a teary day!!
in the morning, i hv argument wif my parents regarding money (allowance) issue. so frustrated ya i din ans much.. i jus walked out of the hse pretendng they r invisible.. oh man!! wat attitude m i giving them? when i was on my way to sch, my tears were abt to roll down but i tell myself "No! ting!! is ok!! everything wil be alrite! You wil be brave!!" but the moment i reach home, i look at amy and cried out.. i'm so upset abt it. during bgs class, prof mentions abt travelling to macau for case study.. i wan to go!!!! but how can i get the money,.. i dun wan to get fro them!! plus, i have to pay for my own SOT nxt yr.. the moment i think of it, i teared again.. daryl is like there provding me with tissues.. after class, i met my dearest doris; someone dearest and closest to me. we are like talking.. again.. i teared and cried out. oh man!! my third time,,, haiz.. upon knowing wat happened to me, lorraine( my cgl) came al the way down and lokk for me. she supposed to work at attributes today but she requested for a leave so that she can fellowship wif me.. oh man!! tx lorraine...she shared wif me a lot of things and her experiences.she told me this" ting, u can be a gd leader but u need to hv a breakthru in ur emotion". ya, i noe!! i'm trying too.. she then shared wif me wat pastor sae to her.. pastor noe she has emotion prob thus he consider alot be4 lorraine became a cgl.. he sae " even if u r the most imperfect person in this world, GOD wil stil use u!!" "God use silly, foolish ppl to challenge the wise".. when i heard of that, i teared again.. ya!! God!! y did u choose me?? Y did u promote me even if i'm so imperfect??" i wan to be perfect; one with character similar as jesus! but y is stan always so evil.. why is he always attcking me n ppl ard me!! haiz!! accept it ba..
overcoming satan is more impt...
i stil love my parents a lot.. i shall jus humble myself n they wil c the change in me!! a gd testimony!!!