushing my IS 101 proj..
was praying i n tongues while doing research...
WOW!! it works...
i'm almost done with the research...
doing some editing on my report then my part 1 is done..
haha!!! muz la..
or i'll suffer in the weekend...

received the reply fro MOM...
Tx god for tat..
i hv been waiting for weks be4 they reply..
esp when my presentation is this coming tues..
WOW!!!
always at the last min, GOD save me...
haha!! tx daddy!!!
wil do well ya???

BB....

Haiz!!!
stil rushing IP2!!!!
my soul asked me to continue to chiong but....... i'm really tired...... (my flesh needs more rest)
left with the last part... oh man!!! 2.5 pages more!!!
can de.. can de!!!!

one by one.. the frenz ard me left me!!!
they are unable to take the stress, tst's y??? they choose to quit sch...
oh man!!! these are frenz who always suppt me, listen to my troubles, share my joy n woes with me!!
but................... Satan atacks their mind..
I realised that Satan is attacking me terribly..
In sch, frenz quit sch.. in personal life, ppl passed away...
i had heard abt more than 10 fro IS quitted sch...
recently, one by one ppl passed away
i hate to c ppl leave n separate from me!!!
Satan..... u dare.. u come closer to me!! i'm not afraid at all... come!!!
i will attcak U with the 'sword' and power of God..
Watch me!! Watch how U r defeated terribly...
hahaha!!!

haiz..
felt so lousy now!!!
i cant believe that i miss out forecasting "sun prayer meeting"
y like this, ting???
am i too caught up with sch work????
i think shld be!!!
i will always be home after 11.30pm when all my family mbrs ahd fallen asleep...
bgs proj, Is101 proj and AS proj is really driving me mad!!!!!
i dun like this life!!! a life with no life in it!!!
i wan to serve more but my flesh is pulling me back!!!
God!!!! Save me!!! i dun wan such life... i wan to serve with a spirit of excellence...
something is really holding me back!!!!
Hmmmm.. wil think of something betta!! His anointing is able to lead me thru!!!
Satan!! u hv no way in my life!!! go away!!! i'm not afraid!!!
Fight ! Fight ! Fight!!!
BB!! go n pray le.. my emotion is really not doing well...

blogging in sch!!!
oops!!! haha!! no la.. i felt relieved after finishing my IP2 part 1b.. Wow!!! finally!!! but i'm supposed to finish the 2.5 page of memo by now!!! haiz!!! a long way to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go go ting!!! i can do all things thru christ who strengthen me!!!! yep yep! jia you! Gambatte!!!

got my evaluation fro hui erl le...
hmmm.. it's rather ok la.. she saew i'm quite ok and not bad as compare but there're more room for improvement...
1. be4 svc (briefing)
-sequential
-not self-conscious ( kip saying 'ok!')
- 'C' but not 'I' enuf ( i need to be more I)
- fulfil 2 ways interaction (but shld do more talking but asking for response)
- shld share more on own experience and revelation
-not bad in sharing verse
2. be4 svc (zone)
- not 'C' enuf in checking the zone ( haiz!! think Yi han eil be sad when he read abt this.. haha!!)
- did not give acurate forecast on manpower
3. when door opens ( zone)
- not quick in responding thru net
- appear at the same location as andy (bravo 2)
- focus too much on my own zone; did not care abt my neighbouring zoen which is "dying"
- need to multi task more
-need to be more familiarize with the set
- need betta comm with bravo 2
-need to double check the loop holes after worship, announcement, welcuming


Objectives for next svc duty on set:
1. Grow responsibilities
2. More responsive to set
3. Look at a bigger picture
4. More "I"


