Hey hey!!!
It have been a tough week for me!!! I can sae a lot of things happened this week which really disheartened me.. In term of attendance, i'm disappointed. In term of quality, i think there is more room to work at. In term of attitude, i think every of us needs to change and be more chrsit -like; i think over this week, my attitude really cant make it! I can see myself getting impatient. Ya? i think prob i needs to work on it on this 2008.
This is the first time i really cried out! It's really veri disheartening... but after crying, i felt refreshed and charged up to continue working on it. haha!!! I'm so sorry to the person who listen to me at that point of time. Sorry!! noe u r nt feeling well yet u stil listen to all the sobbing... and tx for that; really appreciate you as my senior and frenz!!! After that, i msged lorraine abt it. in less than 1 hr, she caled and talked to me. Instaed of consoling me, she blasted me again!! ha!! (actually, the way she discipled me is thru blasting la!!) She really talk sense (of course la!! she's my CGL leh!) and gif me several soln.. something i really rmbed "ting, this is reality; this is all abt ministry life" She aded telling me that i nid to have a breakthru in my team management; so wat of i handle ppl that help me and nvfail to obey and submit to me in the past. i shld expet this to happen everytime. I nid to break out fro my comfort zone and hv more capacity to handle such situation. She then sae that i nid to manage my own expectation. ya, true!!! i nid to change in this area; a mindset of a comfort zone...
The nxt day, i was talking to Yihan. Can see that he was burdened abt something that day but dun dare to ask him.. haha!! i oso dun noe y?? haha!! Nvm.. He sae the same thing; manage my own expectations. Regarding the weird weird guy in my team, i shld hv some wisdoma nd hand him over to a brither to handle.. he might be my sheep but i nis to have wisdom la.. He oso told me taht i think i shld share with u guys out there; Our life shld be built on prayer. Even our confidence level comes fro god. It is so natural that as u began to interact with god, u wil jus have the confidence that u wil do alrite. ya! Amen!!! Regarding promotion, it's oso built on prayer... One dun need to ask for it, grab opp to achieve it.. one jus nid to pray and have a strong relationship.. Automatically, it wil come to past.. rite Yihan?? rite guys out there... A revealation to me..
Rite now.. I feel more relaxed.. i dun need to care abt anything; jus my time with God. Cos i noe HE determine my life... so ya!!! here i come!!
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Realy wan to tx ppl in my life like my cgl, Lorraine; my sl, Jasmine; my fellow leaders, Wenlong, Cassandra and Cindy; my senior cum frenz; esp Yihan and Daniel; my cgm, esp anthea, jaslyn, ai zhen....
a great yr ahead!!