Pst Tan 's msg: A star- thrower

I was inspired by pst tan to serve the society more despite of my sch work...
I was inspired when i saw wat Sun had done to the society. I an to be like her; the real woman of God who impact the life of others ( she's great at singing, a graet mother, a graet wife, a great volutary worker.... she's jus great at everything!!!!)
I wan to be a star thrower!!!
Even if it is jus me, i wld be able to contribute significantly to the society... iI believe that one individual can make a diff in the society...
I'm currently praying for my frenz's salvation..
Perhaps i shld start from small first... bringing ppl to Christ is oso a way of influencing the society...
Go ting!!!!!
off to study!!!
bb!! for those who are busy studying, gambatte ya????
We can be overcomer, finisher!! We are the head not the tail ya????

wow!!! after uni starts, i found that i had not been blogging as much.... i wanted to but i'm always held up by something else...
currently, i'm experiencing a stressful period where all the proj and presentations are coming up..
in one week time, i'll hv to hand in my IS 101 individual proj, bgs major proposal and presentation, AS presenation, IS 101 case facilitation.. til now, i onli complete my Is101 case facilitation.. ai yo!!! i dun think something is wrong with my time management. is abt the sch's time managemt. u noe it is until yesterday morning then we are brief wat to do for IP2... mad sch!!!! then the senoior is like saeing this stressful situation wun change to a betta, it wil get worse eventually... this is wat all IS student face!
Dotz!!!! he's so arrogant!!! dun like him!! tot he's prof meh!!! so arrogant.. jason and desai are not to that extreme la... they r prof leh!! but they r not tat arrogant... tx god, he's not my TA.. or i wil scream and tear myself apart!!! hahaha... :)
was doing bravo 1 yesterday.. i dun noe that i was bravo 1 til melvin told me 24 hrs be4 my duty.. oh man!!! so scary!! he told me abt my duty scope. oh gosh!! felt like fainting.. i was suppose to give briefing be4 svc duty ( sharing of verse, telling them their work scope and praying as a whole), be the major one fighting the "battle" during svc.. oh man!! i made a lot of mistake.. 1. i'm slow at responding thru walkie set. 2. not alert and sharp enuf 3. unable to manange my ushers 4. unable to control the crowd 5. running abt in the terrence which i'm not suppose to cos praise is abt to end
after svc when i was talking to Bro Alex yiu, he's like "U!!!!!! u huh!! y like this????"
oh man!!! my heart breaks.... but god i really try my best!!! haiz!!!! was talking to him on the phone after my supper with my supper gang.. then he told me abt my mistake as listed.. he oso told me that i'm too reliant on my section leader. always depend on her to help me!!!! if not cos of hui erl and j=karen, i tink me n andy might hv die in the battle.. haiz!!!! he suggests a lot of soln for me too.. ya.. i learnt something... i shld dedicate jobs to my indivdual IC. 2. i shls be veri firm with the highway usher 3. i shld learn to multi task ... in the end, he gave me 6.5 or 7 out of ten for my comm operation "test".... hmmm.. ya.. i think this is wat i deserve ba. my first time in such a big zone. a pat on my shoulder.. haha!! now.. stil waiting for hui erl evaluation... hope it is alrite!!!

1 2 3
3 most impt men in my life passed away!!!
first, is my grandpa ( my mummy's daddy) in 2002
second is my beloved beloved beloved beloved grandpa ( my daddy's daddy) in 2004
third is my grand-uncle ( my mummy's aunt husband)

since yping, i was brought up by my most beloved grandpa.. i stil rmb how he protect me when my mummy tried to whack me (perhaps, i'm too naughty le ba!!!) my beloved grandpa will always hugged me tightly, telling my mummy if u wan to whack her, whack me first!!! c how protective he is.. i really love him a lot.. his fav dish is duck's leg!! but it's oily , my dear ye ye!! i used to tell him that.. both of us are always aiming for the duck's leg!! haha!! always yeye surrender it to me!!! how sweet he is!! when i was in sec sch, i start to draw away from family n closer to my frenz.. from then on, i hardly visit him... i rmb after my prelims, he kip urging my daddy to bring me to him .. but i had already promised my frenz to go out n hv fun so i din go.. after a few days, i receive a call from my grandma telling me that my yeye was hospitalized.. he went into a state of unconsciousness.. i teared when i got to the hospital.. shld not believe that!! i cried out asking him to wake up but he couldn't. i saw that he was trying veri hard but he really cant. when i shouted his name, he teared!! yeye!! veri sorry... after 2 weeks, he passed away.. when i heard abt it, i fell down on the floor.. knocking my head on the floor.. i shld nt believe that!! my yeye!! u haven seen me !! y u left me like this!! plus the nxt day is my o level physics practical exam.... yeye yeyeye!!!! rest in peace!! i wun disappoint u!!! tx for all ur guidance all this while.. ting ting love u!! u always live in my heart!! tx for ur sacrfice!!! love u always...

i jus received the msg that my grand uncle passed away this afternoon!!! again, i shld nt believe that!! i was talking to him not long ago.. io noe he had cancer disease but i nv expected that!! oit is so soon!! i really cant take it.. i kip deceiving myself that he is stil alive but........... no ting.. he's died!! yes!! he is!!! he is no longer existing!!! he died when he was bathing!!! he died when he was naked! he died when he was kneeling down!!! this is so cruel!!!!!he n my grand aunt do not hv any children so since young when my mummy is busy, she will always ask my grand uncle and aunt to take care of me.. so a relationship is built up.. we nv fail to vist them every new yr and occasionally some time in the yr... my grand uncle used to dote me a lot.. he always bought "hacks" for me!! i nv wan to eat that again!! he reminds me of him!!! it's painful!!! maybe i stil need time.. going to his wake tml nite after meeting prof for bgs major proj and wed after the biz IT talk.. let me c him once again!! bb... my grand uncle... love u tooo!!!!

Oh man!! Wenting is sick!!!!
My mummy jus brought me to the doctor!! ai yo!!!
my head is so heavy that i couldn't focus on my work!!
i aim to do several tasks but till now, i haven finish any... so upset wif myself...

Yesterday, my bs taecher (sis yi lun) challenges us to take more initiative in cg, enrol into SOT nxt yr to learn more abt god's word and pray for a word for this season. i had the word last note when i was praying yesterday nite; "what u reap will be what u sow" i start analyzing this and finally understand y god give me this...

1. if i sow effort and time in my cg and ministry, i wil reap discipline souls
2. if i sow effort and time in my studies, i wil reap good results
3. of i sow effort and time in reaching out to my frenz, i wil reap renewed souls
4. if i sow effort and time in my cgm, i will reap gd relationship with them
5. if i sow effort and time in my frenz, i will reap gd relationship
6. if i sow time in fellowhipping with my cgl and sl, i will reap knowledge and imparation

this concludes......... i wil spend more time n effort with U!!
haha!!

was having lunch with yi han n si jie in the afternoon after UNI- Y exco retret..
yi han shared with us several things abt himself.. something tat impact me a lot...
he said that studies is not everything in life.. he chose to complete his uni in 4.5 yrs cos he think there is better things to spend on in life..
ya!! tat's true!!
studies is not tat impt in life.. what if we get a high GPA by the time we graduate, it onli secure us with our first job.. a lot of things at work is abt learning on the spot; ther is a lot of nw things we hv to learn when we go out to work.. employers are looking for workers who can adapt and willing to learn..
ya.. tat's true!! tat's make me so guilty!!!

oh ya!!! yi han shared with the future exco of UNI -Y today...
he shared his vision he had for UNI-Y with us; to build strong relationship.. UNI Y is not an organisation tat serve community, we serve ppl too.. this includes all the mbrs in UNI-Y. he then suggested to give recognisation to the mbrs like OM,MM and EM. ( tat's wat our church is doing now!) he dun wan to leave any mbrs out in this organisation.. he wan them to give taht sense of belonging to UNI-Y. i totally agree.. if ppl dun feel recognise, they may leave and have a bad impressiuon of UNI-Y. he oso suggested to make T-shirts, name tag and etc...
i finally noe my job scope.. hmmmm.. i think there are a lot of things i need to learn fro my upper-study, alan. like contacting with the several ppl, YMCA,Doing attendance, creating a spreadsheet to kip track of the attendance and etc.... i wan to do it well.. cos i believe abt building life in ppl; serving god wholeheartedly and serving ppl fervently.. (usher ministry's vision) i think tat it is not enuf to serve actively in church and be so sluggish in the marketplace.. God see everything, ya?? to kick off, I'm meeting Alan this coming tues to ask him in details abt my work scope...
bb.. off to do my work!!! god! gif me ur strength..
"greater is HE who is me than HE is in the world"
" God is my strength!"

have not been blogging for long... too busy?? too lazy?? or both??
yea!!! finally, it is my recess week!! i hv been waiting for this break ever since week 4. cos that is the week that i stay in sch till 1am to rush my assignments and proj.. that was the first time i went home tat late... so dark!! so scary can!!! I REALLY NEED REST, sch!!! but now, i'm stil rushing my assignments; AW- which muz be handed in by this comg fri (but it's holiday leh!!), AS individual proj- due next fri (but haven start doing yet! OOps!! doing tonite), AS grp proj- muz be done asap( as mentioned by my grp mates but we r almost done), BGS major proj- due in week 12, BGS assignment- due nxt week, IS200 report- due next fri (on IDA!!! oh man!!! but manageable!! haha!!), IS 101 Case facilitation report and powerpoint slides- due on week 11 ( 3 weeks from now) and soon all the end- yr exam is coming!!! haiz!!! busy again!! i feel liek going out with my aiai leh!! but our time cant coordinate... Mentioning abt my aiai, it was real funny on sat.. afte duty and training, the whole grp of us were sitting at foyer 3 deciding what to eat.. i saw wee qi ( cheryl's eye candy) and his gd frenz ( jacky?? i suppose). They were there; wee qi is slping wjile jacky is doing his stuff.. when i mentioned abt the nick"aiai", jacky look up and look at the direction i was pointing!! to his disappointment, my aiai is jennifer; a gal.. Haha!! i felt like laughing but.......... i din la.. a bad nighmare is more than enuf to scare me!!!! actually, till now, both of us have difficulty facing each other after that painful incident... but i had gotten over it and moving on happily in life.. as for him, i dun noe!! he stil avoid me!!! i dun noe wat's wrong with him?? i dun care!!! cos i'm not in this church and world to care abt how ppl think of me.. i'm more concerned how god regard me!! i wan to go to heaven hearing god telling me "ting ting!!! well done!! tx for ur obedience !!" then, i will run and hug god, my abba daddy!!! the one who strengthen me... i wil continue to pray for u boy; a more open heart and mind!!

was touched by yesterday msg shared by sharon during the prayer meeting.. she mentioned abt normal and fundamental state. the holy spirit then challenged me to step out of my comfort zone and be gridded by passion, purpose and direction.. yea!! i nneed direction and passion.... i hv new visions but i dun noe how to go abt doing it?? was fellowshipping wif a few of them after prayer meeting.. my seniors strongly encourages me to go to SOT nxt year!! ya!! i'm going.. fill ijn the particulars but stil waiting for my parentrs to sponsor me.. haha!! or i hv to pay on my own!! taxing leh!!! god melt their hearts, ya?? when i was on my way back with charis, she encourages me to take break and relax myself... ya!! lorraine, Hui erl and charis had mentioned this to me!! it's time to do soemthing... ask me out more often ya??

oh ya!! i bought a new canon camera on sunday!! i bought but my mum paid.. haha!! i oso bought a new newbie pencil case, a white pair of heels, a pair of newbie shorts, a army green jaket and skirt and a pair of jeans.. haha!! happyshopping on sun ~!! love shopping!! but i'm rushing assignments now le!!! bb! going to complete my AW essay le...